[Part 22] "Gone With The Wind" by Margaret Mitchell
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FEW FAMILIES IN THE NORTH end of town slept that night for the news of the disaster to the Klan, and Rhettâs stratagem spread swiftly on silent feet as the shadowy form of India Wilkes slipped through back yards, whispered urgently through kitchen doors and slipped away into the windy darkness.
And in her path, she left fear and desperate hope.
From without, houses looked black and silent and wrapped in sleep but, within, voices whispered vehemently into the dawn.
Not only those involved in the nightâs raid but every member of the Klan was ready for flight and in almost every stable along Peachtree Street, horses stood saddled in the darkness, pistols in holsters and food in saddlebags.
All that prevented a wholesale exodus was Indiaâs whispered message: âCaptain Butler says not to run.
The roads will be watched.
He has arranged with that Watling creatureââ
In dark rooms men whispered: âBut why should I trust that damned Scallawag Butler?
It may be a trap!â
And womenâs voices implored: âDonât go!
If he saved Ashley and Hugh, he may save everybody.
If India and Melanie trust himââ
And they half trusted and stayed because there was no other course open to them.
Earlier in the night, the soldiers had knocked at a dozen doors and those who could not or would not tell where they had been that night were marched off under arrest.
RenĂ© Picard and one of Mrs. Merriwetherâs nephews and the Simmons boys and Andy Bonnell were among those who spent the night in jail.
They had been in the ill-starred foray but had separated from the others after the shooting.
Riding hard for home they were arrested before they learned of Rhettâs plan.
Fortunately they all replied, to questions, that where they had been that night was their own business and not that of any damned Yankees.
They had been locked up for further questioning in the morning.
Old Man Merriwether and Uncle Henry Hamilton declared shamelessly that they had spent the evening at Belle Watlingâs sporting house and when Captain Jaffery remarked irritably that they were too old for such goings on, they wanted to fight him.
Belle Watling herself answered Captain Jafferyâs summons, and before he could make known his mission she shouted that the house was closed for the night.
A passel of quarrelsome drunks had called in the early part of the evening and had fought one another, torn the place up, broken her finest mirrors and so alarmed the young ladies that all business had been suspended for the night.
But if Captain Jaffery wanted a drink, the bar was still openâ
Captain Jaffery, acutely conscious of the grins of his men and feeling helplessly that he was fighting a mist, declared angrily that he wanted neither the young ladies nor a drink and demanded if Belle knew the names of her destructive customers.
Oh, yes, Belle knew them.
They were her regulars.
They came every Wednesday night and called themselves the Wednesday Democrats, though what they meant by that she neither knew or cared.
And if they didnât pay for the damage to the mirrors in the upper hall, she was going to have the law on them.
She kept a respectable house andâ Oh, their names?
Belle unhesitatingly reeled off the names of twelve under suspicion.
Captain Jaffery smiled sourly.
âThese damned Rebels are as efficiently organized as our Secret Service,â he said.
âYou and your girls will have to appear before the provost marshal tomorrow.â
âWill the provost make them pay for my mirrors?â
âTo hell with your mirrors!
Make Rhett Butler pay for them.
He owns the place, doesnât he?â
Before dawn, every ex-Confederate family in town knew everything.
And their negroes, who had been told nothing, knew everything too, by that black grapevine telegraph system which defies white understanding.
Everyone knew the details of the raid, the killing of Frank Kennedy and crippled Tommy Wellburn and how Ashley was wounded in carrying Frankâs body away.
Some of the feeling of bitter hatred the women bore Scarlett for her share in the tragedy was mitigated by the knowledge that her husband was dead and she knew it and could not admit it and have the poor comfort of claiming his body.
Until morning light disclosed the bodies and the authorities notified her, she must know nothing.
Frank and Tommy, pistols in cold hands, lay stiffening among the dead weeds in a vacant lot.
And the Yankees would say they killed each other in a common drunken brawl over a girl in Belleâs house.
Sympathy ran high for Fanny, Tommyâs wife, who had just had a baby, but no one could slip through the darkness to see her and comfort her because a squad of Yankees surrounded the house, waiting for Tommy to return.
And there was another squad about Aunt Pittyâs house, waiting for Frank.
Before dawn the news had trickled about that the military inquiry would take place that day.
The townspeople, heavy eyed from sleeplessness and anxious waiting, knew that the safety of some of their most prominent citizens rested on three thingsâthe ability of Ashley Wilkes to stand on his feet and appear before the military board, as though he suffered nothing more serious than a morning-after headache, the word of Belle Watling that these men had been in her house all evening and the word of Rhett Butler that he had been with them.
The town writhed at these last two!
Belle Watling!
To owe their menâs lives to her!
It was intolerable!
Women who had ostentatiously crossed the street when they saw Belle coming, wondered if she remembered and trembled for fear she did.
The men felt less humiliation at taking their lives from Belle than the women did, for many of them thought her a good sort.
But they were stung that they must owe lives and freedom to Rhett Butler, a speculator and a Scallawag.
Belle and Rhett, the townâs best-known fancy woman and the townâs most hated man.
And they must be under obligation to them.
Another thought that stung them to impotent wrath was the knowledge that the Yankees and Carpetbaggers would laugh.
Oh, how they would laugh!
Twelve of the townâs most prominent citizens revealed as habitual frequenters of Belle Watlingâs sporting house!
Two of them killed in a fight over a cheap little girl, others ejected from the place as too drunk to be tolerated even by Belle and some under arrest, refusing to admit they were there when everyone knew they were there!
Atlanta was right in fearing that the Yankees would laugh.
They had squirmed too long beneath Southern coldness and contempt and now they exploded with hilarity.
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Officers woke comrades and retailed the news.
Husbands roused wives at dawn and told them as much as could be decently told to women.
And the women, dressing hastily, knocked on their neighborsâ doors and spread the story.
The Yankee ladies were charmed with it all and laughed until tears ran down their faces.
This was Southern chivalry and gallantry for you!
Maybe those women who carried their heads so high and snubbed all attempts at friendliness wouldnât be so uppity, now that everyone knew where their husbands spent their time when they were supposed to be at political meetings.
Political meetings!
Well, that was funny!
But even as they laughed, they expressed regret for Scarlett and her tragedy.
After all, Scarlett was a lady and one of the few ladies in Atlanta who were nice to Yankees.
She had already won their sympathy by the fact that she had to work because her husband couldnât or wouldnât support her properly.
Even though her husband was a sorry one, it was dreadful that the poor thing should discover he had been untrue to her.
And it was doubly dreadful that his death should occur simultaneously with the discovery of his infidelity.
After all, a poor husband was better than no husband at all, and the Yankee ladies decided theyâd be extra nice to Scarlett.
But the others, Mrs. Meade, Mrs. Merriwether, Mrs. Elsing, Tommy Wellburnâs widow and most of all, Mrs. Ashley Wilkes, theyâd laugh in their faces every time they saw them.
That would teach them a little courtesy.
Much of the whispering that went on in the dark rooms on the north side of town that night was on this same subject.
Atlanta ladies vehemently told their husbands that they did not care a rap what the Yankees thought.
But inwardly they felt that running an Indian gauntlet would be infinitely preferable to suffering the ordeal of Yankee grins and not being able to tell the truth about their husbands.
Dr. Meade, beside himself with outraged dignity at the position into which Rhett had jockeyed him and the others, told Mrs. Meade that, but for the fact that it would implicate the others, he would rather confess and be hanged than to say he had been at Belleâs house.
âIt is an insult to you, Mrs. Meade,â he fumed.
âBut everyone will know you werenât there forâforââ
âThe Yankees wonât know.
Theyâll have to believe it if we save our necks.
And theyâll laugh.
The very thought that anyone will believe it and laugh infuriates me.
And it insults you becauseâmy dear, I have always been faithful to you.â
âI know that,â and in the darkness Mrs. Meade smiled and slipped a thin hand into the doctorâs.
âBut Iâd rather it were really true than have one hair of your head in danger.â
âMrs. Meade, do you know what you are saying?â cried the doctor, aghast at the unsuspected realism of his wife.
âYes, I know.
Iâve lost Darcy and Iâve lost Phil and you are all I have and, rather than lose you, Iâd have you take up your permanent abode at that place.â
âYou are distrait!
You cannot know what you are saying.â
âYou old fool,â said Mrs. Meade tenderly and laid her head against his sleeve.
Dr. Meade fumed into silence and stroked her cheek and then exploded again.
âAnd to be under obligation to that Butler man!
Hanging would be easy compared with that.
No, not even if I owe him my life, can I be polite to him.
His insolence is monumental and his shamelessness about his profiteering makes me boil.
To owe my life to a man who never went in the armyââ
âMelly said he enlisted after Atlanta fell.â
âItâs a lie.
Miss Melly will believe any plausible scoundrel.
And what I canât understand is why he is doing all thisâgoing to all this trouble.
I hate to say it butâwell, thereâs always been talk about him and Mrs. Kennedy.
Iâve seen them coming in from rides too often this last year.
He must have done it because of her.â
âIf it was because of Scarlett, he wouldnât have lifted his hand.
Heâd have been glad to see Frank Kennedy hanged.
I think itâs because of Mellyââ
âMrs. Meade, you canât be insinuating that thereâs ever been anything between those two!â
âOh, donât be silly!
But sheâs always been unaccountably fond of him ever since he tried to get Ashley exchanged during the war.
And I must say this for him, he never smiles in that nasty-nice way when heâs with her.
Heâs just as pleasant and thoughtful as can beâreally a different man.
You can tell by the way he acts with Melly that he could be decent if he wanted to.
Now, my idea of why heâs doing all this isââ
She paused.
âDoctor, you wonât like my idea.â
âI donât like anything about this whole affair!â
âWell, I think he did it partly for Mellyâs sake but mostly because he thought it would be a huge joke on us all.
Weâve hated him so much and showed it so plainly and now heâs got us in a fix where all of you have your choice of saying you were at that Watling womanâs house and shaming yourself and wives before the Yankeesâor telling the truth and getting hanged.
And he knows weâll all be under obligation to him and hisâmistress and that weâd almost rather be hanged than be obliged to them.
Oh, Iâll wager heâs enjoying it.â
The doctor groaned.
âHe did look amused when he took us upstairs in that place.â
âDoctor,â Mrs. Meade hesitated, âwhat did it look like?â
âWhat are you saying, Mrs. Meade?â
âHer house.
What did it look like?
Are there cut-glass chandeliers?
And red plush curtains and dozens of full-length gilt mirrors?
And were the girlsâwere they unclothed?â
âGood God!â cried the doctor, thunderstruck, for it had never occurred to him that the curiosity of a chaste woman concerning her unchaste sisters was so devouring.
âHow can you ask such immodest questions?
You are not yourself.
I will mix you a sedative.â
âI donât want a sedative.
I want to know.
Oh, dear, this is my only chance to know what a bad house looks like and now you are mean enough not to tell me!â
âI noticed nothing.
I assure you I was too embarrassed at finding myself in such a place to take note of my surroundings,â said the doctor formally, more upset at this unsuspected revelation of his wifeâs character than he had been by all the previous events of the evening.
âIf you will excuse me now, I will try to get some sleep.â
âWell, go to sleep then,â she answered, disappointment in her tones.
Then as the doctor leaned over to remove his boots, her voice spoke from the darkness with renewed cheerfulness.
âI imagine Dolly has gotten it all out of old man Merriwether and she can tell me about it.â
âGood Heavens, Mrs. Meade!
Do you mean to tell me that nice women talk about such things among themââ
âOh, go to bed,â said Mrs. Meade.
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It sleeted the next day, but as the wintry twilight drew on the icy particles stopped falling and a cold wind blew.
Wrapped in her cloak, Melanie went bewilderedly down her front walk behind a strange negro coachman who had summoned her mysteriously to a closed carriage waiting in front of the house.
As she came up to the carriage the door was opened and she saw a woman in the dim interior.
Leaning closer, peering inside, Melanie questioned: âWho is it?
Wonât you come in the house.
Itâs so coldââ
âPlease come in here and set with me a minute, Miz Wilkes,â came a faintly familiar voice, an embarrassed voice from the depths of the carriage.
âOh, youâre MissâMrs.âWatling!â cried Melanie.
âI did so want to see you!
You must come in the house.â
âI canât do that, Miz Wilkes.â
Belle Watlingâs voice sounded scandalized.
âYou come in here and set a minute with me.â
Melanie entered the carriage and the coachman closed the door behind her.
She sat down beside Belle and reached for her hand.
âHow can I ever thank you enough for what you did today!
How can any of us thank you enough!â
âMiz Wilkes, you hadnât ought of sent me that note this morninâ.
Not that I wasnât proud to have a note from you but the Yankees might of got it.
And as for sayinâ you was goinâ to call on me to thank meâwhy, Miz Wilkes, you must of lost your mind!
The very idea!
I come up here as soon as âtwas dark to tell you you mustnât think of any sech thing.
Why, Iâwhy, youâit wouldnât be fittinâ at all.â
âIt wouldnât be fitting for me to call and thank a kind woman who saved my husbandâs life?â
âOh, shucks, Miz Wilkes!
You know what I mean!â
Melanie was silent for a moment, embarrassed by the implication.
Somehow this handsome, sedately dressed woman sitting in the darkness of the carriage didnât look and talk as she imagined a bad woman, the Madam of a House, should look and talk.
She sounded likeâwell, a little common and countrified but nice and warm hearted.
âYou were wonderful before the provost marshal today, Mrs. Watling!
You and the otherâyourâthe young ladies certainly saved our menâs lives.â
âMr. Wilkes was the wonderful one.
I donât know how he even stood up and told his story, much less look as cool as he done.
He was sure bleedinâ like a pig when I seen him last night.
Is he goinâ to be all right, Miz Wilkes?â
âYes, thank you.
The doctor says itâs just a flesh wound, though he did lose a tremendous lot of blood.
This morning he wasâwell, he was pretty well laced with brandy or heâd never have had the strength to go through with it all so well.
But it was you, Mrs. Watling, who saved them.
When you got mad and talked about the broken mirrors you sounded soâso convincing.â
âThank you, Maâm.
But IâI thought Captain Butler done mighty fine too,â said Belle, shy pride in her voice.
âOh, he was wonderful!â cried Melanie warmly.
âThe Yankees couldnât help but believe his testimony.
He was so smart about the whole affair.
I can never thank him enoughâor you either!
How good and kind you are!â
âThank you kindly, Miz Wilkes.
It was a pleasure to do it.
IâI hope it ainât goinâ to embarrass you none, me sayinâ Mr. Wilkes come regular to my place.
He never, you knowââ
âYes, I know.
No, it doesnât embarrass me at all.
Iâm just so grateful to you.â
âIâll bet the other ladies ainât grateful to me,â said Belle with sudden venom.
âAnd Iâll bet they ainât grateful to Captain Butler neither.
Iâll bet theyâll hate him just this much more.
Iâll bet youâll be the only lady who even says thanks to me.
Iâll bet they wonât even look me in the eye when they see me on the street.
But I donât care.
I wouldnât of minded if all their husbands got hung.
But I did mind about Mr. Wilkes.
You see I ainât forgot how nice you was to me durinâ the war, about the money for the hospital.
There ainât never been a lady in this town nice to me like you was and I donât forget a kindness.
And I thought about you beinâ left a widder with a little boy if Mr. Wilkes got hung andâheâs a nice little boy, your boy is, Miz Wilkes.
I got a boy myself and so Iââ
âOh, you have?
Does he liveâerââ
âOh, noâm!
He ainât here in Atlanta.
He ainât never been here.
Heâs off at school.
I ainât seen him since he was little.
Iâwell, anyway, when Captain Butler wanted me to lie for those men I wanted to know who the men was and when I heard Mr. Wilkes was one I never hesitated.
I said to my girls, I said, âIâll whale the livinâ daylights out of you all if you donât make a special point of sayinâ you was with Mr. Wilkes all eveninâ.ââ
âOh!â said Melanie, still more embarrassed by Belleâs offhand reference to her âgirls.â
âOh, that wasâerâkind of you andâof them, too.â
âNo moreân you deserve,â said Belle warmly.
âBut I wouldnât of did it for just anybody.
If it had been that Miz Kennedyâs husband by hisself, I wouldnât of lifted a finger, no matter what Captain Butler said.â
âWhy?â
âWell, Miz Wilkes, people in my business knows a heap of things.
Itâd surprise and shock a heap of fine ladies if they had any notion how much we knows about them.
And she ainât no good, Miz Wilkes.
She kilt her husband and that nice Wellburn boy, same as if she shot them.
She caused it all, prancinâ about Atlanta by herself, enticinâ niggers and trash.
Why, not one of my girlsââ
âYou must not say unkind things about my sister-in-law.â
Melanie stiffened coldly.
Belle put an eager placating hand on Melanieâs arm and then hastily withdrew it.
âDonât freeze me, please, Miz Wilkes.
I couldnât stand it after you been so kind and sweet to me.
I forgot how you liked her and Iâm sorry for what I said.
Iâm sorry about poor Mr. Kennedy beinâ dead too.
He was a nice man.
I used to buy some of the stuff for my house from him and he always treated me pleasant.
But Miz Kennedyâwell, she just ainât in the same class with you, Miz Wilkes.
Sheâs a mighty cold woman and I canât help it if I think soâŠ.
When are they goinâ to bury Mr. Kennedy?â
âTomorrow morning.
And you are wrong about Mrs. Kennedy.
Why, this very minute sheâs prostrated with grief.â
âMaybe so,â said Belle with evident disbelief.
âWell, I got to be goinâ.
Iâm afraid somebody might recognize this carriage if I stayed here longer and that wouldnât do you no good.
And, Miz Wilkes, if you ever see me on the street, youâyou donât have to speak to me.
Iâll understand.â
âI shall be proud to speak to you.
Proud to be under obligation to you.
I hopeâI hope we meet again.â
âNo,â said Belle.
âThat wouldnât be fittinâ.
Good night.â
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SCARLETT SAT IN HER BEDROOM, picking at the supper tray Mammy had brought her, listening to the wind hurling itself out of the night.
The house was frighteningly still, quieter even than when Frank had lain in the parlor just a few hours before.
Then there had been tiptoeing feet and hushed voices, muffled knocks on the front door, neighbors rustling in to whisper sympathy and occasional sobs from Frankâs sister who had come up from Jonesboro for the funeral.
But now the house was cloaked in silence.
Although her door was open she could hear no sounds from below stairs.
Wade and the baby had been at Melanieâs since Frankâs body was brought home and she missed the sound of the boyâs feet and Ellaâs gurgling.
There was a truce in the kitchen and no sound of quarreling from Peter, Mammy and Cookie floated up to her.
Even Aunt Pitty, downstairs in the library, was not rocking her creaking chair in deference to Scarlettâs sorrow.
No one intruded upon her, believing that she wished to be left alone with her grief, but to be left alone was the last thing Scarlett desired.
Had it only been grief that companioned her, she could have borne it as she had borne other griefs.
But, added to her stunned sense of loss at Frankâs death, were fear and remorse and the torment of a suddenly awakened conscience.
For the first time in her life she was regretting things she had done, regretting them with a sweeping superstitious fear that made her cast sidelong glances at the bed upon which she had lain with Frank.
She had killed Frank.
She had killed him just as surely as if it had been her finger that pulled the trigger.
He had begged her not to go about alone but she had not listened to him.
And now he was dead because of her obstinacy.
God would punish her for that.
But there lay upon her conscience another matter that was heavier and more frightening even than causing his deathâa matter which had never troubled her until she looked upon his coffined face.
There had been something helpless and pathetic in the still face which had accused her.
God would punish her for marrying him when he really loved Suellen.
She would have to cower at the seat of judgment and answer for that lie she told him coming back from the Yankee camp in his buggy.
Useless for her to argue now that the end justified the means, that she was driven into trapping him, that the fate of too many people hung on her for her to consider either his or Suellenâs rights and happiness.
The truth stood out boldly and she cowered away from it.
She had married him coldly and used him coldly.
And she had made him unhappy during the last six months when she could have made him very happy.
God would punish her for not being nicer to himâpunish her for all her bullyings and proddings and storms of temper and cutting remarks, for alienating his friends and shaming him by operating the mills and building the saloon and leasing convicts.
She had made him very unhappy and she knew it, but he had borne it all like a gentleman.
The only thing she had ever done that gave him any real happiness was to present him with Ella.
And she knew if she could have kept from having Ella, Ella would never have been born.
She shivered, frightened, wishing Frank were alive, so she could be nice to him, so very nice to him to make up for it all.
Oh, if only God did not seem so furious and vengeful!
Oh, if only the minutes did not go by so slowly and the house were not so still!
If only she were not so alone!
If only Melanie were with her, Melanie could calm her fears.
But Melanie was at home, nursing Ashley.
For a moment Scarlett thought of summoning Pittypat to stand between her and her conscience but she hesitated.
Pitty would probably make matters worse, for she honestly mourned Frank.
He had been more her contemporary than Scarlettâs and she had been devoted to him.
He had filled to perfection Pittyâs need for âa man in the house,â for he brought her little presents and harmless gossip, jokes and stories, read the paper to her at night and explained topics of the day to her while she mended his socks.
She had fussed over him and planned special dishes for him and coddled him during his innumerable colds.
Now she missed him acutely and repeated over and over as she dabbed at her red swollen eyes: âIf only he hadnât gone out with the Klan!â
If there were only someone who could comfort her, quiet her fears, explain to her just what were these confused fears which made her heart sink with such cold sickness!
If only Ashleyâbut she shrank from the thought.
She had almost killed Ashley, just as she had killed Frank.
And if Ashley ever knew the real truth about how she lied to Frank to get him, knew how mean she had been to Frank, he could never love her any more.
Ashley was so honorable, so truthful, so kind and he saw so straightly, so clearly.
If he knew the whole truth, he would understand.
Oh, yes, he would understand only too well!
But he would never love her any more.
So he must never know the truth because he must keep on loving her.
How could she live if that secret source of her strength, his love, were taken from her?
But what a relief it would be to put her head on his shoulder and cry and unburden her guilty heart!
The still house with the sense of death upon it pressed about her loneliness until she felt she could not bear it unaided any longer.
She arose cautiously, pushed her door half-closed and then dug about in the bottom bureau drawer beneath her underwear.
She produced Aunt Pittyâs âswoon bottleâ of brandy which she had hidden there and held it up to the lamp.
It was nearly half-empty.
Surely she hadnât drunk that much since last night!
She poured a generous amount into her water glass and gulped it down.
She would have to put the bottle back in the cellaret before morning, filled to the top with water.
Mammy had hunted for it, just before the funeral when the pallbearers wanted a drink, and already the air in the kitchen was electric with suspicion between Mammy, Cookie and Peter.
The brandy burned with fiery pleasantness.
There was nothing like it when you needed it.
In fact, brandy was good almost any time, so much better than insipid wine.
Why on earth should it be proper for a woman to drink wine and not spirits?
Mrs. Merriwether and Mrs. Meade had sniffed her breath most obviously at the funeral and she had seen the triumphant look they had exchanged.
The old cats!
She poured another drink.
It wouldnât matter if she did get a little tipsy tonight for she was going to bed soon and she could gargle cologne before Mammy came up to unlace her.
She wished she could get as completely and thoughtlessly drunk as Gerald used to get on Court Day.
Then perhaps she could forget Frankâs sunken face accusing her of ruining his life and then killing him.
She wondered if everyone in town thought she had killed him.
Certainly the people at the funeral had been cold to her.
The only people who had put any warmth into their expressions of sympathy were the wives of the Yankee officers with whom she did business.
Well, she didnât care what the town said about her.
How unimportant that seemed beside what she would have to answer for to God!
She took another drink at the thought, shuddering as the hot brandy went down her throat.
She felt very warm now but still she couldnât get the thought of Frank out of her mind.
What fools men were when they said liquor made people forget!
Unless she drank herself into insensibility, sheâd still see Frankâs face as it had looked the last time he begged her not to drive alone, timid, reproachful, apologetic.
The knocker on the front door hammered with a dull sound that made the still house echo and she heard Aunt Pittyâs waddling steps crossing the hall and the door opening.
There was the sound of greeting and an indistinguishable murmur.
Some neighbors calling to discuss the funeral or to bring a blanc mange.
Pitty would like that.
She had taken an important and melancholy pleasure in talking to the condolence callers.
She wondered incuriously who it was and, when a manâs voice, resonant and drawling, rose above Pittyâs funereal whispering, she knew.
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Gladness and relief flooded her.
It was Rhett.
She had not seen him since he broke the news of Frankâs death to her, and now she knew, deep in her heart, that he was the one person who could help her tonight.
âI think sheâll see me,â Rhettâs voice floated up to her.
âBut she is lying down now, Captain Butler, and wonât see anyone.
Poor child, she is quite prostrated.
Sheââ
âI think she will see me.
Please tell her I am going away tomorrow and may be gone some time.
Itâs very important.â
âButââ fluttered Aunt Pittypat.
Scarlett ran out into the hall, observing with some astonishment that her knees were a little unsteady, and leaned over the banisters.
âIâll be down terrectly, Rhett,â she called.
She had a glimpse of Aunt Pittypatâs plump upturned face, her eyes owlish with surprise and disapproval.
Now itâll be all over town that I conducted myself most improperly on the day of my husbandâs funeral, thought Scarlett, as she hurried back to her room and began smoothing her hair.
She buttoned her black basque up to the chin and pinned down the collar with Pittypatâs mourning brooch.
I donât look very pretty,â she thought, leaning toward the mirror, too white and scared.
For a moment her hand went toward the lock box where she kept her rouge hidden but she decided against it.
Poor Pittypat would be upset in earnest if she came downstairs pink and blooming.
She picked up the cologne bottle and took a large mouthful, carefully rinsed her mouth and then spit into the slop jar.
She rustled down the stairs toward the two who still stood in the hall, for Pittypat had been too upset by Scarlettâs action to ask Rhett to sit down.
He was decorously clad in black, his linen frilly and starched, and his manner was all that custom demanded from an old friend paying a call of sympathy on one bereaved.
In fact, it was so perfect that it verged on the burlesque, though Pitty-pat did not see it.
He was properly apologetic for disturbing Scarlett and regretted that in his rush of closing up business before leaving town he had been unable to be present at the funeral.
âWhatever possessed him to come?â wondered Scarlett.
âHe doesnât mean a word heâs saying.â
âI hate to intrude on you at this time but I have a matter of business to discuss that will not wait.
Something that Mr. Kennedy and I were planningââ
âI didnât know you and Mr. Kennedy had business dealings,â said Aunt Pittypat, almost indignant that some of Frankâs activities were unknown to her.
âMr. Kennedy was a man of wide interests,â said Rhett respectfully.
âShall we go into the parlor?â
âNo!â cried Scarlett, glancing at the closed folding doors.
She could still see the coffin in that room.
She hoped she never had to enter it again.
Pitty, for once, took a hint, although with none too good grace.
âDo use the library.
I mustâI must go upstairs and get out the mending.
Dear me, Iâve neglected it so this last week.
I declareââ
She went up the stairs with a backward look of reproach which was noticed by neither Scarlett nor Rhett.
He stood aside to let her pass before him into the library.
âWhat business did you and Frank have?â she questioned abruptly.
He came closer and whispered.
âNone at all.
I just wanted to get Miss Pitty out of the way.â
He paused as he leaned over her.
âItâs no good, Scarlett.â
âWhat?â
âThe cologne.â
âIâm sure I donât know what you mean.â
âIâm sure you do.
Youâve been drinking pretty heavily.â
âWell, what if I have?
Is it any of your business?â
âThe soul of courtesy, even in the depths of sorrow.
Donât drink alone, Scarlett.
People always find it out and it ruins the reputation.
And besides, itâs a bad business this drinking alone.
Whatâs the matter, honey?â
He led her to the rosewood sofa and she sat down in silence.
âMay I close the doors?â
She knew if Mammy saw the closed doors, she would be scandalized and would lecture and grumble about it for days, but it would be still worse if Mammy should overhear this discussion of drinking, especially in light of the missing brandy bottle.
She nodded and Rhett drew the sliding doors together.
When he came back and sat down beside her, his dark eyes alertly searching her face, the pall of death receded before the vitality he radiated and the room seemed pleasant and homelike again, the lamps rosy and warm.
âWhatâs the matter, honey?â
No one in the world could say that foolish word of endearment as caressingly as Rhett, even when he was joking, but he did not look as if he were joking now.
She raised tormented eyes to his face and somehow found comfort in the blank inscrutability she saw there.
She did not know why this should be, for he was such an unpredictable, callous person.
Perhaps it was because, as he often said, they were so much alike.
Sometimes she thought that all the people she had ever known were strangers except Rhett.
âCanât you tell me?â he took her hand, oddly gentle.
âItâs more than just old Frank leaving you?
Do you need money?â
âMoney?
God, no!
Oh, Rhett, Iâm so afraid.â
âDonât be a goose, Scarlett, youâve never been afraid in your life.â
âOh, Rhett, I am afraid!â
The words bubbled up faster than she could speak them.
She could tell him.
She could tell Rhett anything.
Heâs been so bad himself that he wouldnât sit in judgment on her.
How wonderful to know someone who was bad and dishonorable and a cheat and a liar, when all the world was filled with people who would not lie to save their souls and who would rather starve than do a dishonorable deed!
âIâm afraid Iâll die and go to hell.â
If he laughed at her she would die, right then.
But he did not laugh.
âYou are pretty healthyâand maybe there isnât any hell after all.â
âOh, but there is, Rhett!
You know there is!â
âI know there is but itâs right here on earth.
Not after we die.
Thereâs nothing after we die, Scarlett.
You are having your hell now.â
âOh, Rhett, thatâs blasphemous!â
âBut singularly comforting.
Tell me, why are you going to hell?â
He was teasing now, she could see the glint in his eyes but she did not mind.
His hands felt so warm and strong, so comforting to cling to.
âRhett, I oughtnât to have married Frank.
It was wrong.
He was Suellenâs beau and he loved her, not me.
But I lied to him and told him she was going to marry Tony Fontaine.
Oh, how could I have done it?â
âAh, so that was how it came about!
I always wondered.â
âAnd then I made him so miserable.
I made him do all sorts of things he didnât want to do, like making people pay their bills when they really couldnât afford to pay them.
And it hurt him so when I ran the mills and built the saloon and leased convicts.
He could hardly hold his head up for shame.
And Rhett, I killed him.
Yes, I did!
I didnât know he was in the Klan.
I never dreamed he had that much gumption.
But I ought to have known.
And I killed him.â
ââWill all great Neptuneâs ocean wash this blood clean from my hand?ââ
âWhat?â
âNo matter.
Go on.â
âGo on?
Thatâs all.
Isnât it enough?
I married him, I made him unhappy and I killed him.
Oh, my God!
I donât see how I could have done it!
I lied to him and I married him.
It all seemed so right when I did it but now I see how wrong it was.
Rhett, it doesnât seem like it was me who did all these things.
I was so mean to him but Iâm not really mean.
I wasnât raised that way.
Motherââ
She stopped and swallowed.
She had avoided thinking of Ellen all day but she could no longer blot out her image.
âI often wondered what she was like.
You seemed to me so like your father.â
âMother wasâ Oh, Rhett, for the first time Iâm glad sheâs dead, so she canât see me.
She didnât raise me to be mean.
She was so kind to everybody, so good.
Sheâd rather Iâd have starved than done this.
And I so wanted to be just like her in every way and Iâm not like her one bit.
I hadnât thought of thatâthereâs been so much else to think aboutâbut I wanted to be like her.
I didnât want to be like Pa.
I loved him but he wasâsoâso thoughtless.
Rhett, sometimes I did try so hard to be nice to people and kind to Frank, but then the nightmare would come back and scare me so bad Iâd want to rush out and just grab money away from people, whether it was mine or not.â
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Tears were streaming unheeded down her face and she clutched his hand so hard that her nails dug into his flesh.
âWhat nightmare?â
His voice was calm and soothing.
âOhâI forgot you didnât know.
Well, just when I would try to be nice to folks and tell myself that money wasnât everything, Iâd go to bed and dream that I was back at Tara right after Mother died, right after the Yankees went through.
Rhett, you canât imagineâ I get cold when I think about it.
I can see how everything is burned and so still and thereâs nothing to eat.
Oh, Rhett, in my dream Iâm hungry again.â
âGo on.â
âIâm hungry and everybody, Pa and the girls and the darkies, are starving and they keep saying over and over: âWeâre hungryâ and Iâm so empty it hurts, and so frightened.
My mind keeps saying: âIf I ever get out of this, Iâll never, never be hungry againâ and then the dream goes off into a gray mist and Iâm running, running in the mist, running so hard my heartâs about to burst and something is chasing me, and I canât breathe but I keep thinking that if I can just get there, Iâll be safe.
But I donât know where Iâm trying to get to.
And then Iâd wake up and Iâd be cold with fright and so afraid that Iâd be hungry again.
When I wake up from that dream, it seems like thereâs not enough money in the world to keep me from being afraid of being hungry again.
And then Frank would be so mealy mouthed and slow poky that he would make me mad and Iâd lose my temper.
He didnât understand, I guess, and I couldnât make him understand.
I kept thinking that Iâd make it up to him some day when we had money and I wasnât so afraid of being hungry.
And now heâs dead and itâs too late.
Oh, it seemed so right when I did it but it was all so wrong.
If I had it to do over again, Iâd do it so differently.â
âHush,â he said, disentangling her frantic grip and pulling a clean handkerchief from his pocket.
âWipe your face.
There is no sense in your tearing yourself to pieces this way.â
She took the handkerchief and wiped her damp cheeks, a little relief stealing over her as if she had shifted some of her burden to his broad shoulders.
He looked so capable and calm and even the slight twist of his mouth was comforting as though it proved her agony and confusion unwarranted.
âFeel better now?
Then letâs get to the bottom of this.
You say if you had it to do over again, youâd do it differently.
But would you?
Think, now.
Would you?â
âWellââ
âNo, youâd do the same things again.
Did you have any other choice?â
âNo.â
âThen what are you sorry about?â
âI was so mean and now heâs dead.â
âAnd if he wasnât dead, youâd still be mean.
As I understand it, you are not really sorry for marrying Frank and bullying him and inadvertently causing his death.
You are only sorry because you are afraid of going to hell.
Is that right?â
âWellâthat sounds so mixed up.â
âYour ethics are considerably mixed up too.
You are in the exact position of a thief whoâs been caught red handed and isnât sorry he stole but is terribly, terribly sorry heâs going to jail.â
âA thiefââ
âOh, donât be so literal!
In other words if you didnât have this silly idea that you were damned to hell fire eternal, youâd think you were well rid of Frank.â
âOh, Rhett!â
âOh, come!
You are confessing and you might as well confess the truth as a decorous lie.
Did yourâerâconscience bother you much when you offered toâshall we sayâpart with that jewel which is dearer than life for three hundred dollars?â
The brandy was spinning in her head now and she felt giddy and a little reckless.
What was the use in lying to him?
He always seemed to read her mind.
âI really didnât think about God much thenâor hell.
And when I did thinkâwell, I just reckoned God would understand.â
âBut you donât credit God with understanding why you married Frank?â
âRhett, how can you talk so about God when you know you donât believe there is one?â
âBut you believe in a God of Wrath and thatâs whatâs important at present.
Why shouldnât the Lord understand?
Are you sorry you still own Tara and there arenât Carpetbaggers living there?
Are you sorry you arenât hungry and ragged?â
âOh, no!â
âWell, did you have any alternative except marrying Frank?â
âNo.â
âHe didnât have to marry you, did he?
Men are free agents.
And he didnât have to let you bully him into doing things he didnât want to, did he?â
âWellââ
âScarlett, why worry about it?
If you had it to do over again you would be driven to the lie and he to marrying you.
You would still have run yourself into danger and he would have had to avenge you.
If he had married Sister Sue, she might not have caused his death but sheâd probably have made him twice as unhappy as you did.
It couldnât have happened differently.â
âBut I could have been nicer to him.â
âYou could have beenâif youâd been somebody else.
But you were born to bully anyone who will let you do it.
The strong were made to bully and the weak to knuckle under.
Itâs all Frankâs fault for not beating you with a buggy whipâŠ.
Iâm surprised at you, Scarlett, for sprouting a conscience this late in life.
Opportunists like you shouldnât have them.â
âWhat is an opporâwhat did you call it?â
âA person who takes advantage of opportunities.â
âIs that wrong?â
âIt has always been held in disreputeâespecially by those who had the same opportunities and didnât take them.â
âOh, Rhett, you are joking and I thought you were going to be nice!â
âI am being niceâfor me.
Scarlett, darling, you are tipsy.
Thatâs whatâs the matter with you.â
âYou dareââ
âYes, I dare.
You are on the verge of what is vulgarly called a âcrying jagâ and so I shall change the subject and cheer you up by telling you some news that will amuse you.
In fact, thatâs why I came here this evening, to tell you my news before I went away.â
âWhere are you going?â
âTo England and I may be gone for months.
Forget your conscience, Scarlett.
I have no intention of discussing your soulâs welfare any further.
Donât you want to hear my news?â
âButââ she began feebly and paused.
Between the brandy which was smoothing out the harsh contours of remorse and Rhettâs mocking but comforting words, the pale specter of Frank was receding into shadows.
Perhaps Rhett was right.
Perhaps God did understand.
She recovered enough to push the idea from the top of her mind and decide: âIâll think about it all tomorrow.â
âWhatâs your news?â she said with an effort, blowing her nose on his handkerchief and pushing back the hair that had begun to straggle.
âMy news is this,â he answered, grinning down at her.
âI still want you more than any woman Iâve ever seen and now that Frank is gone, I thought youâd be interested to know it.â
Scarlett jerked her hands away from his grasp and sprang to her feet.
âIâyou are the most ill-bred man in the world, coming here at this time of all times with your filthyâI should have known youâd never change.
And Frank hardly cold!
If you had any decencyâ Will you leave thisââ
âDo be quiet or youâll have Miss Pittypat down here in a minute,â he said, not rising but reaching up and taking both her fists.
âIâm afraid you miss my point.â
âMiss your point?
I donât miss anything.â
She pulled against his grip.
âTurn me loose and get out of here.
I never heard of such bad taste.
Iââ
âHush,â he said.
âI am asking you to marry me.
Would you be convinced if I knelt down?â
She said âOhâ breathlessly and sat down hard on the sofa.
She stared at him, her mouth open, wondering if the brandy were playing tricks on her mind, remembering senselessly his jibing: âMy dear, Iâm not a marrying man.â
She was drunk or he was crazy.
But he did not look crazy.
He looked as calm as though he were discussing the weather, and his smooth drawl fell on her ears with no particular emphasis.
âI always intended having you, Scarlett, since that first day I saw you at Twelve Oaks when you threw that vase and swore and proved that you werenât a lady.
I always intended having you, one way or another.
But as you and Frank have made a little money, I know youâll never be driven to me again with any interesting propositions of loans and collaterals.
So I see Iâll have to marry you.â
âRhett Butler, is this one of your vile jokes?â
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âI bare my soul and you are suspicious!
No, Scarlett, this is a bona fide honorable declaration.
I admit that itâs not in the best of taste, coming at this time, but I have a very good excuse for my lack of breeding.
Iâm going away tomorrow for a long time and I fear that if I wait till I return youâll have married some one else with a little money.
So I thought, why not me and my money?
Really, Scarlett, I canât go all my life, waiting to catch you between husbands.â
He meant it.
There was no doubt about it.
Her mouth was dry as she assimilated this knowledge and she swallowed and looked into his eyes, trying to find some clue.
They were full of laughter but there was something else, deep in them, which she had never seen before, a gleam that defied analysis.
He sat easily, carelessly but she felt that he was watching her as alertly as a cat watches a mouse hole.
There was a sense of leashed power straining beneath his calm that made her draw back, a little frightened.
He was actually asking her to marry him; he was committing the incredible.
Once she had planned how she would torment him should he ever propose.
Once she had thought that if he ever spoke those words she would humble him and make him feel her power and take a malicious pleasure in doing it.
Now, he had spoken and the plans did not even occur to her, for he was no more in her power than he had ever been.
In fact, he held the whip hand of the situation so completely that she was as flustered as a girl at her first proposal and she could only blush and stammer.
âIâI shall never marry again.â
âOh, yes, you will.
You were born to be married.
Why not me?â
âBut Rhett, IâI donât love you.â
âThat should be no drawback.
I donât recall that love was prominent in your other two ventures.â
âOh, how can you?
You know I was fond of Frank!â
He said nothing.
âI was!
I was!â
âWell, we wonât argue that.
Will you think over my proposition while Iâm gone?â
âRhett, I donât like for things to drag on.
Iâd rather tell you now.
Iâm going home to Tara soon and India Wilkes will stay with Aunt Pittypat.
I want to go home for a long spell andâIâI donât ever want to get married again.â
âNonsense.
Why?â
âOh, wellânever mind why.
I just donât like being married.â
âBut, my poor child, youâve never really been married.
How can you know?
Iâll admit youâve had bad luckâonce for spite and once for money.
Did you ever think of marryingâjust for the fun of it?â
âFun!
Donât talk like a fool.
Thereâs no fun being married.â
âNo?
Why not?â
A measure of calm had returned and with it all the natural bluntness which brandy brought to the surface.
âItâs fun for menâthough God knows why.
I never could understand it.
But all a woman gets out of it is something to eat and a lot of work and having to put up with a manâs foolishnessâand a baby every year.â
He laughed so loudly that the sound echoed in the stillness and Scarlett heard the kitchen door open.
âHush!
Mammy has ears like a lynx and it isnât decent to laugh so soon afterâhush laughing.
You know itâs true.
Fun!
Fiddle-dee-dee!â
âI said youâd had bad luck and what youâve just said proves it.
Youâve been married to a boy and to an old man.
And into the bargain Iâll bet your mother told you that women must bear âthese thingsâ because of the compensating joys of motherhood.
Well, thatâs all wrong.
Why not try marrying a fine young man who has a bad reputation and a way with women?
Itâll be fun.â
âYou are coarse and conceited and I think this conversation has gone far enough.
Itâsâitâs quite vulgar.â
âAnd quite enjoyable too, isnât it?
Iâll wager you never discussed the marital relation with a man before, even Charles or Frank.â
She scowled at him.
Rhett knew too much.
She wondered where he had learned all he knew about women.
It wasnât decent.
âDonât frown.
Name the day, Scarlett.
Iâm not urging instant matrimony because of your reputation.
Weâll wait the decent interval.
By the way, just how long is a âdecent intervalâ?â
âI havenât said Iâd marry you.
It isnât decent to even talk of such things at such a time.â
âIâve told you why Iâm talking of them.
Iâm going away tomorrow and Iâm too ardent a lover to restrain my passion any longer.
But perhaps Iâve been too precipitate in my wooing.â
With a suddenness that startled her, he slid off the sofa onto his knees and with one hand placed delicately over his heart, he recited rapidly:
âForgive me for startling you with the impetuosity of my sentiments, my dear ScarlettâI mean, my dear Mrs. Kennedy.
It cannot have escaped your notice that for some time past the friendship I have had in my heart for you has ripened into a deeper feeling, a feeling more beautiful, more pure, more sacred.
Dare I name it for you?
Ah!
It is love which makes me so bold!â
âDo get up,â she entreated.
âYou look such a fool and suppose Mammy should come in and see you?â
âShe would be stunned and incredulous at the first signs of my gentility,â said Rhett, arising lightly.
âCome, Scarlett, you are no child, no schoolgirl to put me off with foolish excuses about decency and so forth.
Say youâll marry me when I come back or, before God, I wonât go.
Iâll stay around here and play a guitar under your window every night and sing at the top of my voice and compromise you, so youâll have to marry me to save your reputation.â
âRhett, do be sensible.
I donât want to marry anybody.â
âNo?
You arenât telling me the real reason.
It canât be girlish timidity.
What is it?â
Suddenly she thought of Ashley, saw him as vividly as though he stood beside her, sunny haired, drowsy eyed, full of dignity, so utterly different from Rhett.
He was the real reason she did not want to marry again, although she had no objections to Rhett and at times was genuinely fond of him.
She belonged to Ashley, forever and ever.
She had never belonged to Charles or Frank, could never really belong to Rhett.
Every part of her, almost everything she had ever done, striven after, attained, belonged to Ashley, were done because she loved him.
Ashley and Tara, she belonged to them.
The smiles, the laughter, the kisses she had given Charles and Frank were Ashleyâs, even though he had never claimed them, would never claim them.
Somewhere deep in her was the desire to keep herself for him, although she knew he would never take her.
She did not know that her face had changed, that reverie had brought a softness to her face which Rhett had never seen before.
He looked at the slanting green eyes, wide and misty, and the tender curve of her lips and for a moment his breath stopped.
Then his mouth went down violently at one corner and he swore with passionate impatience.
âScarlett OâHara, youâre a fool!â
Before she could withdraw her mind from its far places, his arms were around her, as sure and hard as on the dark road to Tara, so long ago.
She felt again the rush of helplessness, the sinking yielding, the surging tide of warmth that left her limp.
And the quiet face of Ashley Wilkes was blurred and drowned to nothingness.
He bent back her head across his arm and kissed her, softly at first, and then with a swift gradation of intensity that made her cling to him as the only solid thing in a dizzy swaying world.
His insistent mouth was parting her shaking lips, sending wild tremors along her nerves, evoking from her sensations she had never known she was capable of feeling.
And before a swimming giddiness spun her round and round, she knew that she was kissing him back.
âStopâplease, Iâm faint!â she whispered, trying to turn her head weakly from him.
He pressed her head back hard against his shoulder and she had a dizzy glimpse of his face.
His eyes were wide and blazing queerly and the tremor in his arms frightened her.
âI want to make you faint.
I will make you faint.
Youâve had this coming to you for years.
None of the fools youâve known have kissed you like thisâhave they?
Your precious Charles or Frank or your stupid Ashleyââ
âPleaseââ
âI said your stupid Ashley.
Gentlemen allâwhat do they know about women?
What did they know about you?
I know you.â
His mouth was on hers again and she surrendered without a struggle, too weak even to turn her head, without even the desire to turn it, her heart shaking her with its poundings, fear of his strength and her nerveless weakness sweeping her.
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What was he going to do?
She would faint if he did not stop.
If he would only stopâif he would never stop.
âSay Yes!â
His mouth was poised above hers and his eyes were so close that they seemed enormous, filling the world.
âSay Yes, damn you, orââ
She whispered âYesâ before she even thought.
It was almost as if he had willed the word and she had spoken it without her own volition.
But even as she spoke it, a sudden calm fell on her spirit, her head began to stop spinning and even the giddiness of the brandy was lessened.
She had promised to marry him when she had had no intention of promising.
She hardly knew how it had all come about but she was not sorry.
It now seemed very natural that she had said Yesâalmost as if by divine intervention, a hand stronger than hers was about her affairs, settling her problems for her.
He drew a quick breath as she spoke and bent as if to kiss her again and her eyes closed and her head fell back.
But he drew back and she was faintly disappointed.
It made her feel so strange to be kissed like this and yet there was something exciting about it.
He sat very still for a while holding her head against his shoulder and, as if by effort, the trembling of his arms ceased.
He moved away from her a little and looked down at her.
She opened her eyes and saw that the frightening glow had gone from his face.
But somehow she could not meet his gaze and she dropped her eyes in a rush of tingling confusion.
When he spoke his voice was very calm.
âYou meant it?
You donât want to take it back?â
âNo.â
âItâs not just because Iâveâwhat is the phrase?ââswept you off your feetâ by myâerâardor?â
She could not answer for she did not know what to say, nor could she meet his eyes.
He put a hand under her chin and lifted her face.
âI told you once that I could stand anything from you except a lie.
And now I want the truth.
Just why did you say Yes?â
Still the words would not come, but, a measure of poise returning, she kept her eyes demurely down and tucked the corners of her mouth into a little smile.
âLook at me.
Is it my money?â
âWhy, Rhett!
What a question!â
âLook up and donât try to sweet talk me.
Iâm not Charles or Frank or any of the County boys to be taken in by your fluttering lids.
Is it my money?â
âWellâyes, a part.â
âA part?â
He did not seem annoyed.
He drew a swift breath and with an effort wiped from his eyes the eagerness her words had brought, an eagerness which she was too confused to see.
âWell,â she floundered helplessly, âmoney does help, you know, Rhett, and God knows Frank didnât leave any too much.
But thenâwell, Rhett, we do get on, you know.
And you are the only man I ever saw who could stand the truth from a woman, and it would be nice having a husband who didnât think me a silly fool and expect me to tell liesâandâwell, I am fond of you.â
âFond of me?â
âWell,â she said fretfully, âif I said I was madly in love with you, Iâd be lying and whatâs more, youâd know it.â
âSometimes I think you carry your truth telling too far, my pet.
Donât you think, even if it was a lie, that it would be appropriate for you to say âI love you, Rhett,â even if you didnât mean it?â
What was he driving at, she wondered, becoming more confused.
He looked so queer, eager, hurt, mocking.
He took his hands from her and shoved them deep in his trouser pockets and she saw him ball his fists.
âIf it costs me a husband, Iâll tell the truth,â she thought grimly, her blood up as always when he baited her.
âRhett, it would be a lie, and why should we go through all that foolishness?
Iâm fond of you, like I said.
You know how it is.
You told me once that you didnât love me but that we had a lot in common.
Both rascals, was the way youââ
âOh, God!â he whispered rapidly, turning his head away.
âTo be taken in my own trap!â
âWhat did you say?â
âNothing,â and he looked at her and laughed, but it was not a pleasant laugh.
âName the day, my dear,â and he laughed again and bent and kissed her hands.
She was relieved to see his mood pass and good humor apparently return, so she smiled too.
He played with her hand for a moment and grinned up at her.
âDid you ever in your novel reading come across the old situation of the disinterested wife falling in love with her own husband?â
âYou know I donât read novels,â she said and, trying to equal his jesting mood, went on: âBesides, you once said it was the height of bad form for husbands and wives to love each other.â
âI once said too God damn many things,â he retorted abruptly and rose to his feet.
âDonât swear.â
âYouâll have to get used to it and learn to swear too.
Youâll have to get used to all my bad habits.
Thatâll be part of the price of beingâfond of me and getting your pretty paws on my money.â
âWell, donât fly off the handle so, because I didnât lie and make you feel conceited.
You arenât in love with me, are you?
Why should I be in love with you?â
âNo, my dear, Iâm not in love with you, no more than you are with me, and if I were, you would be the last person Iâd ever tell.
God help the man who ever really loves you.
Youâd break his heart, my darling, cruel, destructive little cat who is so careless and confident she doesnât even trouble to sheathe her claws.â
He jerked her to her feet and kissed her again, but this time his lips were different for he seemed not to care if he hurt herâseemed to want to hurt her, to insult her.
His lips slid down to her throat and finally he pressed them against the taffeta over her breast, so hard and so long that his breath burnt to her skin.
Her hands struggled up, pushing him away in outraged modesty.
âYou mustnât!
How dare you!â
âYour heartâs going like a rabbitâs,â he said mockingly.
âAll too fast for mere fondness I would think, if I were conceited.
Smooth your ruffled feathers.
You are just putting on these virginal airs.
Tell me what I shall bring you from England.
A ring?
What kind would you like?â
She wavered momentarily between interest in his last words and a feminine desire to prolong the scene with anger and indignation.
âOhâa diamond ringâand Rhett, do buy a great big one.â
âSo you can flaunt it before your poverty-stricken friends and say âSee what I caught!â
Very well, you shall have a big one, one so big that your less-fortunate friends can comfort themselves by whispering that itâs really vulgar to wear such large stones.â
He abruptly started off across the room and she followed him, bewildered, to the closed doors.
âWhat is the matter?
Where are you going?â
âTo my rooms to finish packing.â
âOh, butââ
âBut, what?â
âNothing.
I hope you have a nice trip.â
âThank you.â
He opened the door and walked into the hall.
Scarlett trailed after him, somewhat at a loss, a trifle disappointed as at an unexpected anticlimax.
He slipped on his coat and picked up his gloves and hat.
âIâll write you.
Let me know if you change your mind.â
âArenât youââ
âWell?â
He seemed impatient to be off.
âArenât you going to kiss me good-by?â she whispered, mindful of the ears of the house.
âDonât you think youâve had enough kissing for one evening?â he retorted and grinned down at her.
âTo think of a modest, well-brought-up young womanâ Well, I told you it would be fun, didnât I?â
âOh, you are impossible!â she cried in wrath, not caring if Mammy did hear.
âAnd I donât care if you never come back.â
She turned and flounced toward the stairs, expecting to feel his warm hand on her arm, stopping her.
But he only pulled open the front door and a cold draft swept in.
âBut I will come back,â he said and went out, leaving her on the bottom step looking at the closed door.
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The ring Rhett brought back from England was large indeed, so large it embarrassed Scarlett to wear it.
She loved gaudy and expensive jewelry but she had an uneasy feeling that everyone was saying, with perfect truth, that this ring was vulgar.
The central stone was a four-carat diamond and, surrounding it, were a number of emeralds.
It reached to the knuckle of her finger and gave her hand the appearance of being weighted down.
Scarlett had a suspicion that Rhett had gone to great pains to have the ring made up and, for pure meanness, had ordered it made as ostentatious as possible.
Until Rhett was back in Atlanta and the ring on her finger she told no one, not even her family, of her intentions, and when she did announce her engagement a storm of bitter gossip broke out.
Since the Klan affair Rhett and Scarlett had been, with the exception of the Yankees and Carpetbaggers, the townâs most unpopular citizens.
Everyone had disapproved of Scarlett since the far-away day when she abandoned the weeds worn for Charlie Hamilton.
Their disapproval had grown stronger because of her unwomanly conduct in the matter of the mills, her immodesty in showing herself when she was pregnant and so many other things.
But when she brought about the death of Frank and Tommy and jeopardized the lives of a dozen other men, their dislike flamed into public condemnation.
As for Rhett, he had enjoyed the townâs hatred since his speculations during the war and he had not further endeared himself to his fellow citizens by his alliances with the Republicans since then.
But, oddly enough, the fact that he had saved the lives of some of Atlantaâs most prominent men was what aroused the hottest hate of Atlantaâs ladies.
It was not that they regretted their men were still alive.
It was that they bitterly resented owing the menâs lives to such a man as Rhett and to such an embarrassing trick.
For months they had writhed under Yankee laughter and scorn, and the ladies felt and said that if Rhett really had the good of the Klan at heart he would have managed the affair in a more seemly fashion.
They said he had deliberately dragged in Belle Watling to put the nice people of the town in a disgraceful position.
And so he deserved neither thanks for rescuing the men nor forgiveness for his past sins.
These women, so swift to kindness, so tender to the sorrowing, so untiring in times of stress, could be as implacable as furies to any renegade who broke one small law of their unwritten code.
This code was simple.
Reverence for the Confederacy, honor to the veterans, loyalty to old forms, pride in poverty, open hands to friends and undying hatred to Yankees.
Between them, Scarlett and Rhett had outraged every tenet of this code.
The men whose lives Rhett had saved attempted, out of decency and a sense of gratitude, to keep their women silent but they had little success.
Before the announcement of their coming marriage, the two had been unpopular enough but people could still be polite to them in a formal way.
Now even that cold courtesy was no longer possible.
The news of their engagement came like an explosion, unexpected and shattering, rocking the town, and even the mildest-mannered women spoke their minds heatedly.
Marrying barely a year after Frankâs death and she had killed him!
And marrying that Butler man who owned a brothel and who was in with the Yankees and Carpetbaggers in all kinds of thieving schemes!
Separately, the two of them could be endured, but the brazen combination of Scarlett and Rhett was too much to be borne.
Common and vile, both of them!
They ought to be run out of town!
Atlanta might perhaps have been more tolerant toward the two if the news of their engagement had not come at a time when Rhettâs Carpetbagger and Scallawag cronies were more odious in the sight of respectable citizens than they had ever been before.
Public feeling against the Yankees and all their allies was at fever heat at the very time when the town learned of the engagement, for the last citadel of Georgiaâs resistance to Yankee rule had just fallen.
The long campaign which had begun when Sherman moved southward from above Dalton, four years before, had finally reached its climax, and the stateâs humiliation was complete.
Three years of Reconstruction had passed and they had been three years of terrorism.
Everyone had thought that conditions were already as bad as they could ever be.
But now Georgia was discovering that Reconstruction at its worst had just begun.
For three years the Federal government had been trying to impose alien ideas and an alien rule upon Georgia and, with an army to enforce its commands, it had largely succeeded.
But only the power of the military upheld the new regime.
The state was under the Yankee rule but not by the stateâs consent.
Georgiaâs leaders had kept on battling for the stateâs right to govern itself according to its own ideas.
They had continued resisting all efforts to force them to bow down and accept the dictates of Washington as their own state law.
Officially, Georgiaâs government had never capitulated but it had been a futile fight, an ever-losing fight.
It was a fight that could not win but it had, at least, postponed the inevitable.
Already many other Southern states had illiterate negroes in high public office and legislatures dominated by negroes and Carpetbaggers.
But Georgia, by its stubborn resistance, had so far escaped this final degradation.
For the greater part of three years, the stateâs capital had remained in the control of white men and Democrats.
With Yankee soldiers everywhere, the state officials could do little but protest and resist.
Their power was nominal but they had at least been able to keep the state government in the hands of native Georgians.
Now even that last stronghold had fallen.
Just as Johnston and his men had been driven back step by step from Dalton to Atlanta, four years before, so had the Georgia Democrats been driven back little by little, from 1865 on.
The power of the Federal government over the stateâs affairs and the lives of its citizens had been steadily made greater and greater.
Force had been piled on top of force and military edicts in increasing numbers had rendered the civil authority more and more impotent.
Finally, with Georgia in the status of a military province, the polls had been ordered thrown open to the negroes, whether the stateâs laws permitted it or not.
A week before Scarlett and Rhett announced their engagement, an election for governor had been held.
The Southern Democrats had General John B. Gordon, one of Georgiaâs best loved and most honored citizens, as their candidate.
Opposing him was a Republican named Bullock.
The election had lasted three days instead of one.
Trainloads of negroes had been rushed from town to town, voting at every precinct along the way.
Of course, Bullock had won.
If the capture of Georgia by Sherman had caused bitterness, the final capture of the stateâs capital by the Carpetbaggers, Yankees and negroes caused an intensity of bitterness such as the state had never known before.
Atlanta and Georgia seethed and raged.
And Rhett Butler was a friend of the hated Bullock!
Scarlett, with her usual disregard for all matters not directly under her nose, had scarcely known an election was being held.
Rhett had taken no part in the election and his relations with the Yankees were no different from what they had always been.
But the fact remained that Rhett was a Scallawag and a friend of Bullock.
And, if the marriage went through, Scarlett also would be turning Scallawag.
Atlanta was in no mood to be tolerant or charitable toward anyone in the enemy camp and, the news of the engagement coming when it did, the town remembered all of the evil things about the pair and none of the good.
Scarlett knew the town was rocking but she did not realize the extent of public feeling until Mrs. Merriwether, urged on by her church circle, took it upon herself to speak to her for her own good.
âBecause your own dear mother is dead and Miss Pitty, not being a matron, is not qualified toâer, well, to talk to you upon such a subject, I feel that I must warn you, Scarlett.
Captain Butler is not the kind of a man for any woman of good family to marry.
He is aââ
âHe managed to save Grandpa Merriwetherâs neck and your nephewâs too.â
Mrs. Merriwether swelled.
Hardly an hour before she had had an irritating talk with Grandpa.
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The old man had remarked that she must not value his hide very much if she did not feel some gratitude to Rhett Butler, even if the man was a Scallawag and a scoundrel.
âHe only did that as a dirty trick on us all, Scarlett, to embarrass us in front of the Yankees,â Mrs. Merriwether continued.
âYou know as well as I do that the man is a rogue.
He always has been and now heâs unspeakable.
He is simply not the kind of man decent people receive.â
âNo?
Thatâs strange, Mrs. Merriwether.
He was in your parlor often enough during the war.
And he gave Maybelle her white satin wedding dress, didnât he?
Or is my memory wrong?â
âThings were so different during the war and nice people associated with many men who were not quiteâIt was for the Cause and very proper, too.
Surely you canât be thinking of marrying a man who wasnât in the army, who jeered at men who did enlist?â
âHe was, too, in the army.
He was in the army eight months.
He was in the last campaign and fought at Franklin and was with General Johnston when he surrendered.â
âI had not heard that,â said Mrs. Merriwether and she looked as if she did not believe it either.
âBut he wasnât wounded,â she added, triumphantly.
âLots of men werenât.â
âEverybody who was anybody got wounded.
I know no one who wasnât wounded.â
Scarlett was goaded.
âThen I guess all the men you knew were such fools they didnât know when to come in out of a shower of rainâor of minie balls.
Now, let me tell you this, Mrs. Merriwether, and you can take it back to your busybody friends.
Iâm going to marry Captain Butler and I wouldnât care if heâd fought on the Yankee side.â
When that worthy matron went out of the house with her bonnet jerking with rage, Scarlett knew she had an open enemy now instead of a disapproving friend.
But she did not care.
Nothing Mrs. Merriwether could say or do could hurt her.
She did not care what anyone saidâanyone except Mammy.
Scarlett had borne with Pittyâs swooning at the news and had steeled herself to see Ashley look suddenly old and avoid her eyes as he wished her happiness.
She had been amused and irritated at the letters from Aunt Pauline and Aunt Eulalie in Charleston, horror struck at the news, forbidding the marriage, telling her it would not only ruin her social position but endanger theirs.
She had even laughed when Melanie with a worried pucker in her brows said loyally: âOf course, Captain Butler is much nicer than most people realize and he was so kind and clever, the way he saved Ashley.
And after all, he did fight for the Confederacy.
But, Scarlett, donât you think youâd better not decide so hastily?â
No, she didnât mind what anybody said, except Mammy.
Mammyâs words were the ones that made her most angry and brought the greatest hurt.
âAh has seed you do a heap of things dat would huât Miss Ellen, did she know.
Anâ it has done sorrered me a plenây.
But disyere is de wust yit.
Mahyinâ trash!
Yasâm, Ah said trash!
Doan go tellinâ me he come frum fine folkses.
Dat doan mek no diffunce.
Trash come outer de high places, same as de low, and he trash!
Yasâm, Miss Scarlett, Ahâs seed you tek Mistâ Charles âway frum Miss Honey wâen you dinâ keer nuthinâ âbout him.
Anâ Ahâs seed you rob yoâ own sister of Mistâ Frank.
Anâ Ahâs heshed mah mouf âbout a heap of things you is done, lak sellinâ po lumber fer good, anâ lyinâ âbout de other lumber gempmums, an ridinâ rounâ by yoâseff, exposing yoâseff ter free issue niggers anâ gittinâ Mistâ Frank shot, anâ not feedinâ dem poâ convicts nuff ter keep dey souls in dey bodies.
Ahâs done heshed mah mouf, even ef Miss Ellen in de Promise lanâ wuz sayinâ âMammy, Mammy!
You ainâ look affer mah chile right!â
Yasâm, Ahâs stood fer all dat but Ah ainâ gwine stand fer dis, Miss Scarlett.
You kain mahy wid trash.
Not wâile Ah got breaf in mah body.â
âI shall marry whom I please,â said Scarlett coldly.
âI think you are forgetting your place, Mammy.â
âAnâ high time, too!
Ef Ah doan say dese wuds ter you, who gwine ter do it?â
âIâve been thinking the matter over, Mammy, and Iâve decided that the best thing for you to do is to go back to Tara.
Iâll give you some money andââ
Mammy drew herself up with all her dignity.
âAh is free, Miss Scarlett.
You kain senâ me nowhar Ah doan wanter go.
Anâ wâen Ah goes back ter Tara, itâs gwine be wâen you goes wid me.
Ah ainâ gwine leave Miss Ellenâs chile, anâ dar ainâ no way in de worlâ ter mek me go.
Anâ Ah ainâ gwine leave Miss Ellenâs granâchillun fer no trashy steppa ter bring up, needer.
Hyah Ah is and hyah Ah stays!â
âI will not have you staying in my house and being rude to Captain Butler.
I am going to marry him and thereâs no more to be said.â
âDar is plenây mo ter be said,â retorted Mammy slowly and into her blurred old eyes there came the light of battle.
âBut Ah ainâ never thought ter say it ter none of Miss Ellenâs blood.
But, Miss Scarlett, lissen ter me.
You ainâ nuthinâ but a mule in hawse harness.
You kin polish a muleâs feets anâ shine his hide anâ put brass all over his harness anâ hitch him ter a fine cahâige.
But he a mule jesâ de same.
He doan fool nobody.
Anâ you is jesâ de same.
You got silk dresses anâ de mills anâ de stoâ anâ de money, anâ you give yoâseff airs lak a fine hawse, but you a mule jesâ de same.
Anâ you ainâ foolinâ nobody, needer.
Anâ dat Butler man, he come of good stock and he all slicked up lak a race hawse, but he a mule in hawse harness, jesâ lak you.â
Mammy bent a piercing look on her mistress.
Scarlett was speechless and quivering with insult.
âEf you say you gwine mahy him, you gwine do it, âcause you is bullhaided lak yoâ pa.
But âmember dis, Miss Scarlett, Ah ainâ leavinâ you.
Ah gwine stay right hyah anâ see dis thing thoo.â
Without waiting for a reply, Mammy turned and left Scarlett and if she said: âThou shalt see me at Philippi!â her tones could not have been more ominous.
While they were honeymooning in New Orleans Scarlett told Rhett of Mammyâs words.
To her surprise and indignation he laughed at Mammyâs statement about mules in horse harness.
âI have never heard a profound truth expressed so succinctly,â he said.
âMammyâs a smart old soul and one of the few people I know whose respect and good will Iâd like to have.
But, being a mule, I suppose Iâll never get either from her.
She even refused the ten-dollar gold piece which I, in my groomlike fervor, wished to present her after the wedding.
Iâve seen so few people who did not melt at the sight of cash.
But she looked me in the eye and thanked me and said she wasnât a free issue nigger and didnât need my money.â
âWhy should she take on so?
Why should everybody gabble about me like a bunch of guinea hens?
Itâs my own affair whom I marry and how often I marry.
Iâve always minded my own business.
Why donât other people mind theirs?â
âMy pet, the world can forgive practically anything except people who mind their own business.
But why should you squall like a scalded cat?
Youâve said often enough that you didnât mind what people said about you.
Why not prove it?
You know youâve laid yourself open to criticism so often in small matters, you canât expect to escape gossip in this large matter.
You knew thereâd be talk if you married a villain like me.
If I were a low-bred, poverty-stricken villain, people wouldnât be so mad.
But a rich, flourishing villainâof course, thatâs unforgivable.â
âI wish youâd be serious sometimes!â
âI am serious.
Itâs always annoying to the godly when the ungodly flourish like the green bay tree.
Cheer up, Scarlett, didnât you tell me once that the main reason you wanted a lot of money was so you could tell everybody to go to hell?
Nowâs your chance.â
âBut you were the main one I wanted to tell to go to hell,â said Scarlett, and laughed.
âDo you still want to tell me to go to hell?â
âWell, not as often as I used to.â
âDo it whenever you like, if it makes you happy.â
âIt doesnât make me especially happy,â said Scarlett and, bending, she kissed him carelessly.
His dark eyes flickered quickly over her face, hunting for something in her eyes which he did not find, and he laughed shortly.
âForget about Atlanta.
Forget the old cats.
I brought you to New Orleans to have fun and I intend that you shall have it.â