[Part 16] "Gone With The Wind" by Margaret Mitchell
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THE SUN SHONE INTERMITTENTLY the next morning and the hard wind that drove dark clouds swiftly across its face rattled the windowpanes and moaned faintly about the house.
Scarlett said a brief prayer of thanksgiving that the rain of the previous night had ceased, for she had lain awake listening to it, knowing that it would mean the ruin of her velvet dress and new bonnet.
Now that she could catch fleeting glimpses of the sun, her spirits soared.
She could hardly remain in bed and look languid and make croaking noises until Aunt Pitty, Mammy and Uncle Peter were out of the house and on their way to Mrs. Bonnellâs.
When, at last, the front gate banged and she was alone in the house, except for Cookie who was singing in the kitchen, she leaped from the bed and lifted her new clothes from the closet hooks.
Sleep had refreshed her and given her strength and from the cold hard core at the bottom of her heart, she drew courage.
There was something about the prospect of a struggle of wits with a manâwith any manâthat put her on her mettle and, after months of battling against countless discouragements, the knowledge that she was at last facing a definite adversary, one whom she might unhorse by her own efforts, gave her a buoyant sensation.
Dressing unaided was difficult but she finally accomplished it and putting on the bonnet with its rakish feathers she ran to Aunt Pittyâs room to preen herself in front of the long mirror.
How pretty she looked!
The cock feathers gave her a dashing air and the dull-green velvet of the bonnet made her eyes startlingly bright, almost emerald-colored.
And the dress was incomparable, so rich and handsome looking and yet so dignified!
It was wonderful to have a lovely dress again.
It was so nice to know that she looked pretty and provocative, and she impulsively bent forward and kissed her reflection in the mirror and then laughed at her own foolishness.
She picked up Ellenâs Paisley shawl to wrap about her but the colors of the faded old square clashed with the moss-green dress and made her appear a little shabby.
Opening Aunt Pittyâs closet she removed a black broadcloth cloak, a thin fall garment which Pitty used only for Sunday wear, and put it on.
She slipped into her pierced ears the diamond earrings she had brought from Tara, and tossed her head to observe the effect.
They made pleasant clicking noises which were very satisfactory and she thought that she must remember to toss her head frequently when with Rhett.
Dancing earrings always attracted a man and gave a girl such a spirited air.
What a shame Aunt Pitty had no other gloves than the ones now on her fat hands!
No woman could really feel like a lady without gloves, but Scarlett had not had a pair since she left Atlanta.
And the long months of hard work at Tara had roughened her hands until they were far from pretty.
Well, it couldnât be helped.
Sheâd take Aunt Pittyâs little seal muff and hide her bare hands in it.
Scarlett felt that it gave her the final finishing touch of elegance.
No one looking at her now would suspect that poverty and want were standing at her shoulder.
It was so important that Rhett should not suspect.
He must not think that anything but tender feelings were driving her.
She tiptoed down the stairs and out of the house while Cookie bawled on unconcernedly in the kitchen.
She hastened down Baker Street to avoid the all seeing eyes of the neighbors and sat down on a carriage block on Ivy Street in front of a burned house, to wait for some passing carriage or wagon which would give her a ride.
The sun dipped in and out from behind hurrying clouds, lighting the street with a false brightness which had no warmth in it, and the wind fluttered the lace of her pantalets.
It was colder than she had expected and she wrapped Aunt Pittyâs thin cloak about her and shivered impatiently.
Just as she was preparing to start walking the long way across town to the Yankee encampment, a battered wagon appeared.
In it was an old woman with a lip full of snuff and a weather-beaten face under a drab sunbonnet, driving a dawdling old mule.
She was going in the direction of the city hall and she grudgingly gave Scarlett a ride.
But it was obvious that the dress, bonnet and muff found no favor with her.
âShe thinks Iâm a hussy,â thought Scarlett.
âAnd perhaps sheâs right at that!â
When at last they reached the town square and the tall white cupola of the city hall loomed up, she made her thanks, climbed down from the wagon and watched the country woman drive off.
Looking around carefully to see that she was not observed, she pinched her cheeks to give them color and bit her lips until they stung to make them red.
She adjusted the bonnet and smoothed back her hair and looked about the square.
The two-story red-brick city hall had survived the burning of the city.
But it looked forlorn and unkempt under the gray sky.
Surrounding the building completely and covering the square of land of which it was the center were row after row of army huts, dingy and mud splashed.
Yankee soldiers loitered everywhere and Scarlett looked at them uncertainly, some of her courage deserting her.
How would she go about finding Rhett in this enemy camp?
She looked down the street toward the firehouse and saw that the wide arched doors were closed and heavily barred and two sentries passed and repassed on each side of the building.
Rhett was in there.
But what should she say to the Yankee soldiers?
And what would they say to her?
She squared her shoulders.
If she hadnât been afraid to kill one Yankee, she shouldnât fear merely talking to another.
She picked her way precariously across the stepping stones of the muddy street and walked forward until a sentry, his blue overcoat buttoned high against the wind, stopped her.
âWhat is it, Maâm?â
His voice had a strange mid-Western twang but it was polite and respectful.
âI want to see a man in thereâhe is a prisoner.â
âWell, I donât know,â said the sentry, scratching his head.
âThey are mighty particular about visitors andââ
He stopped and peered into her face sharply.
âLord, lady!
Donât you cry!
You go over to post headquarters and ask the officers.
Theyâll let you see him, I bet.â
Scarlett, who had no intention of crying, beamed at him.
He turned to another sentry who was slowly pacing his beat: âYee-ah, Bill.
Comeâeer.â
The second sentry, a large man muffled in a blue overcoat from which villainous black whiskers burst, came through the mud toward them.
âYou take this lady to headquarters.â
Scarlett thanked him and followed the sentry.
âMind you donât turn your ankle on those stepping stones,â said the soldier, taking her arm.
âAnd youâd better hist up your skirts a little to keep them out of the mud.â
The voice issuing from the whiskers had the same nasal twang but was kind and pleasant and his hand was firm and respectful.
Why, Yankees werenât bad at all!
âItâs a mighty cold day for a lady to be out in,â said her escort.
âHave you come a fer piece?â
âOh, yes, from clear across the other side of town,â she said, warming to the kindness in his voice.
âThis ainât no weather for a lady to be out in,â said the soldier reprovingly, âwith all this la grippe in the air.
Hereâs Post Command, ladyâWhatâs the matter?â
âThis houseâthis house is your headquarters?â
Scarlett looked up at the lovely old dwelling facing on the square and could have cried.
She had been to so many parties in this house during the war.
It had been a gay beautiful place and nowâthere was a large United States flag floating over it.
âWhatâs the matter?â
âNothingâonlyâonlyâI used to know the people who lived here.â
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âWell, thatâs too bad.
I guess they wouldnât know it themselves if they saw it, for it shore is torn up on the inside.
Now, you go on in, Maâm, and ask for the captain.â
She went up the steps, caressing the broken white banisters, and pushed open the front door.
The hall was dark and as cold as a vault and a shivering sentry was leaning against the closed folding doors of what had been, in better days, the dining room.
âI want to see the captain,â she said.
He pulled back the doors and she entered the room, her heart beating rapidly, her face flushing with embarrassment and excitement.
There was a close stuffy smell in the room, compounded of the smoking fire, tobacco fumes, leather, damp woolen uniforms and unwashed bodies.
She had a confused impression of bare walls with torn wallpaper, rows of blue overcoats and slouch hats hung on nails, a roaring fire, a long table covered with papers and a group of officers in blue uniforms with brass buttons.
She gulped once and found her voice.
She mustnât let these Yankees know she was afraid.
She must look and be her prettiest and most unconcerned self.
âThe captain?â
âIâm one captain,â said a fat man whose tunic was unbuttoned.
âI want to see a prisoner, Captain Rhett Butler.â
âButler again?
Heâs popular, that man,â laughed the captain, taking a chewed cigar from his mouth.
âYou a relative, Maâm?â
âYesâhisâhis sister.â
He laughed again.
âHeâs got a lot of sisters, one of them here yesterday.â
Scarlett flushed.
One of those creatures Rhett consorted with, probably that Watling woman.
And these Yankees thought she was another one.
It was unendurable.
Not even for Tara would she stay here another minute and be insulted.
She turned to the door and reached angrily for the knob but another officer was by her side quickly.
He was clean shaven and young and had merry, kind eyes.
âJust a minute, Maâm.
Wonât you sit down here by the fire where itâs warm?
Iâll go see what I can do about it.
What is your name?
He refused to see theâlady who called yesterday.â
She sank into the proffered chair, glaring at the discomfited fat captain, and gave her name.
The nice young officer slipped on his overcoat and left the room and the others took themselves off to the far end of the table where they talked in low tones and pawed at the papers.
She stretched her feet gratefully toward the fire, realizing for the first time how cold they were and wishing she had thought to put a piece of cardboard over the hole in the sole of one slipper.
After a time, voices murmured outside the door and she heard Rhettâs laugh.
The door opened, a cold draft swept the room and Rhett appeared, hatless, a long cape thrown carelessly across his shoulders.
He was dirty and unshaven and without a cravat but somehow jaunty despite his dishabille, and his dark eyes were snapping joyfully at the sight of her.
âScarlett!â
He had her hands in both of his and, as always, there was something hot and vital and exciting about his grip.
Before she quite knew what he was about, he had bent and kissed her cheek, his mustache tickling her.
As he felt the startled movement of her body away from him, he hugged her about the shoulders and said: âMy darling little sister!â and grinned down at her as if he relished her helplessness in resisting his caress.
She couldnât help laughing back at him for the advantage he had taken.
What a rogue he was!
Jail had not changed him one bit.
The fat captain was muttering through his cigar to the merry-eyed officer.
âMost irregular.
He should be in the firehouse.
You know the orders.â
âOh, for Godâs sake, Henry!
The lady would freeze in that barn.â
âOh, all right, all right!
Itâs your responsibility.â
âI assure you, gentlemen,â said Rhett, turning to them but still keeping a grip on Scarlettâs shoulders, âmyâsister hasnât brought me any saws or files to help me escape.â
They all laughed and, as they did, Scarlett looked quickly about her.
Good Heavens, was she going to have to talk to Rhett before six Yankee officers!
Was he so dangerous a prisoner they wouldnât let him out of their sight?
Seeing her anxious glance, the nice officer pushed open a door and spoke brief low words to two privates who had leaped to their feet at his entrance.
They picked up their rifles and went out into the hall, closing the door behind them.
âIf you wish, you may sit here in the orderly room,â said the young captain.
âAnd donât try to bolt through that door.
The men are just outside.â
âYou see what a desperate character I am, Scarlett,â said Rhett.
âThank you, Captain.
This is most kind of you.â
He bowed carelessly and taking Scarlettâs arm pulled her to her feet and propelled her into the dingy orderly room.
She was never to remember what the room looked like except that it was small and dim and none too warm and there were hand-written papers tacked on the mutilated walls and chairs which had cowhide seats with the hair still on them.
When he had closed the door behind them, Rhett came to her swiftly and bent over her.
Knowing his desire, she turned her head quickly but smiled provocatively at him out of the corners of her eyes.
âCanât I really kiss you now?â
âOn the forehead, like a good brother,â she answered demurely.
âThank you, no.
I prefer to wait and hope for better things.â
His eyes sought her lips and lingered there a moment.
âBut how good of you to come to see me, Scarlett!
You are the first respectable citizen who has called on me since my incarceration, and being in jail makes one appreciate friends.
When did you come to town?â
âYesterday afternoon.â
âAnd you came out this morning?
Why, my dear, you are more than good.â
He smiled down at her with the first expression of honest pleasure she had ever seen on his face.
Scarlett smiled inwardly with excitement and ducked her head as if embarrassed.
âOf course, I came out right away.
Aunt Pitty told me about you last night and IâI just couldnât sleep all night for thinking how awful it was.
Rhett, Iâm so distressed!â
âWhy, Scarlett!â
His voice was soft but there was a vibrant note in it, and looking up into his dark face she saw in it none of the skepticism, the jeering humor she knew so well.
Before his direct gaze her eyes fell again in real confusion.
Things were going even better than she hoped.
âItâs worth being in jail to see you again and to hear you say things like that.
I really couldnât believe my ears when they brought me your name.
You see, I never expected you to forgive me for my patriotic conduct that night on the road near Rough and Ready.
But I take it that this call means you have forgiven me?â
She could feel swift anger stir, even at this late date, as she thought of that night but she subdued it and tossed her head until the earrings danced.
âNo, I havenât forgiven you,â she said, and pouted.
âAnother hope crushed.
And after I offered up myself for my country and fought barefooted in the snow at Franklin and got the finest case of dysentery you ever heard of for my pains!â
âI donât want to hear about yourâpains,â she said, still pouting but smiling at him from tip-tilted eyes.
âI still think you were hateful that night and I never expect to forgive you.
Leaving me alone like that when anything might have happened to me!â
âBut nothing did happen to you.
So, you see, my confidence in you was justified.
I knew youâd get home safely and God help any Yankee who got in your way!â
âRhett, why on earth did you do such a silly thingâenlisting at the last minute when you knew we were going to get licked?
And after all youâd said about idiots who went out and got shot!â
âScarlett, spare me!
I am always overcome with shame when I think about it.â
âWell, Iâm glad to learn you are ashamed of the way you treated me.â
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âYou misunderstand.
I regret to say that my conscience has not troubled me at all about deserting you.
But as for enlistingâwhen I think of joining the army in varnished boots and a white linen suit and armed with only a pair of dueling pistolsâAnd those long cold miles in the snow after my boots wore out and I had no overcoat and nothing to eatâŠI cannot understand why I did not desert.
It was all the purest insanity.
But itâs in oneâs blood.
Southerners can never resist a losing cause.
But never mind my reasons.
Itâs enough that Iâm forgiven.â
âYouâre not.
I think youâre a hound.â
But she caressed the last word until it might have been âdarling.â
âDonât fib.
Youâve forgiven me.
Young ladies donât dare Yankee sentries to see a prisoner, just for charityâs sweet sake, and come all dressed up in velvet and feathers and seal muffs too.
Scarlett, how pretty you look!
Thank God, you arenât in rags or mourning!
I get so sick of women in dowdy old clothes and perpetual crĂȘpe.
You look like the Rue de la Paix.
Turn around, my dear, and let me look at you.â
So he had noticed the dress.
Of course, he would notice such things, being Rhett.
She laughed in soft excitement and spun about on her toes, her arms extended, her hoops tilting up to show her lace-trimmed pantalets.
His black eyes took her in from bonnet to heels in a glance that missed nothing, that old impudent unclothing glance which always gave her goose bumps.
âYou look very prosperous and very, very tidy.
And almost good enough to eat.
If it wasnât for the Yankees outsideâbut you are quite safe, my dear.
Sit down.
I wonât take advantage of you as I did the last time I saw you.â
He rubbed his cheek with pseudo ruefulness.
âHonestly, Scarlett, donât you think you were a bit selfish that night?
Think of all I had done for you, risked my lifeâstolen a horseâand such a horse!
Rushed to the defense of Our Glorious Cause!
And what did I get for my pains?
Some hard words and a very hard slap in the face.â
She sat down.
The conversation was not going in quite the direction she hoped.
He had seemed so nice when he first saw her, so genuinely glad she had come.
He had almost seemed like a human being and not the perverse wretch she knew so well.
âMust you always get something for your pains?â
âWhy, of course!
I am a monster of selfishness, as you ought to know.
I always expect payment for anything I give.â
That sent a slight chill through her but she rallied and jingled her earbobs again.
âOh, you really arenât so bad, Rhett.
You just like to show off.â
âMy word, but you have changed!â he said and laughed.
âWhat has made a Christian of you?
I have kept up with you through Miss Pittypat but she gave me no intimation that you had developed womanly sweetness.
Tell me more about yourself, Scarlett.
What have you been doing since I last saw you?â
The old irritation and antagonism which he roused in her was hot in her heart and she yearned to speak tart words.
But she smiled instead and the dimple crept into her cheek.
He had drawn a chair close beside hers and she leaned over and put a gentle hand on his arm, in an unconscious manner.
âOh, Iâve been doing nicely, thank you, and everything at Tara is fine now.
Of course, we had a dreadful time right after Sherman went through but, after all, he didnât burn the house and the darkies saved most of the livestock by driving it into the swamp.
And we cleared a fair crop this last fall, twenty bales.
Of course, thatâs practically nothing compared with what Tara can do but we havenât many field hands.
Pa says, of course, weâll do better next year.
But, Rhett, itâs so dull in the country now!
Imagine, there arenât any balls or barbecues and the only thing people talk about is hard times!
Goodness, I get sick of it!
Finally last week I got too bored to stand it any longer, so Pa said I must take a trip and have a good time.
So I came up here to get me some frocks made and then Iâm going over to Charleston to visit my aunt.
Itâll be lovely to go to balls again.â
There, she thought with pride, I delivered that with just the right airy way!
Not too rich but certainly not poor.
âYou look beautiful in ball dresses, my dear, and you know it too, worse luck!
I suppose the real reason you are going visiting is that you have run through the County swains and are seeking fresh ones in fields afar.â
Scarlett had a thankful thought that Rhett had spent the last several months abroad and had only recently come back to Atlanta.
Otherwise, he would never have made so ridiculous a statement.
She thought briefly of the County swains, the ragged embittered little Fontaines, the poverty-stricken Munroe boys, the Jonesboro and Fayetteville beaux who were so busy plowing, splitting rails and nursing sick old animals that they had forgotten such things as balls and pleasant flirtations ever existed.
But she put down this memory and giggled self-consciously as if admitting the truth of his assertion.
âOh, well,â she said deprecatingly.
âYou are a heartless creature, Scarlett, but perhaps thatâs part of your charm.â
He smiled in his old way, one corner of his mouth curving down, but she knew he was complimenting her.
âFor, of course, you know you have more charm than the law should permit.
Even I have felt it, case-hardened though I am.
Iâve often wondered what it was about you that made me always remember you, for Iâve known many ladies who were prettier than you and certainly more clever and, I fear, morally more upright and kind.
But, somehow, I always remembered you.
Even during the months since the surrender when I was in France and England and hadnât seen you or heard of you and was enjoying the society of many beautiful ladies, I always remembered you and wondered what you were doing.â
For a moment she was indignant that he should say other women were prettier, more clever and kind than she, but that momentary flare was wiped out in her pleasure that he had remembered her and her charm.
So he hadnât forgotten!
That would make things easier.
And he was behaving so nicely, almost like a gentleman under the circumstances.
Now, all she had to do was bring the subject around to himself, so she could intimate that she had not forgotten him either and thenâ
She gently squeezed his arm and dimpled again.
âOh, Rhett, how you do run on, teasing a country girl like me!
I know mighty well you never gave me a thought after you left me that night.
You canât tell me you ever thought of me with all those pretty French and English girls around you.
But I didnât come all the way out here to hear you talk foolishness about me.
I cameâI cameâbecauseââ
âBecause?â
âOh, Rhett, Iâm so terribly distressed about you!
So frightened for you!
When will they let you out of that terrible place?â
He swiftly covered her hand with his and held it hard against his arm.
âYour distress does you credit.
Thereâs no telling when Iâll be out.
Probably when theyâve stretched the rope a bit more.â
âThe rope?â
âYes, I expect to make my exit from here at the ropeâs end.â
âThey wonât really hang you?â
âThey will if they can get a little more evidence against me.â
âOh, Rhett!â she cried, her hand at her heart.
âWould you be sorry?
If you are sorry enough, Iâll mention you in my will.â
His dark eyes laughed at her recklessly and he squeezed her hand.
His will!
She hastily cast down her eyes for fear of betrayal but not swiftly enough, for his eyes gleamed, suddenly curious.
âAccording to the Yankees, I ought to have a fine will.
There seems to be considerable interest in my finances at present.
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Every day, I am hauled up before another board of inquiry and asked foolish questions.
The rumor seems current that I made off with the mythical gold of the Confederacy.â
âWellâdid you?â
âWhat a leading question!
You know as well as I do that the Confederacy ran a printing press instead of a mint.â
âWhere did you get all your money?
Speculating?
Aunt Pittypat saidââ
âWhat probing questions you ask!â
Damn him!
Of course, he had the money.
She was so excited it became difficult to talk sweetly to him.
âRhett, Iâm so upset about your being here.
Donât you think thereâs a chance of your getting out?â
ââNihil desperandumâ is my motto.â
âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means âmaybe,â my charming ignoramus.â
She fluttered her thick lashes up to look at him and fluttered them down again.
âOh, youâre too smart to let them hang you!
I know youâll think of some clever way to beat them and get out!
And when you doââ
âAnd when I do?â he asked softly, leaning closer.
âWell, Iââ and she managed a pretty confusion and a blush.
The blush was not difficult for she was breathless and her heart was beating like a drum.
âRhett, Iâm so sorry about what IâI said to you that nightâyou knowâat Rough and Ready.
I wasâoh, so very frightened and upset and you were soâsoââ
She looked down and saw his brown hand tighten over hers.
âAndâI thought then that Iâd never, never forgive you!
But when Aunt Pitty told me yesterday that youâthat they might hang youâit came over me of a sudden and IâIââ
She looked up into his eyes with one swift imploring glance and in it she put an agony of heartbreak.
âOh, Rhett, Iâd die if they hanged you!
I couldnât bear it!
You see, Iââ
And, because she could no longer sustain the hot leaping light that was in his eyes, her lids fluttered down again.
In a moment Iâll be crying, she thought in a frenzy of wonder and excitement.
Shall I let myself cry?
Would that seem more natural?
He said quickly: âMy God, Scarlett, you canât mean that youââ and his hands closed over hers in so hard a grip that it hurt.
She shut her eyes tightly, trying to squeeze out tears, but remembered to turn her face up slightly so he could kiss her with no difficulty.
Now, in an instant his lips would be upon hers, the hard insistent lips which she suddenly remembered with a vividness that left her weak.
But he did not kiss her.
Disappointment queerly stirring her, she opened her eyes a trifle and ventured a peep at him.
His black head was bent over her hands and, as she watched, he lifted one and kissed it and, taking the other, laid it against his cheek for a moment.
Expecting violence, this gentle and lover-like gesture startled her.
She wondered what expression was on his face but could not tell for his head was bowed.
She quickly lowered her gaze lest he should look up suddenly and see the expression on her face.
She knew that the feeling of triumph going through her was certain to be plain in her eyes.
In a moment he would ask her to marry himâor at least say that he loved her and thenâŠ.
As she watched him through the veil of her lashes he turned her hand over, palm up, to kiss it too, and suddenly he drew a quick breath.
Looking down she saw her own palm, saw it as it really was for the first time in a year, and a cold sinking fear gripped her.
This was a strangerâs palm, not Scarlett OâHaraâs soft, white, dimpled, helpless one.
This hand was rough from work, brown with sunburn, splotched with freckles.
The nails were broken and irregular, there were heavy calluses on the cushions of the palm, a half-healed blister on the thumb.
The red scar which boiling fat had left last month was ugly and glaring.
She looked at it in horror and, before she thought, she swiftly clenched her fist.
Still he did not raise his head.
Still she could not see his face.
He pried her fist open inexorably and stared at it, picked up her other hand and held them both together silently, looking down at them.
âLook at me,â he said finally raising his head, and his voice was very quiet.
âAnd drop that demure expression.â
Unwillingly she met his eyes, defiance and perturbation on her face.
His black brows were up and his eyes gleamed.
âSo you have been doing very nicely at Tara, have you?
Cleared so much money on the cotton you can go visiting.
What have you been doing with your handsâplowing?â
She tried to wrench them away but he held them hard, running his thumbs over the calluses.
âThese are not the hands of a lady,â he said and tossed them into her lap.
âOh, shut up!â she cried, feeling a momentary intense relief at being able to speak her feelings.
âWhose business is it what I do with my hands?â
âWhat a fool I am,â she thought vehemently.
âI should have borrowed or stolen Aunt Pittyâs gloves.
But I didnât realize my hands looked so bad.
Of course, he would notice them.
And now Iâve lost my temper and probably ruined everything.
Oh, to have this happen when he was right at the point of a declaration!â
âYour hands are certainly no business of mine,â said Rhett coolly and lounged back in his chair indolently, his face a smooth blank.
So he was going to be difficult.
Well, sheâd have to bear it meekly, much as she disliked it, if she expected to snatch victory from this debacle.
Perhaps if she sweet-talked himâ
âI think youâre real rude to throw off on my poor hands.
Just because I went riding last week without my gloves and ruined themââ
âRiding, hell!â he said in the same level voice.
âYouâve been working with those hands, working like a nigger.
Whatâs the answer?
Why did you lie to me about everything being nice at Tara?â
âNow, Rhettââ
âSuppose we get down to the truth.
What is the real purpose of your visit?
Almost, I was persuaded by your coquettish airs that you cared something about me and were sorry for me.â
âOh, I am sorry!
Indeedââ
âNo, you arenât.
They can hang me higher than Haman for all you care.
Itâs written as plainly on your face as hard work is written on your hands.
You wanted something from me and you wanted it badly enough to put on quite a show.
Why didnât you come out in the open and tell me what it was?
Youâd have stood a much better chance of getting it, for if thereâs one virtue I value in women itâs frankness.
But no, you had to come jingling your earbobs and pouting and frisking like a prostitute with a prospective client.â
He did not raise his voice at the last words or emphasize them in any way but to Scarlett they cracked like a whiplash, and with despair she saw the end of her hopes of getting him to propose marriage.
Had he exploded with rage and injured vanity or upbraided her, as other men would have done, she could have handled him.
But the deadly quietness of his voice frightened her, left her utterly at a loss as to her next move.
Although he was a prisoner and the Yankees were in the next room, it came to her suddenly that Rhett Butler was a dangerous man to run afoul of.
âI suppose my memory is getting faulty.
I should have recalled that you are just like me and that you never do anything without an ulterior motive.
Now, let me see.
What could you have had up your sleeve, Mrs. Hamilton?
It isnât possible that you were so misguided as to think I would propose matrimony?â
Her face went crimson and she did not answer.
âBut you canât have forgotten my oft-repeated remark that I am not a marrying man?â
When she did not speak, he said with sudden violence, âYou hadnât forgotten?
Answer me.â
âI hadnât forgotten,â she said wretchedly.
âWhat a gambler you are, Scarlett,â he jeered.
âYou took a chance that my incarceration away from female companionship would put me in such a state that Iâd snap at you like a trout at a worm.â
âAnd thatâs what you did,â thought Scarlett with inward rage, âand if it hadnât been for my handsââ
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âNow, we have most of the truth, everything except your reason.
See if you can tell me the truth about why you wanted to lead me into wedlock.â
There was a suave, almost teasing note in his voice and she took heart.
Perhaps everything wasnât lost, after all.
Of course, she had ruined any hope of marriage but, even in her despair, she was glad.
There was something about this immobile man which frightened her, so that now the thought of marrying him was fearful.
But perhaps if she was clever and played on his sympathies and his memories, she could secure a loan.
She pulled her face into a placating and childlike expression.
âOh, Rhett, you can help me so muchâif youâll just be sweet.â
âThereâs nothing I like better than beingâsweet.â
âRhett, for old friendshipâs sake, I want you to do me a favor.â
âSo, at last the horny-handed lady comes to her real mission.
I feared that âvisiting the sick and imprisonedâ was not your proper rĂŽle.
What do you want?
Money?â
The bluntness of his question ruined all hopes of leading up to the matter in any circuitous and sentimental way.
âDonât be mean, Rhett,â she coaxed.
âI do want some money.
I want you to lend me three hundred dollars.â
âThe truth at last.
Talking love and thinking money.
How truly feminine!
Do you need the money badly?â
âOh, yeâWell, not so terribly but I could use it.â
âThree hundred dollars.
Thatâs a vast amount of money.
What do you want it for?â
âTo pay taxes on Tara.â
âSo you want to borrow some money.
Well, since youâre so businesslike, Iâll be businesslike too.
What collateral will you give me?â
âWhat what?â
âCollateral.
Security on my investment.
Of course, I donât want to lose all that money.â
His voice was deceptively smooth, almost silky, but she did not notice.
Maybe everything would turn out nicely after all.
âMy earrings.â
âIâm not interested in earrings.â
âIâll give you a mortgage on Tara.â
âNow just what would I do with a farm?â
âWell, you couldâyou couldâitâs a good plantation.
And you wouldnât lose.
Iâd pay you back out of next yearâs cotton.â
âIâm not so sure.â
He tilted back in his chair and stuck his hands in his pockets.
âCotton prices are dropping.
Times are so hard and moneyâs so tight.â
âOh, Rhett, you are teasing me!
You know you have millions!â
There was a warm dancing malice in his eyes as he surveyed her.
âSo everything is going nicely and you donât need the money very badly.
Well, Iâm glad to hear that.
I like to know that all is well with old friends.â
âOh, Rhett, for Godâs sakeâŠâ she began desperately, her courage and control breaking.
âDo lower your voice.
You donât want the Yankees to hear you, I hope.
Did anyone ever tell you you had eyes like a catâa cat in the dark?â
âRhett, donât!
Iâll tell you everything.
I do need the money so badly.
IâI lied about everything being all right.
Everythingâs as wrong as it could be.
Father isâisâheâs not himself.
Heâs been queer ever since Mother died and he canât help me any.
Heâs just like a child.
And we havenât a single field hand to work the cotton and thereâs so many to feed, thirteen of us.
And the taxesâthey are so high.
Rhett, Iâll tell you everything.
For over a year weâve been just this side of starvation.
Oh, you donât know!
You canât know!
Weâve never had enough to eat and itâs terrible to wake up hungry and go to sleep hungry.
And we havenât any warm clothes and the children are always cold and sick andââ
âWhere did you get the pretty dress?â
âItâs made out of Motherâs curtains,â she answered, too desperate to lie about this shame.
âI could stand being hungry and cold but nowânow the Carpetbaggers have raised our taxes.
And the moneyâs got to be paid right away.
And I havenât any money except one five-dollar gold piece.
Iâve got to have money for the taxes!
Donât you see?
If I donât pay them, Iâllâweâll lose Tara and we just canât lose it!
I canât let it go!â
âWhy didnât you tell me all this at first instead of preying on my susceptible heartâalways weak where pretty ladies are concerned?
No, Scarlett, donât cry.
Youâve tried every trick except that one and I donât think I could stand it.
My feelings are already lacerated with disappointment at discovering it was my money and not my charming self you wanted.â
She remembered that he frequently told bald truths about himself when he spoke mockinglyâmocking himself as well as others, and she hastily looked up at him.
Were his feelings really hurt?
Did he really care about her?
Had he been on the verge of a proposal when he saw her palms?
Or had he only been leading up to another odious proposal as he had made twice before?
If he really cared about her, perhaps she could smooth him down.
But his black eyes raked her in no lover-like way and he was laughing softly.
âI donât like your collateral.
Iâm no planter.
What else have you to offer?â
Well, she had come to it at last.
Now for it!
She drew a deep breath and met his eyes squarely, all coquetry and airs gone as her spirit rushed out to grapple that which she feared most.
âIâI have myself.â
âYes?â
Her jaw line tightened to squareness and her eyes went emerald.
âYou remember that night on Aunt Pittyâs porch, during the siege?
You saidâyou said then that you wanted me.â
He leaned back carelessly in his chair and looked into her tense face and his own dark face was inscrutable.
Something flickered behind his eyes but he said nothing.
âYou saidâyou said you never wanted a woman as much as you wanted me.
If you still want me, you can have me.
Rhett, Iâll do anything you say but, for Godâs sake, write me a draft for the money!
My wordâs good.
I swear it.
I wonât go back on it.
Iâll put it in writing if you like.â
He looked at her oddly, still inscrutable and as she hurried on she could not tell if he were amused or repelled.
If he would only say something, anything!
She felt her cheeks getting hot.
âI have got to have the money soon, Rhett.
Theyâll turn us out in the road and that damned overseer of Fatherâs will own the place andââ
âJust a minute.
What makes you think I still want you?
What makes you think you are worth three hundred dollars?
Most women donât come that high.â
She blushed to her hair line and her humiliation was complete.
âWhy are you doing this?
Why not let the farm go and live at Miss Pittypatâs.
You own half that house.â
âName of God!â she cried.
âAre you a fool?
I canât let Tara go.
Itâs home.
I wonât let it go.
Not while Iâve got a breath left in me!â
âThe Irish,â said he, lowering his chair back to level and removing his hands from his pockets, âare the damnedest race.
They put so much emphasis on so many wrong things.
Land, for instance.
And every bit of earth is just like every other bit.
Now, let me get this straight, Scarlett.
You are coming to me with a business proposition.
Iâll give you three hundred dollars and youâll become my mistress.â
âYes.â
Now that the repulsive word had been said, she felt somehow easier and hope awoke in her again.
He had said âIâll give you.â
There was a diabolic gleam in his eyes as if something amused him greatly.
âAnd yet, when I had the effrontery to make you this same proposition, you turned me out of the house.
And also you called me a number of very hard names and mentioned in passing that you didnât want a âpassel of brats.â
No, my dear, Iâm not rubbing it in.
Iâm only wondering at the peculiarities of your mind.
You wouldnât do it for your own pleasure but you will to keep the wolf away from the door.
It proves my point that all virtue is merely a matter of prices.â
âOh, Rhett, how you run on!
If you want to insult me, go on and do it but give me the money.â
She was breathing easier now.
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Being what he was, Rhett would naturally want to torment and insult her as much as possible to pay her back for past slights and for her recent attempted trickery.
Well, she could stand it.
She could stand anything.
Tara was worth it all.
For a brief moment it was midsummer and the afternoon skies were blue and she lay drowsily in the thick clover of Taraâs lawn, looking up at the billowing cloud castles, the fragrance of white blossoms in her nose and the pleasant busy humming of bees in her ears.
Afternoon and hush and the far-off sound of the wagons coming in from the spiraling red fields.
Worth it all, worth more.
Her head went up.
âAre you going to give me the money?â
He looked as if he were enjoying himself and when he spoke there was suave brutality in his voice.
âNo, Iâm not,â he said.
For a moment her mind could not adjust itself to his words.
âI couldnât give it to you, even if I wanted to.
I havenât a cent on me.
Not a dollar in Atlanta.
I have some money, yes, but not here.
And Iâm not saying where it is or how much.
But if I tried to draw a draft on it, the Yankees would be on me like a duck on a June bug and then neither of us would get it.
What do you think of that?â
Her face went an ugly green, freckles suddenly standing out across her nose and her contorted mouth was like Geraldâs in a killing rage.
She sprang to her feet with an incoherent cry which made the hum of voices in the next room cease suddenly.
Swift as a panther, Rhett was beside her, his heavy hand across her mouth, his arm tight about her waist.
She struggled against him madly, trying to bite his hand, to kick his legs, to scream her rage, despair, hate, her agony of broken pride.
She bent and twisted every way against the iron of his arm, her heart near bursting, her tight stays cutting off her breath.
He held her so tightly, so roughly that it hurt and the hand over her mouth pinched into her jaws cruelly.
His face was white under its tan, his eyes hard and anxious as he lifted her completely off her feet, swung her up against his chest and sat down in the chair, holding her writhing in his lap.
âDarling, for Godâs sake!
Stop!
Hush!
Donât yell.
Theyâll be in here in a minute if you do.
Do calm yourself.
Do you want the Yankees to see you like this?â
She was beyond caring who saw her, beyond anything except a fiery desire to kill him, but dizziness was sweeping her.
She could not breathe; he was choking her; her stays were like a swiftly compressing band of iron; his arms about her made her shake with helpless hate and fury.
Then his voice became thin and dim and his face above her swirled in a sickening mist which became heavier and heavier until she no longer saw himâor anything else.
When she made feeble swimming motions to come back to consciousness, she was tired to her bones, weak, bewildered.
She was lying back in the chair, her bonnet off, Rhett was slapping her wrist, his black eyes searching her face anxiously.
The nice young captain was trying to pour a glass of brandy into her mouth and had spilled it down her neck.
The other officers hovered helplessly about, whispering and waving their hands.
âIâguess I must have fainted,â she said, and her voice sounded so far away it frightened her.
âDrink this,â said Rhett, taking the glass and pushing it against her lips.
Now she remembered and glared feebly at him but she was too tired for anger.
âPlease, for my sake.â
She gulped and choked and began coughing but he pushed it to her mouth again.
She swallowed deeply and the hot liquid burned suddenly in her throat.
âI think sheâs better now, gentlemen,â said Rhett, âand I thank you very much.
The realization that Iâm to be executed was too much for her.â
The group in blue shuffled their feet and looked embarrassed and after several clearings of throats, they tramped out.
The young captain paused in the doorway.
âIf thereâs anything more I can doââ
âNo, thank you.â
He went out, closing the door behind him.
âDrink some more,â said Rhett.
âNo.â
âDrink it.â
She swallowed another mouthful and the warmth began spreading through her body and strength flowed slowly back into her shaking legs.
She pushed away the glass and tried to rise but he pressed her back.
âTake your hands off me.
Iâm going.â
âNot yet.
Wait a minute.
You might faint again.â
âIâd rather faint in the road than be here with you.â
âJust the same, I wonât have you fainting in the road.â
âLet me go.
I hate you.â
A faint smile came back to his face at her words.
âThat sounds more like you.
You must be feeling better.â
She lay relaxed for a moment, trying to summon anger to her aid, trying to draw on her strength.
But she was too tired.
She was too tired to hate or to care very much about anything.
Defeat lay on her spirit like lead.
She had gambled everything and lost everything.
Not even pride was left.
This was the dead end of her last hope.
This was the end of Tara, the end of them all.
For a long time she lay back with her eyes closed, hearing his heavy breathing near her, and the glow of the brandy crept gradually over her, giving a false strength and warmth.
When finally she opened her eyes and looked him in the face, anger had roused again.
As her slanting eyebrows rushed down together in a frown Rhettâs old smile came back.
âNow you are better.
I can tell it by your scowl.â
âOf course, Iâm all right.
Rhett Butler, you are hateful, a skunk, if ever I saw one!
You knew very well what I was going to say as soon as I started talking and you knew you werenât going to give me the money.
And yet you let me go right on.
You could have spared meââ
âSpared you and missed hearing all that?
Not much.
I have so few diversions here.
I donât know when Iâve heard anything so gratifying.â
He laughed his sudden mocking laugh.
At the sound she leaped to her feet, snatching up her bonnet.
He suddenly had her by the shoulders.
âNot quite yet.
Do you feel well enough to talk sense?â
âLet me go!â
âYou are well enough, I see.
Then, tell me this.
Was I the only iron you had in the fire?â
His eyes were keen and alert, watching every change in her face.
âWhat do you mean?â
âWas I the only man you were going to try this on?â
âIs that any of your business?â
âMore than you realize.
Are there any other men on your string?
Tell me!â
âNo.â
âIncredible.
I canât imagine you without five or six in reserve.
Surely someone will turn up to accept your interesting proposition.
I feel so sure of it that I want to give you a little advice.â
âI donât want your advice.â
âNevertheless I will give it.
Advice seems to be the only thing I can give you at present.
Listen to it, for itâs good advice.
When you are trying to get something out of a man, donât blurt it out as you did to me.
Do try to be more subtle, more seductive.
It gets better results.
You used to know how, to perfection.
But just now when you offered me yourâerâcollateral for my money you looked as hard as nails.
Iâve seen eyes like yours above a dueling pistol twenty paces from me and they arenât a pleasant sight.
They evoke no ardor in the male breast.
Thatâs no way to handle men, my dear.
You are forgetting your early training.â
âI donât need you to tell me how to behave,â she said and wearily put on her bonnet.
She wondered how he could jest so blithely with a rope about his neck and her pitiful circumstances before him.
She did not even notice that his hands were jammed in his pockets in hard fists as if he were straining at his own impotence.
âCheer up,â he said, as she tied the bonnet strings.
âYou can come to my hanging and it will make you feel lots better.
Itâll even up all your old scores with meâeven this one.
And Iâll mention you in my will.â
âThank you, but they may not hang you till itâs too late to pay the taxes,â she said with a sudden malice that matched his own, and she meant it.
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IT WAS RAINING WHEN SHE CAME OUT of the building and the sky was a dull putty color.
The soldiers on the square had taken shelter in their huts and the streets were deserted.
There was no vehicle in sight and she knew she would have to walk the long way home.
The brandy glow faded as she trudged along.
The cold wind made her shiver and the chilly needle-like drops drove hard into her face.
The rain quickly penetrated Aunt Pittyâs thin cloak until it hung in clammy folds about her.
She knew the velvet dress was being ruined and as for the tail feathers on the bonnet, they were as drooping and draggled as when their former owner had worn them about the wet barn yard of Tara.
The bricks of the sidewalk were broken and, for long stretches, completely gone.
In these spots the mud was ankle deep and her slippers stuck in it as if it were glue, even coming completely off her feet.
Every time she bent over to retrieve them, the hem of the dress fell in the mud.
She did not even try to avoid puddles but stepped dully into them, dragging her heavy skirts after her.
She could feel her wet petticoat and pantalets cold about her ankles, but she was beyond caring about the wreck of the costume on which she had gambled so much.
She was chilled and disheartened and desperate.
How could she ever go back to Tara and face them after her brave words?
How could she tell them they must all goâsomewhere?
How could she leave it all, the red fields, the tall pines, the dark swampy bottom lands, the quiet burying ground where Ellen lay in the cedarsâ deep shade?
Hatred of Rhett burned in her heart as she plodded along the slippery way.
What a blackguard he was!
She hoped they did hang him, so she would never have to face him again, with his knowledge of her disgrace and her humiliation.
Of course, he could have gotten the money for her if heâd wanted to get it.
Oh, hanging was too good for him!
Thank God, he couldnât see her now, with her clothes soaking wet and her hair straggling and her teeth chattering.
How hideous she must look and how he would laugh!
The negroes she passed turned insolent grins at her and laughed among themselves as she hurried by, slipping and sliding in the mud, stopping, panting to replace her slippers.
How dared they laugh, the black apes!
How dared they grin at her, Scarlett OâHara of Tara!
Sheâd like to have them all whipped until the blood ran down their backs.
What devils the Yankees were to set them free, free to jeer at white people!
As she walked down Washington Street, the landscape was as dreary as her own heart.
Here was none of the bustle and cheerfulness which she had noted on Peachtree Street.
Here many handsome homes had once stood, but few of them had been rebuilt.
Smoked foundations and the lonesome blackened chimneys, now known as âShermanâs Sentinels,â appeared with disheartening frequency.
Overgrown paths led to what had been housesâold lawns thick with dead weeds, carriage blocks bearing names she knew so well, hitching posts which would never again know the knot of reins.
Cold wind and rain, mud and bare trees, silence and desolation.
How wet her feet were and how long the journey home!
She heard the splash of hooves behind her and moved farther over on the narrow sidewalk to avoid more mud splotches on Aunt Pittypatâs cloak.
A horse and buggy came slowly up the road and she turned to watch it, determined to beg a ride if the driver was a white person.
The rain obscured her vision as the buggy came abreast, but she saw the driver peer over the tarpaulin that stretched from the dashboard to his chin.
There was something familiar about his face and as she stepped out into the road to get a closer view, there was an embarrassed little cough from the man and a well-known voice cried in accents of pleasure and astonishment: âSurely, it canât be Miss Scarlett!â
âOh, Mr. Kennedy!â she cried, splashing across the road, and leaning on the muddy wheel, heedless of further damage to the cloak.
âI was never so glad to see anybody in my life!â
He colored with pleasure at the obvious sincerity of her words, hastily squirted a stream of tobacco juice from the opposite side of the buggy and leaped spryly to the ground.
He shook her hand enthusiastically and holding up the tarpaulin, assisted her into the buggy.
âMiss Scarlett, what are you doing over in this section by yourself?
Donât you know itâs dangerous these days?
And you are soaking wet.
Here, wrap the robe around your feet.â
As he fussed over her, clucking like a hen, she gave herself up to the luxury of being taken care of.
It was nice to have a man fussing and clucking and scolding, even if it was only that old maid in pants, Frank Kennedy.
It was especially soothing after Rhettâs brutal treatment.
And oh, how good to see a County face when she was so far from home!
He was well-dressed, she noticed, and the buggy was new too.
The horse looked young and well-fed, but Frank looked far older than his years, older than on that Christmas eve when he had been at Tara with his men.
He was thin and sallow-faced and his yellow eyes were watery and sunken in creases of loose flesh.
His ginger-colored beard was scantier than ever, streaked with tobacco juice and as ragged as if he clawed at it incessantly.
But he looked bright and cheerful, in contrast with the lines of sorrow and worry and weariness which Scarlett saw in faces everywhere.
âItâs a pleasure to see you,â said Frank warmly.
âI didnât know you were in town.
I saw Miss Pittypat only last week and she didnât tell me you were coming.
Didâerâahemâdid anyone else come up from Tara with you?â
He was thinking of Suellen, the silly old fool.
âNo,â she said, wrapping the warm lap robe about her and trying to pull it up around her neck.
âI came alone.
I didnât give Aunt Pitty any warning.â
He chirruped to the horse and it plodded off, picking its way carefully down the slick road.
âAll the folks at Tara well?â
âOh, yes, so-so.â
She must think of something to talk about, yet it was so hard to talk.
Her mind was leaden with defeat and all she wanted was to lie back in this warm blanket and say to herself: âI wonât think of Tara now.
Iâll think of it later, when it wonât hurt so much.â
If she could just get him started talking on some subject which would hold him all the way home, so she would have nothing to do but murmur âHow niceâ and âYou certainly are smartâ at intervals.
âMr. Kennedy, Iâm so surprised to see you.
I know Iâve been a bad girl, not keeping up with old friends, but I didnât know you were here in Atlanta.
I thought somebody told me you were in Marietta.â
âI do business in Marietta, a lot of business,â he said.
âDidnât Miss Suellen tell you I had settled in Atlanta?
Didnât she tell you about my store?â
Vaguely she had a memory of Suellen chattering about Frank and a store but she never paid much heed to anything Suellen said.
It had been sufficient to know that Frank was alive and would some day take Suellen off her hands.
âNo, not a word,â she lied.
âHave you a store?
How smart you must be!â
He looked a little hurt at hearing that Suellen had not published the news but brightened at the flattery.
âYes, Iâve got a store, and a pretty good one I think.
Folks tell me Iâm a born merchant.â
He laughed pleasedly, the tittery cackling laugh which she always found so annoying.
âConceited old fool,â she thought.
âOh, you could be a success at anything you turned your hand to, Mr. Kennedy.
But how on earth did you ever get started with the store?
When I saw you Christmas before last you said you didnât have a cent in the world.â
He cleared his throat raspingly, clawed at his whiskers and smiled his nervous timid smile.
âWell, itâs a long story, Miss Scarlett.â
âThank the Lord!â she thought.
âPerhaps it will hold him till we get home.â
And aloud: âDo tell!â
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âYou recall when we came to Tara last, hunting for supplies?
Well, not long after that I went into active service.
I mean real fighting.
No more commissary for me.
There wasnât much need for a commissary, Miss Scarlett, because we couldnât hardly pick up a thing for the army, and I thought the place for an able-bodied man was in the fighting line.
Well, I fought along with the cavalry for a spell till I got a minie ball through the shoulder.â
He looked very proud and Scarlett said: âHow dreadful!â
âOh, it wasnât so bad, just a flesh wound,â he said deprecatingly.
âI was sent down south to a hospital and when I was just about well, the Yankee raiders came through.
My, my, but that was a hot time!
We didnât have much warning and all of us who could walk helped haul out the army stores and the hospital equipment to the train tracks to move it.
Weâd gotten one train about loaded when the Yankees rode in one end of town and out we went the other end as fast as we could go.
My, my, that was a mighty sad sight, sitting on top of that train and seeing the Yankees burn those supplies we had to leave at the depot.
Miss Scarlett, they burned about a half-mile of stuff we had piled up there along the tracks.
We just did get away ourselves.â
âHow dreadful!â
âYes, thatâs the word.
Dreadful.
Our men had come back into Atlanta then and so our train was sent here.
Well, Miss Scarlett, it wasnât long before the war was over andâwell, there was a lot of china and cots and mattresses and blankets and nobody claiming them.
I suppose rightfully they belonged to the Yankees.
I think those were the terms of the surrender, werenât they?â
âUm,â said Scarlett absently.
She was getting warmer now and a little drowsy.
âI donât know till now if I did right,â he said, a little querulously.
âBut the way I figured it, all that stuff wouldnât do the Yankees a bit of good.
Theyâd probably burn it.
And our folks had paid good solid money for it, and I thought it still ought to belong to the Confederacy or to the Confederates.
Do you see what I mean?â
âUm.â
âIâm glad you agree with me, Miss Scarlett.
In a way, itâs been on my conscience.
Lots of folks have told me: âOh, forget about it, Frank,â but I canât.
I couldnât hold up my head if I thought Iâd done what wasnât right.
Do you think I did right?â
âOf course,â she said, wondering what the old fool had been talking about.
Some struggle with his conscience.
When a man got as old as Frank Kennedy he ought to have learned not to bother about things that didnât matter.
But he always was so nervous and fussy and old-maidish.
âIâm glad to hear you say it.
After the surrender I had about ten dollars in silver and nothing else in the world.
You know what they did to Jonesboro and my house and store there.
I just didnât know what to do.
But I used the ten dollars to put a roof on an old store down by Five Points and I moved the hospital equipment in and started selling it.
Everybody needed beds and china and mattresses and I sold them cheap, because I figured it was about as much other folksâ stuff as it was mine.
But I cleared money on it and bought some more stuff and the store just went along fine.
I think Iâll make a lot of money on it if things pick up.â
At the word âmoney,â her mind came back to him, crystal clear.
âYou say youâve made money?â
He visibly expanded under her interest.
Few women except Scarlett had ever given him more than perfunctory courtesy and it was very flattering to have a former belle like Scarlett hanging on his words.
He slowed the horse so they would not reach home before he had finished his story.
âIâm not a millionaire, Miss Scarlett, and considering the money I used to have, what Iâve got now sounds small.
But I made a thousand dollars this year.
Of course, five hundred of it went to paying for new stock and repairing the store and paying the rent.
But Iâve made five hundred clear and as things are certainly picking up, I ought to clear two thousand next year.
I can sure use it, too, for you see, Iâve got another iron in the fire.â
Interest had sprung up sharply in her at the talk of money.
She veiled her eyes with thick bristly lashes and moved a little closer to him.
âWhat does that mean, Mr. Kennedy?â
He laughed and slapped the reins against the horseâs back.
âI guess Iâm boring you, talking about business, Miss Scarlett.
A pretty little woman like you doesnât need to know anything about business.â
The old fool.
âOh, I know Iâm a goose about business but Iâm so interested!
Please tell me all about it and you can explain what I donât understand.â
âWell, my other iron is a sawmill.â
âA what?â
âA mill to cut up lumber and plane it.
I havenât bought it yet but Iâm going to.
Thereâs a man named Johnson who has one, way out Peachtree road, and heâs anxious to sell it.
He needs some cash right away, so he wants to sell and stay and run it for me at a weekly wage.
Itâs one of the few mills in this section, Miss Scarlett.
The Yankees destroyed most of them.
And anyone who owns a sawmill owns a gold mine, for nowadays you can ask your own price for lumber.
The Yankees burned so many houses here and there arenât enough for people to live in and it looks like folks have gone crazy about rebuilding.
They canât get enough lumber and they canât get it fast enough.
People are just pouring into Atlanta now, all the folks from the country districts who canât make a go of farming without darkies and the Yankees and Carpetbaggers who are swarming in trying to pick our bones a little barer than they already are.
I tell you Atlantaâs going to be a big town soon.
Theyâve got to have lumber for their houses, so Iâm going to buy this mill just as soon asâwell, as soon as some of the bills owing me are paid.
By this time next year, I ought to be breathing easier about money.
IâI guess you know why Iâm so anxious to make money quickly, donât you?â
He blushed and cackled again.
Heâs thinking of Suellen, Scarlett thought in disgust.
For a moment she considered asking him to lend her three hundred dollars, but wearily she rejected the idea.
He would be embarrassed; he would stammer; he would offer excuses, but he wouldnât lend it to her.
He had worked hard for it, so he could marry Suellen in the spring and if he parted with it, his wedding would be postponed indefinitely.
Even if she worked on his sympathies and his duty toward his future family and gained his promise of a loan, she knew Suellen would never permit it.
Suellen was getting more and more worried over the fact that she was practically an old maid and she would move heaven and earth to prevent anything from delaying her marriage.
What was there in that whining complaining girl to make this old fool so anxious to give her a soft nest?
Suellen didnât deserve a loving husband and the profits of a store and a sawmill.
The moment Sue got her hands on a little money sheâd give herself unendurable airs and never contribute one cent toward the upkeep of Tara.
Not Suellen!
Sheâd think herself well out of it and not care if Tara went for taxes or burned to the ground, so long as she had pretty clothes and a âMrs.â in front of her name.
As Scarlett thought of Suellenâs secure future and the precarious one of herself and Tara, anger flamed in her at the unfairness of life.
Hastily she looked out of the buggy into the muddy street, lest Frank should see her expression.
She was going to lose everything she had, while Sueâ
Suddenly a determination was born in her.
Suellen should not have Frank and his store and his mill!
Suellen didnât deserve them.
She was going to have them herself.
She thought of Tara and remembered Jonas Wilkerson, venomous as a rattler, at the foot of the front steps, and she grasped at the last straw floating above the shipwreck of her life.
Rhett had failed her but the Lord had provided Frank.
But can I get him?
Her fingers clenched as she looked unseeingly into the rain.
Can I make him forget Sue and propose to me real quick?
If I could make Rhett almost propose, I know I could get Frank!
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Her eyes went over him, her lids flickering.
Certainly, heâs no beauty, she thought coolly, and heâs got very bad teeth and his breath smells bad and heâs old enough to be my father.
Moreover, heâs nervous and timid and well meaning, and I donât know of any more damning qualities a man can have.
But at least, heâs a gentleman and I believe I could stand living with him better than with Rhett.
Certainly I could manage him easier.
At any rate, beggars canât be choosers.
That he was Suellenâs fiancĂ© caused her no qualm of conscience.
After the complete moral collapse which had sent her to Atlanta and to Rhett, the appropriation of her sisterâs betrothed seemed a minor affair and one not to be bothered with at this time.
With the rousing of fresh hope, her spine stiffened and she forgot that her feet were wet and cold.
She looked at Frank so steadily, her eyes narrowing, that he became somewhat alarmed and she dropped her gaze swiftly, remembering Rhettâs words: âIâve seen eyes like yours above a dueling pistolâŠ.
They evoke no ardor in the male breast.â
âWhatâs the matter, Miss Scarlett?
You got a chill?â
âYes,â she answered helplessly.
âWould you mindââ
She hesitated timidly.
âWould you mind if I put my hand in your coat pocket?
Itâs so cold and my muff is soaked through.â
âWhyâwhyâof course not!
And you havenât any gloves!
My, my, what a brute Iâve been idling along like this, talking my head off when you must be freezing and wanting to get to a fire.
Giddap, Sally!
By the way, Miss Scarlett, Iâve been so busy talking about myself I havenât even asked you what you were doing in this section in this weather?â
âI was at the Yankee headquarters,â she answered before she thought.
His sandy brows went up in astonishment.
âBut Miss Scarlett!
The soldiersâWhyââ
âMary, Mother of God, let me think of a real good lie,â she prayed hastily.
It would never do for Frank to suspect she had seen Rhett.
Frank thought Rhett the blackest of blackguards and unsafe for decent women to speak to.
âI went thereâI went there to see ifâif any of the officers would buy fancy work from me to send home to their wives.
I embroider very nicely.â
He sank back against the seat aghast, indignation struggling with bewilderment.
âYou went to the YankeesâBut Miss Scarlett!
You shouldnât.
WhyâwhyâŠ.
Surely your father doesnât know!
Surely, Miss Pittypatââ
âOh, I shall die if you tell Aunt Pittypat!â she cried in real anxiety and burst into tears.
It was easy to cry, because she was so cold and miserable, but the effect was startling.
Frank could not have been more embarrassed or helpless if she had suddenly begun disrobing.
He clicked his tongue against his teeth several times, muttering âMy!
My!â and made futile gestures at her.
A daring thought went through his mind that he should draw her head onto his shoulder and pat her but he had never done this to any woman and hardly knew how to go about it.
Scarlett OâHara, so high spirited and pretty, crying here in his buggy.
Scarlett OâHara, the proudest of the proud, trying to sell needlework to the Yankees.
His heart burned.
She sobbed on, saying a few words now and then, and he gathered that all was not well at Tara.
Mr. OâHara was still ânot himself at all,â and there wasnât enough food to go around for so many.
So she had to come to Atlanta to try to make a little money for herself and her boy.
Frank clicked his tongue again and suddenly found that her head was on his shoulder.
He did not quite know how it got there.
Surely he had not placed it there, but there her head was and there was Scarlett helplessly sobbing against his thin chest, an exciting and novel sensation for him.
He patted her shoulder timidly, gingerly at first, and when she did not rebuff him he became bolder and patted her firmly.
What a helpless, sweet, womanly thing she was.
And how brave and silly to try her hand at making money by her needle.
But dealing with the Yankeesâthat was too much.
âI wonât tell Miss Pittypat, but you must promise me, Miss Scarlett, that you wonât do anything like this again.
The idea of your fatherâs daughterââ
Her wet green eyes sought his helplessly.
âBut, Mr. Kennedy, I must do something.
I must take care of my poor little boy and there is no one to look after us now.â
âYou are a brave little woman,â he pronounced, âbut I wonât have you do this sort of thing.
Your family would die of shame.â
âThen what will I do?â
The swimming eyes looked up to him as if she knew he knew everything and was hanging on his words.
âWell, I donât know right now.
But Iâll think of something.â
âOh, I know you will!
You are so smartâFrank.â
She had never called him by his first name before and the sound came to him as a pleasant shock and surprise.
The poor girl was probably so upset she didnât even notice her slip.
He felt very kindly toward her and very protecting.
If there was anything he could do for Suellen OâHaraâs sister, he would certainly do it.
He pulled out a red bandana handkerchief and handed it to her and she wiped her eyes and began to smile tremulously.
âIâm such a silly little goose,â she said apologetically.
âPlease forgive me.â
âYou arenât a silly little goose.
Youâre a brave little woman and you are trying to carry too heavy a load.
Iâm afraid Miss Pittypat isnât going to be much help to you.
I hear she lost most of her property and Mr. Henry Hamiltonâs in bad shape himself.
I only wish I had a home to offer you shelter in.
But, Miss Scarlett, you just remember this, when Miss Suellen and I are married, thereâll always be a place for you under our roof and for Wade Hampton too.â
Now was the time!
Surely the saints and angels watched over her to give her such a Heaven-sent opportunity.
She managed to look very startled and embarrassed and opened her mouth as if to speak quickly and then shut it with a pop.
âDonât tell me you didnât know I was to be your brother-in-law this spring,â he said with nervous jocularity.
And then, seeing her eyes fill up with tears, he questioned in alarm: âWhatâs the matter?
Miss Sueâs not ill, is she?â
âOh, no!
No!â
âThere is something wrong.
You must tell me.â
âOh, I canât!
I didnât know!
I thought surely she must have written youâOh, how mean!â
âMiss Scarlett, what is it?â
âOh, Frank, I didnât mean to let it out but I thought, of course, you knewâthat she had written youââ
âWritten me what?â
He was trembling.
âOh, to do this to a fine man like you!â
âWhatâs she done?â
âShe didnât write you?
Oh, I guess she was too ashamed to write you.
She should be ashamed!
Oh, to have such a mean sister!â
By this time, Frank could not even get questions to his lips.
He sat staring at her, gray-faced, the reins slack in his hands.
âSheâs going to marry Tony Fontaine next month.
Oh, Iâm so sorry, Frank.
So sorry to be the one to tell you.
She just got tired of waiting and she was afraid sheâd be an old maid.â
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Mammy was standing on the front porch when Frank helped Scarlett out of the buggy.
She had evidently been standing there for some time, for her head rag was damp and the old shawl clutched tightly about her showed rain spots.
Her wrinkled black face was a study in anger and apprehension and her lip was pushed out farther than Scarlett could ever remember.
She peered quickly at Frank and, when she saw who it was, her face changedâpleasure, bewilderment and something akin to guilt spreading over it.
She waddled forward to Frank with pleased greetings and grinned and curtsied when he shook her hand.
âIt sho is good ter see home folks,â she said.
âHow is you, Mistâ Frank?
My, ainâ you lookinâ fine anâ granâ!
Effen Ahâd knowed Miss Scarlett wuz out wid you, Ah wouldnâ worrit so.
Ahâd knowed she wuz tekken keer of.
Ah come back hyah anâ fine she gone anâ Ah been as âstracted as a chicken wid its haid off, thinkinâ she runninâ rounâ dis town by herseff wid all dese trashy free issue niggers on de street.
Huccome you dinâ tell me you gwine out, honey?
Anâ you wid a cole!â
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Scarlett winked slyly at Frank and, for all his distress at the bad news he had just heard, he smiled, knowing she was enjoining silence and making him one in a pleasant conspiracy.
âYou run up and fix me some dry clothes, Mammy,â she said.
âAnd some hot tea.â
âLawd, yoâ new dress is plum ruint,â grumbled Mammy.
âAh gwine have a time dryinâ it anâ brushinâ it, so itâll be fit ter be woâ ter de weddinâ ternight.â
She went into the house and Scarlett leaned close to Frank and whispered: âDo come to supper tonight.
We are so lonesome.
And weâre going to the wedding afterward.
Do be our escort!
And, please donât say anything to Aunt Pitty aboutâabout Suellen.
It would distress her so much and I canât bear for her to know that my sisterââ
âOh, I wonât!
I wonât!â Frank said hastily, wincing from the very thought.
âYouâve been so sweet to me today and done me so much good.
I feel right brave again.â
She squeezed his hand in parting and turned the full battery of her eyes upon him.
Mammy, who was waiting just inside the door, gave her an inscrutable look and followed her, puffing, up the stairs to the bedroom.
She was silent while she stripped off the wet clothes and hung them over chairs and tucked Scarlett into bed.
When she had brought up a cup of hot tea and a hot brick, rolled in flannel, she looked down at Scarlett and said, with the nearest approach to an apology in her voice Scarlett had ever heard:
âLamb, huccome you dinâ tell yoâ own Mammy whut you wuz upter?
Den Ah wouldnâ had ter traipse all dis way up hyah ter âLanta.
Ah is too ole anâ too fat fer sech runninâ rounâ.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âHoney, you kain fool me.
Ah knows you.
Anâ Ah seed Mistâ Frankâs face jesâ now anâ Ah seed yoâ face, anâ Ah kin read yoâ mine lak a pahson read a Bible.
Anâ Ah heerd dat whisperinâ you wuz givinâ him âbout Miss Suellen.
Effen Ahâd had a notion âtwuz Mistâ Frank you wuz affer, Ahâd stayed home whar Ah bâlongs.â
âWell,â said Scarlett shortly, snuggling under the blankets and realizing it was useless to try to throw Mammy off the scent, âwho did you think it was?â
âChile, Ah dinâ know but Ah dinâ lak de look on yoâ face yestiddy.
Anâ Ah âmembered Miss Pittypat writinâ Miss Melly dat dat rapscallion Butler man had lots of money anâ Ah doan fergit whut Ah hears.
But Mistâ Frank, he a gempmum even ef he ainâ so pretty.â
Scarlett gave her a sharp look and Mammy returned the gaze with calm omniscience.
âWell, what are you going to do about it?
Tattle to Suellen?â
âAh is gwine ter heâp you pleasure Mistâ Frank eveây way Ah knows how,â said Mammy, tucking the covers about Scarlettâs neck.
Scarlett lay quietly for a while, as Mammy fussed about the room, relief flooding her that there was no need for words between them.
No explanations were asked, no reproaches made.
Mammy understood and was silent.
In Mammy, Scarlett had found a realist more uncompromising than herself.
The mottled wise old eyes saw deeply, saw clearly, with the directness of the savage and the child, undeterred by conscience when danger threatened her pet.
Scarlett was her baby and what her baby wanted, even though it belonged to another, Mammy was willing to help her obtain.
The rights of Suellen and Frank Kennedy did not even enter her mind, save to cause a grim inward chuckle.
Scarlett was in trouble and doing the best she could, and Scarlett was Miss Ellenâs child.
Mammy rallied to her with never a momentâs hesitation.
Scarlett felt the silent reinforcement and, as the hot brick at her feet warmed her, the hope which had flickered faintly on the cold ride home grew into a flame.
It swept through her, making her heart pump the blood through her veins in pounding surges.
Strength was coming back and a reckless excitement which made her want to laugh aloud.
Not beaten yet, she thought exultantly.
âHand me the mirror, Mammy,â she said.
âKeep yoâ shoulders unner dat kivver,â ordered Mammy, passing the hand mirror to her, a smile on her thick lips.
Scarlett looked at herself.
âI look white as a hant,â she said, âand my hair is as wild as a horseâs tail.â
âYou doan look peart as you mout.â
âHumâŠ.
Is it raining very hard?â
âYou know itâs poâinâ.â
âWell, just the same, youâve got to go downtown for me.â
âNot in dis rain, Ah ainâ.â
âYes, you are or Iâll go myself.â
âWhut you got ter do dat woan wait?
Look ter me lak you done nuff fer one day.â
âI want,â said Scarlett, surveying herself carefully in the mirror, âa bottle of cologne water.
You can wash my hair and rinse it with cologne.
And buy me a jar of quince-seed jelly to make it lie down flat.â
âAh ainâ gwine wash yoâ haâr in dis wedder anâ you ainâ gwine put no cologne on yoâ haid lak a fasâ woman needer.
Not wâile Ah got breaf in mah body.â
âOh, yes, I am.
Look in my purse and get that five-dollar gold piece out and go to town.
Andâer, Mammy, while you are downtown, you might get me aâa pot of rouge.â
âWhut dat?â asked Mammy suspiciously.
Scarlett met her eyes with a coldness she was far from feeling.
There was never any way of knowing just how far Mammy could be bullied.
âNever you mind.
Just ask for it.â
âAh ainâ buyinâ nuthinâ dat Ah doan know whut âtis.â
âWell, itâs paint, if youâre so curious!
Face paint.
Donât stand there and swell up like a toad.
Go on.â
âPaint!â ejaculated Mammy.
âFace paint!
Well, you ainâ so big dat Ah kain whup you!
Ah ainâ never been so scanâlized!
You is losâ yoâ mine!
Miss Ellen be tuhninâ in her grabe dis minute!
Paintinâ yoâ face lak aââ
âYou know very well Grandma Robillard painted her face andââ
âYasâm, anâ woâ only one petticoat anâ it wrang out wid water ter mek it stick anâ show de shape of her laigs, but dat ainâ sayinâ you is gwine do sumpinâ lak dat!
Times wuz scanâlous wâen Ole Miss wuz young but times changes, dey do anâââ
âName of God!â cried Scarlett, losing her temper and throwing back the covers.
âYou can go straight back to Tara!â
âYou kain senâ me ter Tara ness Ah wants ter go.
Ah is free,â said Mammy heatedly.
âAnâ Ah is gwine ter stay right hyah.
Git back in dat baid.
Does you want ter ketch pneumony jesâ now?
Put down dem stays!
Put dem down, honey.
Now, Miss Scarlett, you ainâ gwine nowhars in dis wedder.
Lawd God!
But you sho look lak yoâ pa!
Git back in baidâAh kain go buyinâ no paint!
Ah die of shame, eveâybody knowinâ it wuz fer mah chile!
Miss Scarlett, you is so sweet anâ pretty lookinâ you doan need no paint.
Honey, doan nobody but bad womens use dat stuff.â
âWell, they get results, donât they?â
âJesus, hear her!
Lamb, doan say bad things lak dat!
Put down dem wet stockinâs, honey.
Ah kain have you buy dat stuff yoâseff.
Miss Ellen would hant me.
Git back in baid.
Ahâll go.
Maybe Ah fine me a stoâ whar dey doan know us.â
That night at Mrs. Elsingâs, when Fanny had been duly married and old Levi and the other musicians were tuning up for the dance, Scarlett looked about her with gladness.
It was so exciting to be actually at a party again.
She was pleased also with the warm reception she had received.
When she entered the house on Frankâs arm, everyone had rushed to her with cries of pleasure and welcome, kissed her, shaken her hand, told her they had missed her dreadfully and that she must never go back to Tara.
The men seemed gallantly to have forgotten she had tried her best to break their hearts in other days and the girls that she had done everything in her power to entice their beaux away from them.
Even Mrs. Merriwether, Mrs. Whiting, Mrs. Meade and the other dowagers who had been so cool to her during the last days of the war, forgot her flighty conduct and their disapproval of it and recalled only that she had suffered in their common defeat and that she was Pittyâs niece and Charlesâ widow.
They kissed her and spoke gently with tears in their eyes of her dear motherâs passing and asked at length about her father and her sisters.
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Everyone asked about Melanie and Ashley, demanding the reason why they, too, had not come back to Atlanta.
In spite of her pleasure at the welcome, Scarlett felt a slight uneasiness which she tried to conceal, an uneasiness about the appearance of her velvet dress.
It was still damp to the knees and still spotted about the hem, despite the frantic efforts of Mammy and Cookie with a steaming kettle, a clean hair brush and frantic wavings in front of an open fire.
Scarlett was afraid someone would notice her bedraggled state and realize that this was her only nice dress.
She was a little cheered by the fact that many of the dresses of the other guests looked far worse than hers.
They were so old and had such carefully mended and pressed looks.
At least, her dress was whole and new, damp though it wasâin fact, the only new dress at the gathering with the exception of Fannyâs white-satin wedding gown.
Remembering what Aunt Pitty had told her about the Elsing finances, she wondered where the money for the satin dress had been obtained and for the refreshments and decorations and musicians too.
It must have cost a pretty penny.
Borrowed money probably or else the whole Elsing clan had contributed to give Fanny this expensive wedding.
Such a wedding in these hard times seemed to Scarlett an extravagance on a par with the tombstones of the Tarleton boys and she felt the same irritation and lack of sympathy she had felt as she stood in the Tarleton burying ground.
The days when money could be thrown away carelessly had passed.
Why did these people persist in making the gestures of the old days when the old days were gone?
But she shrugged off her momentary annoyance.
It wasnât her money and she didnât want her eveningâs pleasure spoiled by irritation at other peopleâs foolishness.
She discovered she knew the groom quite well, for he was Tommy Wellburn from Sparta and she had nursed him in 1863 when he had a wound in his shoulder.
He had been a handsome young six-footer then and had given up his medical studies to go in the cavalry.
Now he looked like a little old man, so bent was he by the wound in his hip.
He walked with some difficulty and, as Aunt Pitty had remarked, spraddled in a very vulgar way.
But he seemed totally unaware of his appearance, or unconcerned about it, and had the manner of one who asks no odds from any man.
He had given up all hope of continuing his medical studies and was now a contractor, working a labor crew of Irishmen who were building the new hotel.
Scarlett wondered how he managed so onerous a job in his condition but asked no questions, realizing wryly that almost anything was possible when necessity drove.
Tommy and Hugh Elsing and the little monkey-like René Picard stood talking with her while the chairs and furniture were pushed back to the walls in preparation for the dancing.
Hugh had not changed since Scarlett last saw him in 1862.
He was still the thin sensitive boy with the same lock of pale brown hair hanging over his forehead and the same delicate useless-looking hands she remembered so well.
But René had changed since that furlough when he married Maybelle Merriwether.
He still had the Gallic twinkle in his black eyes and the Creole zest for living but, for all his easy laughter, there was something hard about his face which had not been there in the early days of the war.
And the air of supercilious elegance which had clung about him in his striking Zouave uniform was completely gone.
âCheeks lak ze rose, eyes lak ze emerald!â he said, kissing Scarlettâs hand and paying tribute to the rouge upon her face.
âPretty lak wâen I first see you at ze bazaar.
You remembaire?
Nevaire have I forgot how you toss your wedding ring in my basket.
Ha, but zat was brave!
But I should nevaire have zink you wait so long to get anothaire ring!â
His eyes sparkled wickedly and he dug his elbow into Hughâs ribs.
âAnd I never thought youâd be driving a pie wagon, Renny Picard,â she said.
Instead of being ashamed at having his degrading occupation thrown in his face, he seemed pleased and laughed uproariously, slapping Hugh on the back.
âTouchĂ©!â he cried.
âBelle MĂšre, Madame Merriwether, she mek me do eet, ze first work I do een all my life, me, RenĂ© Picard, who was to grow old breeding ze race horse, playing ze feedle!
Now, I drive ze pie wagon and I lak eet!
Madame Belle MĂšre, she can mek a man do annyzing.
She should have been ze general and we win ze war, eh, Tommy?â
Well! thought Scarlett.
The idea of liking to drive a pie wagon when his people used to own ten miles along the Mississippi River and a big house in New Orleans, too!
âIf weâd had our mothers-in-law in the ranks, weâd have beaten the Yankees in a week,â agreed Tommy, his eyes straying to the slender, indomitable form of his new mother-in-law.
âThe only reason we lasted as long as we did was because of the ladies behind us who wouldnât give up.â
âWhoâll never give up,â amended Hugh, and his smile was proud but a little wry.
âThereâs not a lady here tonight who has surrendered, no matter what her men folks did at Appomattox.
Itâs a lot worse on them than it ever was on us.
At least, we took it out in fighting.â
âAnd in hating,â finished Tommy.
âEh, Scarlett?
It bothers the ladies to see what their men folks have come to lots more than it bothers us.
Hugh was to be a judge, RenĂ© was to play the fiddle before the crowned heads of Europeââ
He ducked as René aimed a blow at him.
âAnd I was to be a doctor and nowââ
âGeeve us ze time!â cried RenĂ©.
âZen I become ze Pie Prince of ze South!
And my good Hugh ze King of ze Kindling and you, my Tommy, you weel own ze Irish slaves instead of ze darky slaves.
What changeâwhat fun!
And what eet do for you, Mees Scarlett, and Mees Melly?
You meelk ze cow, peek ze cotton?â
âIndeed, no!â said Scarlett coolly, unable to understand RenĂ©âs gay acceptance of hardships.
âOur darkies do that.â
âMees Melly, I hear she call her boy âBeauregard.â
You tell her I, RenĂ©, approve and say that except for âJesusâ there is no bettaire name.â
And though he smiled, his eyes glowed proudly at the name of Louisianaâs dashing hero.
âWell, thereâs âRobert Edward Lee,ââ observed Tommy.
âAnd while Iâm not trying to lessen Old Beauâs reputation, my first son is going to be named âBob Lee Wellburn.ââ
René laughed and shrugged.
âI recount to you a joke but eet eez a true story.
And you see how Creoles zink of our brave Beauregard and of your General Lee.
On ze train near New Orleans a man of Virginia, a man of General Lee, he meet wiz a Creole of ze troops of Beauregard.
And ze man of Virginia, he talk, talk, talk how General Lee do zis, General Lee say zat.
And ze Creole, he look polite and he wreenkle hees forehead lak he try to remembaire, and zen he smile and say: âGeneral Lee!
Ah, oui!
Now I know!
General Lee!
Ze man General Beauregard speak well of!ââ
Scarlett tried to join politely in the laughter but she did not see any point to the story except that Creoles were just as stuck up as Charleston and Savannah people.
Moreover, she had always thought Ashleyâs son should have been named after him.
The musicians after preliminary tunings and whangings broke into âOld Dan Tuckerâ and Tommy turned to her.
âWill you dance, Scarlett?
I canât favor you but Hugh or RenĂ©ââ
âNo, thank you.
Iâm still mourning my mother,â said Scarlett hastily.
âI will sit them out.â
Her eyes singled out Frank Kennedy and beckoned him from the side of Mrs. Elsing.
âIâll sit in that alcove yonder if youâll bring me some refreshments and then we can have a nice chat,â she told Frank as the other three men moved off.
When he had hurried away to bring her a glass of wine and a paper-thin slice of cake, Scarlett sat down in the alcove at the end of the drawing room and carefully arranged her skirts so that the worst spots would not show.
The humiliating events of the morning with Rhett were pushed from her mind by the excitement of seeing so many people and hearing music again.
Tomorrow she would think of Rhettâs conduct and her shame and they would make her writhe again.
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Tomorrow she would wonder if she had made any impression on Frankâs hurt and bewildered heart.
But not tonight.
Tonight she was alive to her finger tips, every sense alert with hope, her eyes sparkling.
She looked from the alcove into the huge drawing room and watched the dancers, remembering how beautiful this room had been when first she came to Atlanta during the war.
Then the hardwood floors had shone like glass, and overhead the chandelier with its hundreds of tiny prisms had caught and reflected every ray of the dozens of candles it bore, flinging them, like gleams from diamonds, flame and sapphire about the room.
The old portraits on the walls had been dignified and gracious and had looked down upon guests with an air of mellowed hospitality.
The rosewood sofas had been soft and inviting and one of them, the largest, had stood in the place of honor in this same alcove where she now sat.
It had been Scarlettâs favorite seat at parties.
From this point stretched the pleasant vista of drawing room and dining room beyond, the oval mahogany table which seated twenty and the twenty slim-legged chairs demurely against the walls, the massive sideboard and buffet weighed with heavy silver, with seven-branched candlesticks, goblets, cruets, decanters and shining little glasses.
Scarlett had sat on that sofa so often in the first years of the war, always with some handsome officer beside her, and listened to violin and bull fiddle, accordion and banjo, and heard the exciting swishing noises which dancing feet made on the waxed and polished floor.
Now the chandelier hung dark.
It was twisted askew and most of the prisms were broken, as if the Yankee occupants had made their beauty a target for their boots.
Now an oil lamp and a few candles lighted the room and the roaring fire in the wide hearth gave most of the illumination.
Its flickering light showed how irreparably scarred and splintered the dull old floor was.
Squares on the faded paper on the wall gave evidence that once the portraits had hung there, and wide cracks in the plaster recalled the day during the siege when a shell had exploded on the house and torn off parts of the roof and second floor.
The heavy old mahogany table, spread with cake and decanters, still presided in the empty-looking dining room but it was scratched and the broken legs showed signs of clumsy repair.
The sideboard, the silver and the spindly chairs were gone.
The dull-gold damask draperies which had covered the arching French windows at the back of the room were missing, and only the remnants of the lace curtains remained, clean but obviously mended.
In place of the curved sofa she had liked so much was a hard bench that was none too comfortable.
She sat upon it with as good grace as possible, wishing her skirts were in such condition that she could dance.
It would be so good to dance again.
But, of course, she could do more with Frank in this sequestered alcove than in a breathless reel and she could listen fascinated to his talk and encourage him to greater flights of foolishness.
But the music certainly was inviting.
Her slipper patted longingly in time with old Leviâs large splayed foot as he twanged a strident banjo and called the figures of the reel.
Feet swished and scraped and patted as the twin lines danced toward each other, retreated, whirled and made arches of their arms.
ââOle Dan Tucker he got drunkââ (Swing yoâ padners!) âFell in de fiah anâ he kick up a chunk!â (Skip light, ladies!)â
After the dull and exhausting months at Tara it was good to hear music again and the sound of dancing feet, good to see familiar friendly faces laughing in the feeble light, calling old jokes and catchwords, bantering, rallying, coquetting.
It was like coming to life again after being dead.
It almost seemed that the bright days of five years ago had come back again.
If she could close her eyes and not see the worn made-over dresses and the patched boots and mended slippers, if her mind did not call up the faces of boys missing from the reel, she might almost think that nothing had changed.
But as she looked, watching the old men grouped about the decanter in the dining room, the matrons lining the walls, talking behind fanless hands, and the swaying, skipping young dancers, it came to her suddenly, coldly, frighteningly that it was all as greatly changed as if these familiar figures were ghosts.
They looked the same but they were different.
What was it?
Was it only that they were five years older?
No, it was something more than the passing of time.
Something had gone out of them, out of their world.
Five years ago, a feeling of security had wrapped them all around so gently they were not even aware of it.
In its shelter they had flowered.
Now it was gone and with it had gone the old thrill, the old sense of something delightful and exciting just around the corner, the old glamor of their way of living.
She knew she had changed too, but not as they had changed, and it puzzled her.
She sat and watched them and she felt herself an alien among them, as alien and lonely as if she had come from another world, speaking a language they did not understand and she not understanding theirs.
Then she knew that this feeling was the same one she felt with Ashley.
With him and with people of his kindâand they made up most of her worldâshe felt outside of something she could not understand.
Their faces were little changed and their manners not at all but it seemed to her that these two things were all that remained of her old friends.
An ageless dignity, a timeless gallantry still clung about them and would cling until they died but they would carry undying bitterness to their graves, a bitterness too deep for words.
They were a soft-spoken, fierce, tired people who were defeated and would not know defeat, broken yet standing determinedly erect.
They were crushed and helpless, citizens of conquered provinces.
They were looking on the state they loved, seeing it trampled by the enemy, rascals making a mock of the law, their former slaves a menace, their men disfranchised, their women insulted.
And they were remembering graves.
Everything in their old world had changed but the old forms.
The old usages went on, must go on, for the forms were all that were left to them.
They were holding tightly to the things they knew best and loved best in the old days, the leisured manners, the courtesy, the pleasant casualness in human contacts and, most of all, the protecting attitude of the men toward their women.
True to the tradition in which they had been reared, the men were courteous and tender and they almost succeeded in creating an atmosphere of sheltering their women from all that was harsh and unfit for feminine eyes.
That, thought Scarlett, was the height of absurdity, for there was little, now, which even the most cloistered women had not seen and known in the last five years.
They had nursed the wounded, closed dying eyes, suffered war and fire and devastation, known terror and flight and starvation.
But, no matter what sights they had seen, what menial tasks they had done and would have to do, they remained ladies and gentlemen, royalty in exileâbitter, aloof, incurious, kind to one another, diamond-hard, as bright and brittle as the crystals of the broken chandelier over their heads.
The old days had gone but these people would go their ways as if the old days still existed, charming, leisurely, determined not to rush and scramble for pennies as the Yankees did, determined to part with none of the old ways.
Scarlett knew that she, too, was greatly changed.
Otherwise she could not have done the things she had done since she was last in Atlanta; otherwise she would not now be contemplating doing what she desperately hoped to do.
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But there was a difference in their hardness and hers and just what the difference was, she could not, for the moment, tell.
Perhaps it was that there was nothing she would not do, and there were so many things these people would rather die than do.
Perhaps it was that they were without hope but still smiling at life, bowing gracefully and passing it by.
And this Scarlett could not do.
She could not ignore life.
She had to live it and it was too brutal, too hostile, for her even to try to gloss over its harshness with a smile.
Of the sweetness and courage and unyielding pride of her friends, Scarlett saw nothing.
She saw only a silly stiff-neckedness which observed facts but smiled and refused to look them in the face.
As she stared at the dancers, flushed from the reel, she wondered if things drove them as she was driven, dead lovers, maimed husbands, children who were hungry, acres slipping away, beloved roofs that sheltered strangers.
But, of course, they were driven!
She knew their circumstances only a little less thoroughly than she knew her own.
Their losses had been her losses, their privations her privations, their problems her same problems.
Yet they had reacted differently to them.
The faces she was seeing in the room were not faces; they were masks, excellent masks which would never drop.
But if they were suffering as acutely from brutal circumstances as she wasâand they wereâhow could they maintain this air of gaiety and lightness of heart?
Why, indeed, should they even try to do it?
They were beyond her comprehension and vaguely irritating.
She couldnât be like them.
She couldnât survey the wreck of the world with an air of casual unconcern.
She was as hunted as a fox, running with a bursting heart, trying to reach a burrow before the hounds caught up.
Suddenly she hated them all because they were different from her, because they carried their losses with an air that she could never attain, would never wish to attain.
She hated them, these smiling, light-footed strangers, these proud fools who took pride in something they had lost, seeming to be proud that they had lost it.
The women bore themselves like ladies, though menial tasks were their daily lot and they didnât know where their next dress was coming from.
Ladies all!
But she could not feel herself a lady, for all her velvet dress and scented hair, for all the pride of birth that stood behind her and the pride of wealth that had once been hers.
Harsh contact with the red earth of Tara had stripped gentility from her and she knew she would never feel like a lady again until her table was weighted with silver and crystal and smoking with rich food, until her own horses and carriages stood in her stables, until black hands and not white took the cotton from Tara.
âAh!â she thought angrily, sucking in her breath.
âThatâs the difference!
Even though theyâre poor, they still feel like ladies and I donât.
The silly fools donât seem to realize that you canât be a lady without money!â
Even in this flash of revelation, she realized vaguely that, foolish though they seemed, theirs was the right attitude.
Ellen would have thought so.
This disturbed her.
She knew she should feel as these people felt, but she could not.
She knew she should believe devoutly, as they did, that a born lady remained a lady, even if reduced to poverty, but she could not make herself believe it now.
All her life she had heard sneers hurled at the Yankees because their pretensions to gentility were based on wealth, not breeding.
But at this moment, heresy though it was, she could not help thinking the Yankees were right on this one matter, even if wrong in all others.
It took money to be a lady.
She knew Ellen would have fainted had she ever heard such words from her daughter.
No depth of poverty could ever have made Ellen feel ashamed.
Ashamed!
Yes, that was how Scarlett felt.
Ashamed that she was poor and reduced to galling shifts and penury and work that negroes should do.
She shrugged in irritation.
Perhaps these people were right and she was wrong but, just the same, these proud fools werenât looking forward as she was doing, straining every nerve, risking even honor and good name to get back what they had lost.
It was beneath the dignity of many of them to indulge in a scramble for money.
The times were rude and hard.
They called for rude and hard struggle if one was to conquer them.
Scarlett knew that family tradition would forcibly restrain many of these people from such a struggleâwith the making of money admittedly its aim.
They all thought that obvious money-making and even talk of money were vulgar in the extreme.
Of course, there were exceptions.
Mrs. Merriwether and her baking and René driving the pie wagon.
And Hugh Elsing cutting and peddling firewood and Tommy contracting.
And Frank having the gumption to start a store.
But what of the rank and file of them?
The planters would scratch a few acres and live in poverty.
The lawyers and doctors would go back to their professions and wait for clients who might never come.
And the rest, those who had lived in leisure on their incomes?
What would happen to them?
But she wasnât going to be poor all her life.
She wasnât going to sit down and patiently wait for a miracle to help her.
She was going to rush into life and wrest from it what she could.
Her father had started as a poor immigrant boy and had won the broad acres of Tara.
What he had done, his daughter could do.
She wasnât like these people who had gambled everything on a Cause, because it was worth any sacrifice.
They drew their courage from the past.
She was drawing hers from the future.
Frank Kennedy, at present, was her future.
At least, he had the store and he had cash money.
And if she could marry him and get her hands on that money, she could make ends meet at Tara for another year.
And after thatâFrank must buy the sawmill.
She could see for herself how quickly the town was rebuilding and anyone who could establish a lumber business now, when there was so little competition, would have a gold mine.
There came to her, from the recesses of her mind, words Rhett had spoken in the early years of the war about the money he made in the blockade.
She had not taken the trouble to understand them then, but now they seemed perfectly clear and she wondered if it had been only her youth or plain stupidity which had kept her from appreciating them.
âThereâs just as much money to be made in the wreck of a civilization as in the upbuilding of one.â
âThis is the wreck he foresaw,â she thought, âand he was right.
Thereâs still plenty of money to be made by anyone who isnât afraid to workâor to grab.â
She saw Frank coming across the floor toward her with a glass of blackberry wine in his hand and a morsel of cake on a saucer and she pulled her face into a smile.
It did not occur to her to question whether Tara was worth marrying Frank.
She knew it was worth it and she never gave the matter a second thought.
She smiled up at him as she sipped the wine, knowing that her cheeks were more attractively pink than any of the dancersâ.
She moved her skirts for him to sit by her and waved her handkerchief idly so that the faint sweet smell of the cologne could reach his nose.
She was proud of the cologne, for no other woman in the room was wearing any and Frank had noticed it.
In a fit of daring he had whispered to her that she was as pink and fragrant as a rose.
If only he were not so shy!
He reminded her of a timid old brown field rabbit.
If only he had the gallantry and ardor of the Tarleton boys or even the coarse impudence of Rhett Butler.
But, if he possessed those qualities, heâd probably have sense enough to feel the desperation that lurked just beneath her demurely fluttering eyelids.
As it was, he didnât know enough about women even to suspect what she was up to.
That was her good fortune but it did not increase her respect for him.