[Part 13] "Gone With The Wind" by Margaret Mitchell
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SCARLETT HAD BEEN AT TARA two weeks since her return from Atlanta when the largest blister on her foot began to fester, swelling until it was impossible for her to put on her shoe or do more than hobble about on her heel.
Desperation plucked at her when she looked at the angry sore on her toe.
Suppose it should gangrene like the soldiersâ wounds and she would die, far away from a doctor?
Bitter as life was now, she had no desire to leave it.
And who would look after Tara if she should die?
She had hoped when she first came home that Geraldâs old spirit would revive and he would take command, but in these two weeks that hope had vanished.
She knew now that, whether she liked it or not, she had the plantation and all its people on her two inexperienced hands, for Gerald still sat quietly, like a man in a dream, so frighteningly absent from Tara, so gentle.
To her pleas for advice he gave as his only answer: âDo what you think best, Daughter.â
Or worse still, âConsult with your mother, Puss.â
He would never be any different and now Scarlett realized the truth and accepted it without emotionâthat until he died Gerald would always be waiting for Ellen, always listening for her.
He was in some dim borderline country where time was standing still and Ellen was always in the next room.
The mainspring of his existence was taken away when she died and with it had gone his bounding assurance, his impudence and his restless vitality.
Ellen was the audience before which the blustering drama of Gerald OâHara had been played.
Now the curtain had been rung down forever, the footlights dimmed and the audience suddenly vanished, while the stunned old actor remained on his empty stage, waiting for his cues.
That morning the house was still, for everyone except Scarlett, Wade and the three sick girls was in the swamp hunting the sow.
Even Gerald had aroused a little and stumped off across the furrowed fields, one hand on Porkâs arm and a coil of rope in the other.
Suellen and Carreen had cried themselves to sleep, as they did at least twice a day when they thought of Ellen, tears of grief and weakness oozing down their sunken cheeks.
Melanie, who had been propped upon pillows for the first time that day, lay covered with a mended sheet between two babies, the downy flaxen head of one cuddled in her arm, the kinky black head of Dilceyâs child held as gently in the other.
Wade sat at the bottom of the bed, listening to a fairy story.
To Scarlett, the stillness at Tara was unbearable, for it reminded her too sharply of the deathlike stillness of the desolate country through which she had passed that long day on her way home from Atlanta.
The cow and the calf had made no sound for hours.
There were no birds twittering outside her window and even the noisy family of mockers who had lived among the harshly rustling leaves of the magnolia for generations had no song that day.
She had drawn a low chair close to the open window of her bedroom, looking out on the front drive, the lawn and the empty green pasture across the road, and she sat with her skirts well above her knees and her chin resting on her arms on the window sill.
There was a bucket of well water on the floor beside her and every now and then she lowered her blistered foot into it, screwing up her face at the stinging sensation.
Fretting, she dug her chin into her arm.
Just when she needed her strength most, this toe had to fester.
Those fools would never catch the sow.
It had taken them a week to capture the pigs, one by one, and now after two weeks the sow was still at liberty.
Scarlett knew that if she were just there in the swamp with them, she could tuck up her dress to her knees and take the rope and lasso the sow before you could say Jack Robinson.
But even after the sow was caughtâif she were caught?
What then, after she and her litter were eaten?
Life would go on and so would appetites.
Winter was coming and there would be no food, not even the poor remnants of the vegetables from the neighborsâ gardens.
They must have dried peas and sorghum and meal and rice andâandâoh, so many things.
Corn and cotton seed for next springâs planting, and new clothes too.
Where was it all to come from and how would she pay for it?
She had privately gone through Geraldâs pockets and his cash box and all she could find was stacks of Confederate bonds and three thousand dollars in Confederate bills.
That was about enough to buy one square meal for them all, she thought ironically, now that Confederate money was worth almost less than nothing at all.
But if she did have money and could find food, how would she haul it home to Tara?
Why had God let the old horse die?
Even that sorry animal Rhett had stolen would make all the difference in the world to them.
Oh, those fine sleek mules which used to kick up their heels in the pasture across the road, and the handsome carriage horses, her little mare, the girlsâ ponies and Geraldâs big stallion racing about and tearing up the turfâOh, for one of them, even the balkiest mule!
But, no matterâwhen her foot healed she would walk to Jonesboro.
It would be the longest walk she had ever taken in her life, but walk it she would.
Even if the Yankees had burned the town completely, she would certainly find someone in the neighborhood who could tell her where to get food.
Wadeâs pinched face rose up before her eyes.
He didnât like yams, he repeated; wanted a drumstick and some rice and gravy.
The bright sunlight in the front yard suddenly clouded and the trees blurred through tears.
Scarlett dropped her head on her arms and struggled not to cry.
Crying was so useless now.
The only time crying ever did any good was when there was a man around from whom you wished favors.
As she crouched there, squeezing her eyes tightly to keep back the tears, she was startled by the sound of trotting hooves.
But she did not raise her head.
She had imagined that sound too often in the nights and days of these last two weeks, just as she had imagined she heard the rustle of Ellenâs skirts.
Her heart hammered, as it always did at such moments before she told herself sternly: âDonât be a fool.â
But the hooves slowed down in a startlingly natural way to the rhythm of a walk and there was the measured scrunch-scrunch on the gravel.
It was a horseâthe Tarletons, the Fontaines!
She looked up quickly.
It was a Yankee cavalryman.
Automatically, she dodged behind the curtain and peered fascinated at him through the dim folds of the cloth, so startled that the breath went out of her lungs with a gasp.
He sat slouched in the saddle, a thick, rough-looking man with an unkempt black beard straggling over his unbuttoned blue jacket.
Little close-set eyes, squinting in the sun glare, calmly surveyed the house from beneath the visor of his tight blue cap.
As he slowly dismounted and tossed the bridle reins over the hitching post, Scarlettâs breath came back to her as suddenly and painfully as after a blow in the stomach.
A Yankee, a Yankee with a long pistol on his hip!
And she was alone in the house with three sick girls and the babies!
As he lounged up the walk, hand on holster, beady little eyes glancing to right and left, a kaleidoscope of jumbled pictures spun in her mind, stories Aunt Pittypat had whispered of attacks on unprotected women, throat cuttings, houses burned over the heads of dying women, children bayoneted because they cried, all of the unspeakable horrors that lay bound up in the name of âYankee.â
Her first terrified impulse was to hide in the closet, crawl under the bed, fly down the back stairs and run screaming to the swamp, anything to escape him.
Then she heard his cautious feet on the front steps and his stealthy tread as he entered the hall and she knew that escape was cut off.
Too cold with fear to move, she heard his progress from room to room downstairs, his steps growing louder and bolder as he discovered no one.
Now he was in the dining room and in a moment he would walk out into the kitchen.
At the thought of the kitchen, rage suddenly leaped up in Scarlettâs breast, so sharply that it jabbed at her heart like a knife thrust, and fear fell away before her overpowering fury.
The kitchen!
There, over the open kitchen fire were two pots, one filled with apples stewing and the other with a hodgepodge of vegetables brought painfully from Twelve Oaks and the MacIntosh gardenâdinner that must serve for nine hungry people and hardly enough for two.
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Scarlett had been restraining her appetite for hours, waiting for the return of the others and the thought of the Yankee eating their meager meal made her shake with anger.
God damn them all!
They descended like locusts and left Tara to starve slowly and now they were back again to steal the poor leavings.
Her empty stomach writhed within her.
By God, this was one Yankee who would do no more stealing!
She slipped off her worn shoe and, barefooted, she pattered swiftly to the bureau, not even feeling her festered toe.
She opened the top drawer soundlessly and caught up the heavy pistol she had brought from Atlanta, the weapon Charles had worn but never fired.
She fumbled in the leather box that hung on the wall below his saber and brought out a cap.
She slipped it into place with a hand that did not shake.
Quickly and noiselessly, she ran into the upper hall and down the stairs, steadying herself on the banisters with one hand and holding the pistol close to her thigh in the folds of her skirt.
âWhoâs there?â cried a nasal voice and she stopped on the middle of the stairs, the blood thudding in her ears so loudly she could hardly hear him.
âHalt or Iâll shoot!â came the voice.
He stood in the door of the dining room, crouched tensely, his pistol in one hand and, in the other, the small rosewood sewing box fitted with gold thimble, gold-handled scissors and tiny gold-topped acorn of emery.
Scarlettâs legs felt cold to the knees but rage scorched her face.
Ellenâs sewing box in his hands.
She wanted to cry: âPut it down!
Put it down, you dirtyââ but the words would not come.
She could only stare over the banisters at him and watch his face change from harsh tenseness to a half-contemptuous, half-ingratiating smile.
âSo there is somebody ter home,â he said, slipping his pistol back into its holster and moving into the hall until he stood directly below her.
âAll alone, little lady?â
Like lightning, she shoved her weapon over the banisters and into the startled bearded face.
Before he could even fumble at his belt, she pulled the trigger.
The back kick of the pistol made her reel, as the roar of the explosion filled her ears and acrid smoke stung her nostrils.
The man crashed backwards to the floor, sprawling into the dining room with a violence that shook the furniture.
The box clattered from his hand, the contents spilling about him.
Hardly aware that she was moving, Scarlett ran down the stairs and stood over him, gazing down into what was left of the face above the beard, a bloody pit where the nose had been, glazing eyes burned with powder.
As she looked, two streams of blood crept across the shining floor, one from his face and one from the back of his head.
Yes, he was dead.
Undoubtedly.
She had killed a man.
The smoke curled slowly to the ceiling and the red streams widened about her feet.
For a timeless moment she stood there and in the still hot hush of the summer morning every irrelevant sound and scent seemed magnified, the quick thudding of her heart, like a drumbeat, the slight rough rustling of the magnolia leaves, the far-off plaintive sound of a swamp bird and the sweet smell of the flowers outside the window.
She had killed a man, she who took care never to be in at the kill on a hunt, she who could not bear the squealing of a hog at slaughter or the squeak of a rabbit in a snare.
Murder! she thought dully.
Iâve done murder.
Oh, this canât be happening to me!
Her eyes went to the stubby hairy hand on the floor so close to the sewing box and suddenly she was vitally alive again, vitally glad with a cool tigerish joy.
She could have ground her heel into the gaping wound which had been his nose and taken sweet pleasure in the feel of his warm blood on her bare feet.
She had struck a blow of revenge for Taraâand for Ellen.
There were hurried stumbling steps in the upper hall, a pause and then more steps, weak dragging steps now, punctuated by metallic clankings.
A sense of time and reality coming back to her, Scarlett looked up and saw Melanie at the top of the stairs, clad only in the ragged chemise which served her as a nightgown, her weak arm weighed down with Charlesâ saber.
Melanieâs eyes took in the scene below in its entirety, the sprawling blue-clad body in the red pool, the sewing box beside him, Scarlett, barefooted and gray-faced, clutching the long pistol.
In silence her eyes met Scarlettâs.
There was a glow of grim pride in her usually gentle face, approbation and a fierce joy in her smile that equaled the fiery tumult in Scarlettâs own bosom.
âWhyâwhyâsheâs like me!
She understands how I feel!â thought Scarlett in that long moment.
âSheâd have done the same thing!â
With a thrill she looked up at the frail swaying girl for whom she had never had any feelings but of dislike and contempt.
Now, struggling against hatred for Ashleyâs wife, there surged a feeling of admiration and comradeship.
She saw in a flash of clarity untouched by any petty emotion that beneath the gentle voice and the dovelike eyes of Melanie there was a thin flashing blade of unbreakable steel, felt too that there were banners and bugles of courage in Melanieâs quiet blood.
âScarlett!
Scarlett!â shrilled the weak frightened voices of Suellen and Carreen, muffled by their closed door, and Wadeâs voice screamed âAuntee!
Auntee!â
Swiftly, Melanie put her finger to her lips and, laying the sword on the top step, she painfully made her way down the upstairs hall and opened the door of the sick room.
âDonât be scared, chickens!â came her voice with teasing gaiety.
âYour big sister was trying to clean the rust off Charlesâ pistol and it went off and nearly scared her to death!â⌠âNow, Wade Hampton, Mama just shot off your dear Papaâs pistol!
When you are bigger, she will let you shoot it.â
âWhat a cool liar!â thought Scarlett with admiration.
âI couldnât have thought that quickly.
But why lie?
Theyâve got to know Iâve done it.â
She looked down at the body again and now revulsion came over her as her rage and fright melted away, and her knees began to quiver with the reaction.
Melanie dragged herself to the top step again and started down, holding onto the banisters, her pale lower lip caught between her teeth.
âGo back to bed, silly, youâll kill yourself!â Scarlett cried, but the half-naked Melanie made her painful way down into the lower hall.
âScarlett,â she whispered, âwe must get him out of here and bury him.
He may not be alone and if they find him hereââ
She steadied herself on Scarlettâs arm.
âHe must be alone,â said Scarlett.
âI didnât see anyone else from the upstairs window.
He must be a deserter.â
âEven if he is alone, no one must know about it.
The negroes might talk and then theyâd come and get you.
Scarlett, we must get him hidden before the folks come back from the swamp.â
Her mind prodded to action by the feverish urgency of Melanieâs voice, Scarlett thought hard.
âI could bury him in the corner of the garden under the arborâthe ground is soft there where Pork dug up the whisky barrel.
But how will I get him there?â
âWeâll both take a leg and drag him,â said Melanie firmly.
Reluctantly, Scarlettâs admiration went still higher.
âYou couldnât drag a cat.
Iâll drag him,â she said roughly.
âYou go back to bed.
Youâll kill yourself.
Donât dare try to help me either or Iâll carry you upstairs myself.â
Melanieâs white face broke into a sweet understanding smile.
âYou are very dear, Scarlett,â she said and softly brushed her lips against Scarlettâs cheek.
Before Scarlett could recover from her surprise, Melanie went on: âIf you can drag him out, Iâll mop up theâthe mess before the folks get home, and Scarlettââ
âYes?â
âDo you suppose it would be dishonest to go through his knapsack?
He might have something to eat.â
âI do not,â said Scarlett, annoyed that she had not thought of this herself.
âYou take the knapsack and Iâll go through his pockets.â
Stooping over the dead man with distaste, she unbuttoned the remaining buttons of his jacket and systematically began rifling his pockets.
âDear God,â she whispered, pulling out a bulging wallet, wrapped about with a rag.
âMelanieâMelly, I think itâs full of money!â
Melanie said nothing but abruptly sat down on the floor and leaned back against the wall.
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âYou look,â she said shakily.
âIâm feeling a little weak.â
Scarlett tore off the rag and with trembling hands opened the leather folds.
âLook, Mellyâjust look!â
Melanie looked and her eyes dilated.
Jumbled together was a mass of bills, United States greenbacks mingling with Confederate money and, glinting from between them, were one ten-dollar gold piece and two five-dollar gold pieces.
âDonât stop to count it now,â said Melanie as Scarlett began fingering the bills.
âWe havenât timeââ
âDo you realize, Melanie, that this money means that weâll eat?â
âYes, yes, dear.
I know but we havenât time now.
You look in his other pockets and Iâll take the knapsack.â
Scarlett was loath to put down the wallet.
Bright vistas opened before herâreal money, the Yankeeâs horse, food!
There was a God after all, and He did provide, even if He did take very odd ways of providing.
She sat on her haunches and stared at the wallet smiling.
Food!
Melanie plucked it from her handsâ
âHurry!â she said.
The trouser pockets yielded nothing except a candle end, a jackknife, a plug of tobacco and a bit of twine.
Melanie removed from the knapsack a small package of tobacco which she sniffed as if it were the sweetest of perfumes, hardtack and, her face changing, a miniature of a little girl in a gold frame set with seed pearls, a garnet brooch, two broad gold bracelets with tiny dangling gold chains, a gold thimble, a small silver babyâs cup, gold embroidery scissors, a diamond solitaire ring and a pair of earrings with pendant pear-shaped diamonds, which even their unpracticed eyes could tell were well over a carat each.
âA thief!â whispered Melanie, recoiling from the still body.
âScarlett, he must have stolen all of this!â
âOf course,â said Scarlett.
âAnd he came here hoping to steal more from us.â
âIâm glad you killed him,â said Melanie, her gentle eyes hard.
âNow hurry, darling, and get him out of here.â
Scarlett bent over, caught the dead man by his boots and tugged.
How heavy he was and how weak she suddenly felt.
Suppose she shouldnât be able to move him?
Turning so that she backed the corpse, she caught a heavy boot under each arm and threw her weight forward.
He moved and she jerked again.
Her sore foot, forgotten in the excitement, now gave a tremendous throb that made her grit her teeth and shift her weight to the heel.
Tugging and straining, perspiration dripping from her forehead, she dragged him down the hall, a red stain following her path.
âIf he bleeds across the yard, we canât hide it,â she gasped.
âGive me your shimmy, Melanie, and Iâll wad it around his head.â
Melanieâs white face went crimson.
âDonât be silly, I wonât look at you,â said Scarlett.
âIf I had on a petticoat or pantalets Iâd use them.â
Crouching back against the wall, Melanie pulled the ragged linen garment over her head and silently tossed it to Scarlett, shielding herself as best she could with her arms.
âThank God, Iâm not that modest,â thought Scarlett, feeling rather than seeing Melanieâs agony of embarrassment, as she wrapped the ragged cloth about the shattered face.
By a series of limping jerks, she pulled the body down the hall toward the back porch and, pausing to wipe her forehead with the back of her hand, glanced back toward Melanie, sitting against the wall hugging her thin knees to her bare breasts.
How silly of Melanie to be bothering about modesty at a time like this, Scarlett thought irritably.
It was just part of her nicey-nice way of acting which had always made Scarlett despise her.
Then shame rose in her.
After allâafter all, Melanie had dragged herself from bed so soon after having a baby and had come to her aid with a weapon too heavy even for her to lift.
That had taken courage, the kind of courage Scarlett honestly knew she herself did not possess, the thin-steel, spun-silk courage which had characterized Melanie on the terrible night Atlanta fell and on the long trip home.
It was the same intangible, unspectacular courage that all the Wilkses possessed, a quality which Scarlett did not understand but to which she gave grudging tribute.
âGo back to bed,â she threw over her shoulder.
âYouâll be dead if you donât.
Iâll clean up the mess after Iâve buried him.â
âIâll do it with one of the rag rugs,â whispered Melanie, looking at the pool of blood with a sick face.
âWell, kill yourself then and see if I care!
And if any of the folks come back before Iâm finished, keep them in the house and tell them the horse just walked in from nowhere.â
Melanie sat shivering in the morning sunlight and covered her ears against the sickening series of thuds as the dead manâs head bumped down the porch steps.
No one questioned whence the horse had come.
It was so obvious he was a stray from the recent battle and they were well pleased to have him.
The Yankee lay in the shallow pit Scarlett had scraped out under the scuppernong arbor.
The uprights which held the thick vines were rotten and that night Scarlett hacked at them with the kitchen knife until they fell and the tangled mass ran wild over the grave.
The replacing of these posts was one bit of repair work Scarlett did not suggest and, if the negroes knew why, they kept their silence.
No ghost rose from that shallow grave to haunt her in the long nights when she lay awake, too tired to sleep.
No feeling of horror or remorse assailed her at the memory.
She wondered why, knowing that even a month before she could never have done the deed.
Pretty young Mrs. Hamilton, with her dimple and her jingling earbobs and her helpless little ways, blowing a manâs face to a pulp and then burying him in a hastily scratched-out hole!
Scarlett grinned a little grimly thinking of the consternation such an idea would bring to those who knew her.
âI wonât think about it any more,â she decided.
âItâs over and done with and Iâd have been a ninny not to kill him.
I reckonâI reckon I must have changed a little since coming home or else I couldnât have done it.â
She did not think of it consciously but in the back of her mind, whenever she was confronted by an unpleasant and difficult task, the idea lurked giving her strength: âIâve done murder and so I can surely do this.â
She had changed more than she knew and the shell of hardness which had begun to form about her heart when she lay in the slave garden at Twelve Oaks was slowly thickening.
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Now that she had a horse, Scarlett could find out for herself what had happened to their neighbors.
Since she came home she had wondered despairingly a thousand times: âAre we the only folks left in the County?
Has everybody else been burned out?
Have they all refugeed to Macon?â
With the memory of the ruins of Twelve Oaks, the MacIntosh place and the Slattery shack fresh in her mind, she almost dreaded to discover the truth.
But it was better to know the worst than to wonder.
She decided to ride to the Fontainesâ first, not because they were the nearest neighbors but because old Dr. Fontaine might be there.
Melanie needed a doctor.
She was not recovering as she should and Scarlett was frightened by her white weakness.
So on the first day when her foot had healed enough to stand a slipper, she mounted the Yankeeâs horse.
One foot in the shortened stirrup and the other leg crooked about the pommel in an approximation of a side saddle, she set out across the fields toward Mimosa, steeling herself to find it burned.
To her surprise and pleasure, she saw the faded yellow-stucco house standing amid the mimosa trees, looking as it had always looked.
Warm happiness, happiness that almost brought tears, flooded her when the three Fontaine women came out of the house to welcome her with kisses and cries of joy.
But when the first exclamations of affectionate greeting were over and they all had trooped into the dining room to sit down, Scarlett felt a chill.
The Yankees had not reached Mimosa because it was far off the main road.
And so the Fontaines still had their stock and their provisions, but Mimosa was held by the same strange silence that hung over Tara, over the whole countryside.
All the slaves except four women house servants had run away, frightened by the approach of the Yankees.
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There was not a man on the place unless Sallyâs little boy, Joe, hardly out of diapers, could be counted as a man.
Alone in the big house were Grandma Fontaine, in her seventies, her daughter-in-law who would always be known as Young Miss, though she was in her fifties, and Sally, who had barely turned twenty.
They were far away from neighbors and unprotected, but if they were afraid it did not show on their faces.
Probably, thought Scarlett, because Sally and Young Miss were too afraid of the porcelain-frail but indomitable old Grandma to dare voice any qualms.
Scarlett herself was afraid of the old lady, for she had sharp eyes and a sharper tongue and Scarlett had felt them both in the past.
Though unrelated by blood and far apart in age, there was a kinship of spirit and experience binding these women together.
All three wore home-dyed mourning, all were worn, sad, worried, all bitter with a bitterness that did not sulk or complain but, nevertheless, peered out from behind their smiles and their words of welcome.
For their slaves were gone, their money was worthless, Sallyâs husband, Joe, had died at Gettysburg and Young Miss was also a widow, for young Dr. Fontaine had died of dysentery at Vicksburg.
The other two boys, Alex and Tony, were somewhere in Virginia and nobody knew whether they were alive or dead; and old Dr. Fontaine was off somewhere with Wheelerâs cavalry.
âAnd the old fool is seventy-three years old though he tries to act younger and heâs as full of rheumatism as a hog is of fleas,â said Grandma, proud of her husband, the light in her eyes belying her sharp words.
âHave you all had any news of whatâs been happening in Atlanta?â asked Scarlett when they were comfortably settled.
âWeâre completely buried at Tara.â
âLaw, child,â said Old Miss, taking charge of the conversation, as was her habit, âweâre in the same fix as you are.
We donât know a thing except that Sherman finally got the town.â
âSo he did get it.
Whatâs he doing now?
Whereâs the fighting now?â
âAnd how would three lone women out here in the country know about the war when we havenât seen a letter or a newspaper in weeks?â said the old lady tartly.
âOne of our darkies talked to a darky whoâd seen a darky whoâd been to Jonesboro, and except for that we havenât heard anything.
What they said was that the Yankees were just squatting in Atlanta resting up their men and their horses, but whether itâs true or not youâre as good a judge as I am.
Not that they wouldnât need a rest, after the fight we gave them.â
âTo think youâve been at Tara all this time and we didnât know!â Young Miss broke in.
âOh, how I blame myself for not riding over to see!
But thereâs been so much to do here with most all the darkies gone that I just couldnât get away.
But I should have made time to go.
It wasnât neighborly of me.
But, of course, we thought the Yankees had burned Tara like they did Twelve Oaks and the MacIntosh house and that your folks had gone to Macon.
And we never dreamed you were home, Scarlett.â
âWell, how were we to know different when Mr. OâHaraâs darkies came through here so scared they were popeyed and told us the Yankees were going to burn Tara?â Grandma interrupted.
âAnd we could seeââ Sally began.
âIâm telling this, please,â said Old Miss shortly.
âAnd they said the Yankees were camped all over Tara and your folks were fixing to go to Macon.
And then that night we saw the glare of fire over toward Tara and it lasted for hours and it scared our fool darkies so bad they all ran off.
What burned?â
âAll our cottonâa hundred and fifty thousand dollarsâ worth,â said Scarlett bitterly.
âBe thankful it wasnât your house,â said Grandma, leaning her chin on her cane.
âYou can always grow more cotton and you canât grow a house.
By the bye, had you all started picking your cotton?â
âNo,â said Scarlett, âand now most of it is ruined.
I donât imagine thereâs more than three bales left standing, in the far field in the creek bottom, and what earthly good will it do?
All our field hands are gone and thereâs nobody to pick it.â
âMercy me, all our field hands are gone and thereâs nobody to pick it!â mimicked Grandma and bent a satiric glance on Scarlett.
âWhatâs wrong with your own pretty paws, Miss, and those of your sisters?â
âMe?
Pick cotton?â cried Scarlett aghast, as if Grandma had been suggesting some repulsive crime.
âLike a field hand?
Like white trash?
Like the Slattery women?â
âWhite trash, indeed!
Well, isnât this generation soft and ladylike!
Let me tell you, Miss, when I was a girl my father lost all his money and I wasnât above doing honest work with my hands and in the fields too, till Pa got enough money to buy some more darkies.
Iâve hoed my row and Iâve picked my cotton and I can do it again if I have to.
And it looks like Iâll have to.
White trash, indeed!â
âOh, but Mama Fontaine,â cried her daughter-in-law, casting imploring glances at the two girls, urging them to help her smooth the old ladyâs feathers.
âThat was so long ago, a different day entirely, and times have changed.â
âTimes never change when thereâs a need for honest work to be done,â stated the sharp-eyed old lady, refusing to be soothed.
âAnd Iâm ashamed for your mother, Scarlett, to hear you stand there and talk as though honest work made white trash out of nice people.
âWhen Adam delved and Eve spanâââ
To change the subject, Scarlett hastily questioned: âWhat about the Tarletons and the Calverts?
Were they burned out?
Have they refugeed to Macon?â
âThe Yankees never got to the Tarletons.
Theyâre off the main road, like we are, but they did get to the Calverts and they stole all their stock and poultry and got all the darkies to run off with themââ Sally began.
Grandma interrupted.
âHah!
They promised all the black wenches silk dresses and gold earbobsâthatâs what they did.
And Cathleen Calvert said some of the troopers went off with the black fools behind them on their saddles.
Well, all theyâll get will be yellow babies and I canât say that Yankee blood will improve the stock.â
âOh, Mama Fontaine!â
âDonât pull such a shocked face, Jane.
Weâre all married, arenât we?
And, God knows, weâve seen mulatto babies before this.â
âWhy didnât they burn the Calvertsâ house?â
âThe house was saved by the combined accents of the second Mrs. Calvert and that Yankee overseer of hers, Hilton,â said Old Miss, who always referred to the ex-governess as the âsecond Mrs. Calvert,â although the first Mrs. Calvert had been dead twenty years.
ââWe are staunch Union sympathizers,ââ mimicked the old lady, twanging the words through her long nose.
âCathleen said the two of them swore up hill and down dale that the whole passel of Calverts were Yankees.
And Mr. Calvert dead in the Wilderness!
And Raiford at Gettysburg and Cade in Virginia with the army!
Cathleen was so mortified she said sheâd rather the house had been burned.
She said Cade would bust when he came home and heard about it.
But then, thatâs what a man gets for marrying a Yankee womanâno pride, no decency, always thinking about their own skinsâŚ.
How come they didnât burn Tara, Scarlett?â
For a moment Scarlett paused before answering.
She knew the very next question would be: âAnd how are all your folks?
And how is your dear mother?â
She knew she could not tell them Ellen was dead.
She knew that if she spoke those words or even let herself think of them in the presence of these sympathetic women, she would burst into a storm of tears and cry until she was sick.
And she could not let herself cry.
She had not really cried since she came home and she knew that if she once let down the floodgates, her closely husbanded courage would all be gone.
But she knew, too, looking with confusion at the friendly faces about her, that if she withheld the news of Ellenâs death, the Fontaines would never forgive her.
Grandma in particular was devoted to Ellen and there were very few people in the County for whom the old lady gave a snap of her skinny fingers.
âWell, speak up,â said Grandma, looking sharply at her.
âDonât you know, Miss?â
âWell, you see, I didnât get home till the day after the battle,â she answered hastily.
âThe Yankees were all gone then.
PaâPa told me thatâthat he got them not to burn the house because Suellen and Carreen were so ill with typhoid they couldnât be moved.â
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âThatâs the first time I ever heard of a Yankee doing a decent thing,â said Grandma, as if she regretted hearing anything good about the invaders.
âAnd how are the girls now?â
âOh, they are better, much better, almost well but quite weak,â answered Scarlett.
Then, seeing the question she feared hovering on the old ladyâs lips, she cast hastily about for some other topic of conversation.
âIâI wonder if you could lend us something to eat?
The Yankees cleaned us out like a swarm of locusts.
But, if you are on short rations, just tell me so plainly andââ
âSend over Pork with a wagon and you shall have half of what weâve got, rice, meal, ham, some chickens,â said Old Miss, giving Scarlett a sudden keen look.
âOh, thatâs too much!
Really, Iââ
âNot a word!
I wonât hear it.
What are neighbors for?â
âYou are so kind that I canâtâBut I have to be going now.
The folks at home will be worrying about me.â
Grandma rose abruptly and took Scarlett by the arm.
âYou two stay here,â she commanded, pushing Scarlett toward the back porch.
âI have a private word for this child.
Help me down the steps, Scarlett.â
Young Miss and Sally said good-by and promised to come calling soon.
They were devoured by curiosity as to what Grandma had to say to Scarlett but unless she chose to tell them, they would never know.
Old ladies were so difficult, Young Miss whispered to Sally as they went back to their sewing.
Scarlett stood with her hand on the horseâs bridle, a dull feeling at her heart.
âNow,â said Grandma, peering into her face, âwhatâs wrong at Tara?
What are you keeping back?â
Scarlett looked up into the keen old eyes and knew she could tell the truth, without tears.
No one could cry in the presence of Grandma Fontaine without her express permission.
âMother is dead,â she said flatly.
The hand on her arm tightened until it pinched and the wrinkled lids over the yellow eyes blinked.
âDid the Yankees kill her?â
âShe died of typhoid.
Diedâthe day before I came home.â
âDonât think about it,â said Grandma sternly and Scarlett saw her swallow.
âAnd your Pa?â
âPa isâPa is not himself.â
âWhat do you mean?
Speak up.
Is he ill?â
âThe shockâhe is so strangeâhe is notââ
âDonât tell me heâs not himself.
Do you mean his mind is unhinged?â
It was a relief to hear the truth put so baldly.
How good the old lady was to offer no sympathy that would make her cry.
âYes,â she said dully, âheâs lost his mind.
He acts dazed and sometimes he canât seem to remember that Mother is dead.
Oh, Old Miss, itâs more than I can stand to see him sit by the hour, waiting for her and so patiently too, and he used to have no more patience than a child.
But itâs worse when he does remember that sheâs gone.
Every now and then, after heâs sat still with his ear cocked listening for her, he jumps up suddenly and stumps out of the house and down to the burying ground.
And then he comes dragging back with the tears all over his face and he says over and over till I could scream: âKatie Scarlett, Mrs. OâHara is dead.
Your mother is dead,â and itâs just like I was hearing it again for the first time.
And sometimes, late at night, I hear him calling her and I get out of bed and go to him and tell him sheâs down at the quarters with a sick darky.
And he fusses because sheâs always tiring herself out nursing people.
And itâs so hard to get him back to bed.
Heâs like a child.
Oh, I wish Dr. Fontaine was here!
I know he could do something for Pa!
And Melanie needs a doctor too.
She isnât getting over her baby like she shouldââ
âMellyâa baby?
And sheâs with you?â
âYes.â
âWhatâs Melly doing with you?
Why isnât she in Macon with her aunt and her kinfolks?
I never thought you liked her any too well, Miss, for all she was Charlesâ sister.
Now, tell me all about it.â
âItâs a long story, Old Miss.
Donât you want to go back in the house and sit down?â
âI can stand,â said Grandma shortly.
âAnd if you told your story in front of the others, theyâd be bawling and making you feel sorry for yourself.
Now, letâs have it.â
Scarlett began haltingly with the siege and Melanieâs condition, but as her story progressed beneath the sharp old eyes which never faltered in their gaze, she found words, words of power and horror.
It all came back to her, the sickeningly hot day of the babyâs birth, the agony of fear, the fight and Rhettâs desertion.
She spoke of the wild darkness of the night, the blazing camp fires which might be friends or foes, the gaunt chimneys which met her gaze in the morning sun, the dead men and horses along the road, the hunger, the desolation, the fear that Tara had been burned.
âI thought if I could just get home to Mother, she could manage everything and I could lay down the weary load.
On the way home I thought the worst had already happened to me, but when I knew she was dead I knew what the worst really was.â
She dropped her eyes to the ground and waited for Grandma to speak.
The silence was so prolonged she wondered if Grandma could have failed to comprehend her desperate plight.
Finally the old voice spoke and her tones were kind, kinder than Scarlett had ever heard her use in addressing anyone.
âChild, itâs a very bad thing for a woman to face the worst that can happen to her, because after sheâs faced the worst she canât ever really fear anything again.
And itâs very bad for a woman not to be afraid of something.
You think I donât understand what youâve told meâwhat youâve been through?
Well, I understand very well.
When I was about your age I was in the Creek uprising, right after the Fort Mims massacreâyes,â she said in a far-away voice, âjust about your age for that was fifty-odd years ago.
And I managed to get into the bushes and hide and I lay there and saw our house burn and I saw the Indians scalp my brothers and sisters.
And I could only lie there and pray that the light of the flames wouldnât show up my hiding place.
And they dragged Mother out and killed her about twenty feet from where I was lying.
And scalped her too.
And every so often one Indian would go back to her and sink his tommyhawk into her skull again.
IâI was my motherâs pet and I lay there and saw it all.
And in the morning I set out for the nearest settlement and it was thirty miles away.
It took me three days to get there, through the swamps and the Indians, and afterward they thought Iâd lose my mindâŚ.
Thatâs where I met Dr. Fontaine.
He looked after meâŚ.
Ah, well, thatâs been fifty years ago, as I said, and since that time Iâve never been afraid of anything or anybody because Iâd known the worst that could happen to me.
And that lack of fear has gotten me into a lot of trouble and cost me a lot of happiness.
God intended women to be timid frightened creatures and thereâs something unnatural about a woman who isnât afraidâŚ.
Scarlett, always save something to fearâeven as you save something to love.âŚâ
Her voice trailed off and she stood silent with eyes looking back over half a century to the day when she had been afraid.
Scarlett moved impatiently.
She had thought Grandma was going to understand and perhaps show her some way to solve her problems.
But like all old people, sheâd gotten to talking about things that happened before anyone was born, things no one was interested in.
Scarlett wished she had not confided in her.
âWell, go home, child, or theyâll be worrying about you,â she said suddenly.
âSend Pork with the wagon this afternoonâŚ.
And donât think you can lay down the load, ever.
Because you canât.
I know.â
Indian summer lingered into November that year and the warm days were bright days for those at Tara.
The worst was over.
They had a horse now and they could ride instead of walk.
They had fried eggs for breakfast and fried ham for supper to vary the monotony of the yams, peanuts and dried apples, and on one festal occasion they even had roast chicken.
The old sow had finally been captured and she and her brood rooted and grunted happily under the house where they were penned.
Sometimes they squealed so loudly no one in the house could talk but it was a pleasant sound.
It meant fresh pork for the white folks and chitterlings for the negroes when cold weather and hog-killing time should arrive, and it meant food for the winter for all.
Scarlettâs visit to the Fontaines had heartened her more than she realized.
Just the knowledge that she had neighbors, that some of the family friends and old homes had survived, drove out the terrible loss and alone feeling which had oppressed her in her first weeks at Tara.
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And the Fontaines and Tarletons, whose plantations had not been in the path of the army, were most generous in sharing what little they had.
It was the tradition of the County that neighbor helped neighbor and they refused to accept a penny from Scarlett, telling her that she would do the same for them and she could pay them back, in kind, next year when Tara was again producing.
Scarlett now had food for her household, she had a horse, she had the money and jewelry taken from the Yankee straggler, and the greatest need was new clothing.
She knew it would be risky business sending Pork south to buy clothes, when the horse might be captured by either Yankees or Confederates.
But, at least, she had the money with which to buy the clothes, a horse and wagon for the trip, and perhaps Pork could make the trip without getting caught.
Yes, the worst was over.
Every morning when Scarlett arose she thanked God for the pale-blue sky and the warm sun, for each day of good weather put off the inevitable time when warm clothing would be needed.
And each warm day saw more and more cotton piling up in the empty slave quarters, the only storage place left on the plantation.
There was more cotton in the fields than she or Pork had estimated, probably four bales, and soon the cabins would be full.
Scarlett had not intended to do any cotton picking herself, even after Grandma Fontaineâs last remark.
It was unthinkable that she, an OâHara lady, now the mistress of Tara, should work in the fields.
It put her on the same level with the snarly haired Mrs. Slattery and Emmie.
She had intended that the negroes should do the field work, while she and the convalescent girls attended to the house, but here she was confronted with a caste feeling even stronger than her own.
Pork, Mammy and Prissy set up outcries at the idea of working in the fields.
They reiterated that they were house niggers, not field hands.
Mammy, in particular, declared vehemently that she had never been a yard nigger.
She had been born in the Robillard great house, not in the quarters, and had been raised in Ole Missâ bedroom, sleeping on a pallet at the foot of the bed.
Dilcey alone said nothing and she fixed her Prissy with an unwinking eye that made her squirm.
Scarlett refused to listen to the protests and drove them all into the cotton rows.
But Mammy and Pork worked so slowly and with so many lamentations that Scarlett sent Mammy back to the kitchen to cook and Pork to the woods and the river with snares for rabbits and possums and lines for fish.
Cotton picking was beneath Porkâs dignity but hunting and fishing were not.
Scarlett next had tried her sisters and Melanie in the fields, but that had worked no better.
Melanie had picked neatly, quickly and willingly for an hour in the hot sun and then fainted quietly and had to stay in bed for a week.
Suellen, sullen and tearful, pretended to faint too, but came back to consciousness spitting like an angry cat when Scarlett poured a gourdful of water in her face.
Finally she refused point-blank.
âI wonât work in the fields like a darky!
You canât make me.
What if any of our friends ever heard about it?
What ifâif Mr. Kennedy ever knew?
Oh, if Mother knew about thisââ
âYou just mention Motherâs name once more, Suellen OâHara, and Iâll slap you flat,â cried Scarlett.
âMother worked harder than any darky on this place and you know it, Miss Fine Airs!â
âShe did not!
At least, not in the fields.
And you canât make me.
Iâll tell Papa on you and he wonât make me work!â
âDonât you dare go bothering Pa with any of our troubles!â cried Scarlett, distracted between indignation at her sister and fear for Gerald.
âIâll help you, Sissy,â interposed Carreen docilely.
âIâll work for Sue and me too.
She isnât well yet and she shouldnât be out in the sun.â
Scarlett said gratefully: âThank you, Sugarbaby,â but looked worriedly at her younger sister.
Carreen, who had always been as delicately pink and white as the orchard blossoms that are scattered by the spring wind, was no longer pink but still conveyed in her sweet thoughtful face a blossomlike quality.
She had been silent, a little dazed since she came back to consciousness and found Ellen gone, Scarlett a termagant, the world changed and unceasing labor the order of the new day.
It was not in Carreenâs delicate nature to adjust herself to change.
She simply could not comprehend what had happened and she went about Tara like a sleepwalker, doing exactly what she was told.
She looked, and was, frail but she was willing, obedient and obliging.
When she was not doing Scarlettâs bidding, her Rosary beads were always in her hands and her lips moving in prayers for her mother and for Brent Tarleton.
It did not occur to Scarlett that Carreen had taken Brentâs death so seriously and that her grief was unhealed.
To Scarlett, Carreen was still âbaby sister,â far too young to have had a really serious love affair.
Scarlett, standing in the sun in the cotton rows, her back breaking from the eternal bending and her hands roughened by the dry bolls, wished she had a sister who combined Suellenâs energy and strength with Carreenâs sweet disposition.
For Carreen picked diligently and earnestly.
But, after she had labored for an hour it was obvious that she, and not Suellen, was the one not yet well enough for such work.
So Scarlett sent Carreen back to the house too.
There remained with her now in the long rows only Dilcey and Prissy.
Prissy picked lazily, spasmodically, complaining of her feet, her back, her internal miseries, her complete weariness, until her mother took a cotton stalk to her and whipped her until she screamed.
After that she worked a little better, taking care to stay far from her motherâs reach.
Dilcey worked tirelessly, silently, like a machine, and Scarlett, with her back aching and her shoulder raw from the tugging weight of the cotton bag she carried, thought that Dilcey was worth her weight in gold.
âDilcey,â she said, âwhen good times come back, Iâm not going to forget how youâve acted.
Youâve been mighty good.â
The bronze giantess did not grin or squirm under praise like the other negroes.
She turned an immobile face to Scarlett and said with dignity: âThankee, Maâm.
But Mistâ Gerald and Miss Ellen been good to me.
Mistâ Gerald buy my Prissy so I wouldnât grieve and I doan forgit it.
I is part Indian and Indians doan forgit them as is good to them.
I is sorry âbout my Prissy.
She mighty wuthless.
Look lak she all nigger lak her pa.
Her pa was mighty flighty.â
In spite of Scarlettâs problem of getting help from the others in the picking and in spite of the weariness in doing the labor herself, her spirits lifted as the cotton slowly made its way from the fields to the cabins.
There was something about cotton that was reassuring, steadying.
Tara had risen to riches on cotton, even as the whole South had risen, and Scarlett was Southerner enough to believe that both Tara and the South would rise again out of the red fields.
Of course, this little cotton she had gathered was not much but it was something.
It would bring a little in Confederate money and that little would help her to save the hoarded greenbacks and gold in the Yankeeâs wallet until they had to be spent.
Next spring she would try to make the Confederate government send back Big Sam and the other field hands they had commandeered, and if the government wouldnât release them, sheâd use the Yankeeâs money to hire field hands from the neighbors.
Next spring, she would plant and plantâŚ.
She straightened her tired back and, looking over the browning autumn fields, she saw next yearâs crop standing sturdy and green, acre upon acre.
Next spring!
Perhaps by next spring the war would be over and good times would be back.
And whether the Confederacy won or lost, times would be better.
Anything was better than the constant danger of raids from both armies.
When the war was over, a plantation could earn an honest living.
Oh, if the war were only over!
Then people could plant crops with some certainty of reaping them!
There was hope now.
The war couldnât last forever.
She had her little cotton, she had food, she had a horse, she had her small but treasured hoard of money.
Yes, the worst was over!
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ON A NOONDAY IN MID-NOVEMBER, they all sat grouped about the dinner table, eating the last of the dessert concocted by Mammy from corn meal and dried huckleberries, sweetened with sorghum.
There was a chill in the air, the first chill of the year, and Pork, standing behind Scarlettâs chair, rubbed his hands together in glee and questioned: âAinâ it âbout time fer de hawg killinâ, Miss Scarlett?â
âYou can taste those chitlins already, canât you?â said Scarlett with a grin.
âWell, I can taste fresh pork myself and if the weather holds for a few days more, weâllââ
Melanie interrupted, her spoon at her lips, âListen, dear!
Somebodyâs coming!â
âSomebody hollerinâ,â said Pork uneasily.
On the crisp autumn air came clear the sound of horseâs hooves, thudding as swiftly as a frightened heart, and a womanâs voice, high pitched, screaming: âScarlett!
Scarlett!â
Eye met eye for a dreadful second around the table before chairs were pushed back and everyone leaped up.
Despite the fear that made it shrill, they recognized the voice of Sally Fontaine who, only an hour before, had stopped at Tara for a brief chat on her way to Jonesboro.
Now, as they all rushed pell-mell to crowd the front door, they saw her coming up the drive like the wind on a lathered horse, her hair streaming behind her, her bonnet dangling by its ribbons.
She did not draw rein but as she galloped madly toward them, she waved her arm back in the direction from which she had come.
âThe Yankees are coming!
I saw them!
Down the road!
The Yankeesââ
She sawed savagely at the horseâs mouth just in time to swerve him from leaping up the front steps.
He swung around sharply, covered the side lawn in three leaps and she put him across the four-foot hedge as if she were on the hunting field.
They heard the heavy pounding of his hooves as he went through the back yard and down the narrow lane between the cabins of the quarters and knew she was cutting across the fields to Mimosa.
For a moment they stood paralyzed and then Suellen and Carreen began to sob and clutch each otherâs fingers.
Little Wade stood rooted, trembling, unable to cry.
What he had feared since the night he left Atlanta had happened.
The Yankees were coming to get him.
âYankees?â said Gerald vaguely.
âBut the Yankees have already been here.â
âMother of God!â cried Scarlett, her eyes meeting Melanieâs frightened eyes.
For a swift instant there went through her memory again the horrors of her last night in Atlanta, the ruined homes that dotted the countryside, all the stories of rape and torture and murder.
She saw again the Yankee soldier standing in the hall with Ellenâs sewing box in his hand.
She thought: âI shall die.
I shall die right here.
I thought we were through with all that.
I shall die.
I canât stand any more.â
Then her eyes fell on the horse saddled and hitched and waiting for Pork to ride him to the Tarleton place on an errand.
Her horse!
Her only horse!
The Yankees would take him and the cow and the calf.
And the sow and her litterâOh, how many tiring hours it had taken to catch that sow and her agile young!
And theyâd take the rooster and the setting hens and the ducks the Fontaines had given her.
And the apples and the yams in the pantry bins.
And the flour and rice and dried peas.
And the money in the Yankee soldierâs wallet.
Theyâd take everything and leave them to starve.
âThey shanât have them!â she cried aloud and they all turned startled faces to her, fearful that her mind had cracked under the tidings.
âI wonât go hungry!
They shanât have them!â
âWhat is it, Scarlett?
What is it?â
âThe horse!
The cow!
The pigs!
They shanât have them!
I wonât let them have them!â
She turned swiftly to the four negroes who huddled in the doorway, their faces a peculiarly ashen shade.
âThe swamp,â she said rapidly.
âWhut swamp?â
âThe river swamp, you fools!
Take the pigs to the swamp.
All of you.
Quickly.
Pork, you and Prissy crawl under the house and get the pigs out.
Suellen, you and Carreen fill the baskets with as much food as you can carry and get to the woods.
Mammy, put the silver in the well again.
And Pork!
Pork, listen to me, donât stand there like that!
Take Pa with you.
Donât ask me where!
Anywhere!
Go with Pork, Pa.
Thatâs a sweet pa.â
Even in her frenzy she thought what the sight of bluecoats might do to Geraldâs wavering mind.
She stopped and wrung her hands and the frightened sobbing of little Wade who was clutching Melanieâs skirt added to her panic.
âWhat shall I do, Scarlett?â
Melanieâs voice was calm amid the wailing and tears and scurrying feet.
Though her face was paper white and her whole body trembled, the very quietness of her voice steadied Scarlett, revealing to her that they all looked to her for commands, for guidance.
âThe cow and the calf,â she said quickly.
âTheyâre in the old pasture.
Take the horse and drive them into the swamp andââ
Before she could finish her sentence, Melanie shook off Wadeâs clutches and was down the front steps and running toward the horse, pulling up her wide skirts as she ran.
Scarlett caught a flashing glimpse of thin legs, a flurry of skirts and underclothing and Melanie was in the saddle, her feet dangling far above the stirrups.
She gathered up the reins and clapped her heels against the animalâs sides and then abruptly pulled him in, her face twisting with horror.
âMy baby!â she cried.
âOh, my baby!
The Yankees will kill him!
Give him to me!â
Her hand was on the pommel and she was preparing to slide off but Scarlett screamed at her.
âGo on!
Go on!
Get the cow!
Iâll look after the baby!
Go on, I tell you!
Do you think Iâd let them get Ashleyâs baby?
Go on!â
Melly looked despairingly backward but hammered her heels into the horse and, with a scattering of gravel, was off down the drive toward the pasture.
Scarlett thought: âI never expected to see Melly Hamilton straddling a horse!â and then she ran into the house.
Wade was at her heels, sobbing, trying to catch her flying skirts.
As she went up the steps, three at a bound, she saw Suellen and Carreen with split-oak baskets on their arms, running toward the pantry, and Pork tugging none too gently at Geraldâs arm, dragging him toward the back porch.
Gerald was mumbling querulously and pulling away like a child.
From the back yard she heard Mammyâs strident voice: âYou, Priss!
You git unner dat house anâ hanâ me dem shoats!
You knows mighty well Ahâs too big ter crawl thoo dem lattices.
Dilcey, comyere anâ mek dis wuthless chileââ
âAnd I thought it was such a good idea to keep the pigs under the house, so nobody could steal them,â thought Scarlett, running into her room.
âWhy, oh, why didnât I build a pen for them down in the swamp?â
She tore open her top bureau drawer and scratched about in the clothing until the Yankeeâs wallet was in her hand.
Hastily she picked up the solitaire ring and the diamond earbobs from where she had hidden them in her sewing basket and shoved them into the wallet.
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But where to hide it?
In the mattress?
Up the chimney?
Throw it in the well?
Put it in her bosom.
No, never there!
The outlines of the wallet might show through her basque and if the Yankees saw it they would strip her naked and search her.
âI shall die if they do!â she thought wildly.
Downstairs there was a pandemonium of racing feet and sobbing voices.
Even in her frenzy, Scarlett wished she had Melanie with her.
Melly with her quiet voice, Melly who was so brave the day she shot the Yankee.
Melly was worth three of the others.
Mellyâwhat had Melly said?
Oh, yes, the baby!
Clutching the wallet to her, Scarlett ran across the hall to the room where little Beau was sleeping in the low cradle.
She snatched him up into her arms and he awoke, waving small fists and slobbering sleepily.
She heard Suellen crying: âCome on, Carreen!
Come on!
Weâve got enough.
Oh, Sister, hurry!â
There were wild squealings, indignant gruntings in the back yard and, running to the window, Scarlett saw Mammy waddling hurriedly across the cotton field with a struggling young pig under each arm.
Behind her was Pork also carrying two pigs and pushing Gerald before him.
Gerald was stumping across the furrows, waving his cane.
Leaning out of the window Scarlett yelled: âGet the sow, Dilcey!
Make Prissy drive her out.
You can chase her across the fields.â
Dilcey looked up, her bronze face harassed.
In her apron was a pile of silver tableware.
She pointed under the house.
âThe sow done bit Prissy and got her penned up unner the house.â
âGood for the sow,â thought Scarlett.
She hurried back into her room and hastily gathered from their hiding place the bracelets, brooch, miniature and cup she had found on the dead Yankee.
But where to hide them?
It was awkward, carrying little Beau in one arm and the wallet and the trinkets in the other.
She started to lay him on the bed.
He set up a wail at leaving her arms and a welcome thought came to her.
What better hiding place could there be than a babyâs diaper?
She quickly turned him over, pulled up his dress and thrust the wallet down the diaper next to his backside.
He yelled louder at this treatment and she hastily tightened the triangular garment about his threshing legs.
âNow,â she thought, drawing a deep breath, ânow for the swamp!â
Tucking him screaming under one arm and clutching the jewelry to her with the other, she raced into the upstairs hall.
Suddenly her rapid steps paused, fright weakening her knees.
How silent the house was!
How dreadfully still!
Had they all gone off and left her?
Hadnât anyone waited for her?
She hadnât meant for them to leave her here alone.
These days anything could happen to a lone woman and with the Yankees comingâ
She jumped as a slight noise sounded and, turning quickly, saw crouched by the banisters her forgotten son, his eyes enormous with terror.
He tried to speak but his throat only worked silently.
âGet up, Wade Hampton,â she commanded swiftly.
âGet up and walk.
Mother canât carry you now.â
He ran to her, like a small frightened animal, and clutching her wide skirt, buried his face in it.
She could feel his small hands groping through the folds for her legs.
She started down the stairs, each step hampered by Wadeâs dragging hands and she said fiercely: âTurn me loose, Wade!
Turn me loose and walk!â
But the child only clung the closer.
As she reached the landing, the whole lower floor leaped up at her.
All the homely, well-loved articles of furniture seemed to whisper: âGood-by!
Good-by!â
A sob rose in her throat.
There was the open door of the office where Ellen had labored so diligently and she could glimpse a corner of the old secretary.
There was the dining room, with chairs pushed awry and food still on the plates.
There on the floor were the rag rugs Ellen had dyed and woven herself.
And there was the old portrait of Grandma Robillard, with bosoms half bared, hair piled high and nostrils cut so deeply as to give her face a perpetual well-bred sneer.
Everything which had been part of her earliest memories, everything bound up with the deepest roots in her: âGood-by!
Good-by, Scarlett OâHara!â
The Yankees would burn it allâall!
This was her last view of home, her last view except what she might see from the cover of the woods or the swamp, the tall chimneys wrapped in smoke, the roof crashing in flame.
âI canât leave you,â she thought and her teeth chattered with fear.
âI canât leave you.
Pa wouldnât leave you.
He told them theyâd have to burn you over his head.
Then, theyâll burn you over my head for I canât leave you either.
Youâre all Iâve got left.â
With the decision, some of her fear fell away and there remained only a congealed feeling in her breast, as if all hope and fear had frozen.
As she stood there, she heard from the avenue the sound of many horsesâ feet, the jingle of bridle bits and sabers rattling in scabbards and a harsh voice crying a command: âDismount!â
Swiftly she bent to the child beside her and her voice was urgent but oddly gentle.
âTurn me loose, Wade, honey!
You run down the stairs quick and through the back yard toward the swamp.
Mammy will be there and Aunt Melly.
Run quickly, darling, and donât be afraid.â
At the change in her tone, the boy looked up and Scarlett was appalled at the look in his eyes, like a baby rabbit in a trap.
âOh, Mother of God!â she prayed.
âDonât let him have a convulsion!
Notânot before the Yankees.
They mustnât know we are afraid.â
And, as the child only gripped her skirt the tighter, she said clearly: âBe a little man, Wade.
Theyâre only a passel of damn Yankees!â
And she went down the steps to meet them.
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Sherman was marching through Georgia, from Atlanta to the sea.
Behind him lay the smoking ruins of Atlanta to which the torch had been set as the blue army tramped out.
Before him lay three hundred miles of territory virtually undefended save by a few state militia and the old men and young boys of the Home Guard.
Here lay the fertile state, dotted with plantations, sheltering the women and children, the very old and the negroes.
In a swath eighty miles wide the Yankees were looting and burning.
There were hundreds of homes in flames, hundreds of homes resounding with their footsteps.
But, to Scarlett, watching the bluecoats pour into the front hall, it was not a country-wide affair.
It was entirely personal, a malicious action aimed directly at her and hers.
She stood at the foot of the stairs, the baby in her arms, Wade pressed tightly against her, his head hidden in her skirts as the Yankees swarmed through the house, pushing roughly past her up the stairs, dragging furniture onto the front porch, running bayonets and knives into upholstery and digging inside for concealed valuables.
Upstairs they were ripping open mattresses and feather beds until the air in the hall was thick with feathers that floated softly down on her head.
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Impotent rage quelled what little fear was left in her heart as she stood helpless while they plundered and stole and ruined.
The sergeant in charge was a bow-legged, grizzled little man with a large wad of tobacco in his cheek.
He reached Scarlett before any of his men and, spitting freely on the floor and her skirts, said briefly:
âLemme have what you got in yore hand, lady.â
She had forgotten the trinkets she had intended to hide and, with a sneer which she hoped was as eloquent as that pictured on Grandma Robillardâs face, she flung the articles to the floor and almost enjoyed the rapacious scramble that ensued.
âIâll trouble you for thet ring and them earbobs.â
Scarlett tucked the baby more securely under her arm so that he hung face downward, crimson and screaming, and removed the garnet earrings which had been Geraldâs wedding present to Ellen.
Then she stripped off the large sapphire solitaire which Charles had given her as an engagement ring.
âDonât throw um.
Hand um to me,â said the sergeant, putting out his hands.
âThem bastards got enough already.
What else have you got?â
His eyes went over her basque sharply.
For a moment Scarlett went faint, already feeling rough hands thrusting themselves into her bosom, fumbling at her garters.
âThat is all, but I suppose it is customary to strip your victims?â
âOh, Iâll take your word,â said the sergeant good naturedly, spitting again as he turned away.
Scarlett righted the baby and tried to soothe him, holding her hand over the place on the diaper where the wallet was hidden, thanking God that Melanie had a baby and that that baby had a diaper.
Upstairs she could hear heavy boots trampling, the protesting screech of furniture pulled across the floor, the crashing of china and mirrors, the curses when nothing of value appeared.
From the yard came loud cries: âHead um off!
Donât let um get away!â and the despairing squawks of the hens and the quacking and honking of the ducks and geese.
A pang went through her as she heard an agonized squealing which was suddenly stilled by a pistol shot and she knew that the sow was dead.
Damn Prissy!
She had run off and left her.
If only the shoats were safe!
If only the family had gotten safely to the swamp!
But there was no way of knowing.
She stood quietly in the hall while the soldiers boiled about her, shouting and cursing.
Wadeâs fingers were in her skirt in a terrified grip.
She could feel his body shaking as he pressed against her but she could not bring herself to speak reassuringly to him.
She could not bring herself to utter any word to the Yankees, either of pleading, protest or anger.
She could only thank God that her knees still had the strength to support her, that her neck was still strong enough to hold her head high.
But when a squad of bearded men came lumbering down the steps, laden with an assortment of stolen articles and she saw Charlesâ sword in the hands of one, she did cry out.
That sword was Wadeâs.
It had been his fatherâs and his grandfatherâs sword and Scarlett had given it to the little boy on his last birthday.
They had made quite a ceremony of it and Melanie had cried, cried with tears of pride and sorrowful memory, and kissed him and said he must grow up to be a brave soldier like his father and his grandfather.
Wade was very proud of it and often climbed upon the table beneath where it hung to pat it.
Scarlett could endure seeing her own possessions going out of the house in hateful alien hands but not thisânot her little boyâs pride.
Wade, peering from the protection of her skirts at the sound of her cry, found speech and courage in a mighty sob.
Stretching out one hand he cried:
âMine!â
âYou canât take that!â said Scarlett swiftly, holding out her hand too.
âI canât, hey?â said the little soldier who held it, grinning impudently at her.
âWell, I can!
Itâs a Rebel sword!â
âItâsâitâs not.
Itâs a Mexican War sword.
You canât take it.
Itâs my little boyâs.
It was his grandfatherâs!
Oh, Captain,â she cried, turning to the sergeant, âplease make him give it to me!â
The sergeant, pleased at his promotion, stepped forward.
âLemme see thet sword, Bub,â he said.
Reluctantly, the little trooper handed it to him.
âItâs got a solid-gold hilt,â he said.
The sergeant turned it in his hand, held the hilt up to the sunlight to read the engraved inscription.
ââTo Colonel William R. Hamilton,ââ he deciphered.
ââFrom His Staff.
For Gallantry.
Buena Vista.
1847.ââ
âHo, lady,â he said, âI was at Buena Vista myself.â
âIndeed,â said Scarlett icily.
âWas I?
Thet was hot fightinâ, lemme tell you.
I ainât seen such hot fightinâ in this war as we seen in thet one.
So this sword was this little tykeâs granddaddyâs?â
âYes.â
âWell, he can have it,â said the sergeant, who was satisfied enough with the jewelry and trinkets tied up in his handkerchief.
âBut itâs got a solid-gold hilt,â insisted the little trooper.
âWeâll leave her thet to remember us by,â grinned the sergeant.
Scarlett took the sword, not even saying âThank you.â
Why should she thank these thieves for returning her own property to her?
She held the sword against her while the little cavalryman argued and wrangled with the sergeant.
âBy God, Iâll give these damn Rebels something to remember me by,â shouted the private finally when the sergeant, losing his good nature, told him to go to hell and not talk back.
The little man went charging toward the back of the house and Scarlett breathed more easily.
They had said nothing about burning the house.
They hadnât told her to leave so they could fire it.
PerhapsâperhapsâThe men came rambling into the hall from the upstairs and the out of doors.
âAnything?â questioned the sergeant.
âOne hog and a few chickens and ducks.â
âSome corn and a few yams and beans.
That wildcat we saw on the horse must have given the alarm, all right.â
âRegular Paul Revere, eh?â
âWell, there ainât much here, Sarge.
You got the pickinâs.
Letâs move on before the whole country gets the news weâre cominâ.â
âDidja dig under the smokehouse?
They generally buries things there.â
âAinât no smokehouse.â
âDidja dig in the nigger cabins?â
âNothinâ but cotton in the cabins.
We set fire to it.â
For a brief instant Scarlett saw the long hot days in the cotton field, felt again the terrible ache in her back, the raw bruised flesh of her shoulders.
All for nothing.
The cotton was gone.
âYou ainât got much, for a facâ, have you, lady?â
âYour army has been here before,â she said coolly.
âThatâs a facâ.
We were in this neighborhood in September,â said one of the men, turning something in his hand.
âIâd forgot.â
Scarlett saw that it was Ellenâs gold thimble that he held.
How often she had seen it gleaming in and out of Ellenâs fancy work.
The sight of it brought back too many hurting memories of the slender hand which had worn it.
There it lay in this strangerâs calloused dirty palm and soon it would find its way North and onto the finger of some Yankee woman who would be proud to wear stolen things.
Ellenâs thimble!
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Scarlett dropped her head so the enemy could not see her cry and the tears fell slowly down on the babyâs head.
Through the blur, she saw the men moving toward the doorway, heard the sergeant calling commands in a loud rough voice.
They were going and Tara was safe, but with the pain of Ellenâs memory on her, she was hardly glad.
The sound of the banging sabers and horsesâ hooves brought little relief and she stood, suddenly weak and nerveless, as they moved off down the avenue, every man laden with stolen goods, clothing, blankets, pictures, hens and ducks, the sow.
Then to her nostrils was borne the smell of smoke and she turned, too weak with lessening strain, to care about the cotton.
Through the open windows of the dining room, she saw smoke drifting lazily out of the negro cabins.
There went the cotton.
There went the tax money and part of the money which was to see them through this bitter winter.
There was nothing she could do about it either, except watch.
She had seen fires in cotton before and she knew how difficult they were to put out, even with many men laboring at it.
Thank God, the quarters were so far from the house!
Thank God, there was no wind today to carry sparks to the roof of Tara!
Suddenly she swung about, rigid as a pointer, and stared with horror-struck eyes down the hall, down the covered passageway toward the kitchen.
There was smoke coming from the kitchen!
Somewhere between the hall and the kitchen, she laid the baby down.
Somewhere she flung off Wadeâs grip, slinging him against the wall.
She burst into the smoke-filled kitchen and reeled back, coughing, her eyes streaming tears from the smoke.
Again she plunged in, her skirt held over her nose.
The room was dark, lit as it was by one small window, and so thick with smoke that she was blinded, but she could hear the hiss and crackle of flames.
Dashing a hand across her eyes, she peered squinting and saw thin lines of flame creeping across the kitchen floor, toward the walls.
Someone had scattered the blazing logs in the open fireplace across the whole room and the tinder-dry pine floor was sucking in the flames and spewing them up like water.
Back she rushed to the dining room and snatched a rag rug from the floor, spilling two chairs with a crash.
âIâll never beat it outânever, never!
Oh, God, if only there was someone to help!
Tara is goneâgone!
Oh, God!
This was what that little wretch meant when he said heâd give me something to remember him by!
Oh, if Iâd only let him have the sword!â
In the hallway she passed her son lying in the corner with his sword.
His eyes were closed and his face had a look of slack, unearthly peace.
âMy God!
Heâs dead!
Theyâve frightened him to death!â she thought in agony but she raced by him to the bucket of drinking water which always stood in the passageway by the kitchen door.
She soused the end of the rug into the bucket and drawing a deep breath plunged again into the smoke-filled room slamming the door behind her.
For an eternity she reeled and coughed, beating the rug against the lines of fire that shot swiftly beyond her.
Twice her long skirt took fire and she slapped it out with her hands.
She could smell the sickening smell of her hair scorching, as it came loose from its pins and swept about her shoulders.
The flames raced ever beyond her, toward the walls of the covered runway, fiery snakes that writhed and leaped and, exhaustion sweeping her, she knew that it was hopeless.
Then the door swung open and the sucking draft flung the flames higher.
It closed with a bang and, in the swirling smoke, Scarlett, half blind, saw Melanie, stamping her feet on the flames, beating at them with something dark and heavy.
She saw her staggering, heard her coughing, caught a lightning-flash glimpse of her set white face and eyes narrowed to slits against the smoke, saw her small body curving back and forth as she swung her rug up and down.
For another eternity they fought and swayed, side by side, and Scarlett could see that the lines of fire were shortening.
Then suddenly Melanie turned toward her and, with a cry, hit her across the shoulders with all her might.
Scarlett went down in a whirlwind of smoke and darkness.
When she opened her eyes she was lying on the back porch, her head pillowed comfortably on Melanieâs lap, and the afternoon sunlight was shining on her face.
Her hands, face and shoulders smarted intolerably from burns.
Smoke was still rolling from the quarters, enveloping the cabins in thick clouds, and the smell of burning cotton was strong.
Scarlett saw wisps of smoke drifting from the kitchen and she stirred frantically to rise.
But she was pushed back as Melanieâs calm voice said: âLie still, dear.
The fireâs out.â
She lay quiet for a moment, eyes closed, sighing with relief, and heard the slobbery gurgle of the baby near by and the reassuring sound of Wadeâs hiccoughing.
So he wasnât dead, thank God!
She opened her eyes and looked up into Melanieâs face.
Her curls were singed, her face black with smut but her eyes were sparkling with excitement and she was smiling.
âYou look like a nigger,â murmured Scarlett, burrowing her head wearily into its soft pillow.
âAnd you look like the end man in a minstrel show,â replied Melanie equably.
âWhy did you have to hit me?â
âBecause, my darling, your back was on fire.
I didnât dream youâd faint, though the Lord knows youâve had enough today to kill youâŚ.
I came back as soon as I got the stock safe in the woods.
I nearly died, thinking about you and the baby alone.
Didâthe Yankees harm you?â
âIf you mean did they rape me, no,â said Scarlett, groaning as she tried to sit up.
Though Melanieâs lap was soft, the porch on which she was lying was far from comfortable.
âBut theyâve stolen everything, everything.
Weâve lost everythingâWell, what is there to look so happy about?â
âWe havenât lost each other and our babies are all right and we have a roof over our heads,â said Melanie and there was a lilt in her voice.
âAnd thatâs all anyone can hope for nowâŚ.
Goodness but Beau is wet!
I suppose the Yankees even stole his extra diapers.
HeâScarlett, what on earth is in his diaper?â
She thrust a suddenly frightened hand down the babyâs back and brought up the wallet.
For a moment she looked at it as if she had never seen it before and then she began to laugh, peal on peal of mirth that had in it no hint of hysteria.
âNobody but you would ever have thought of it,â she cried and flinging her arms around Scarlettâs neck she kissed her.
âYou are the beatenest sister I ever had!â
Scarlett permitted the embrace because she was too tired to struggle, because the words of praise brought balm to her spirit and because, in the dark smoke-filled kitchen, there had been born a greater respect for her sister-in-law, a closer feeling of comradeship.
âIâll say this for her,â she thought grudgingly, âsheâs always there when you need her.â